sedeh eh

aku kecik ati tp xda org mok lyn aku. pa ka reti. takut org tga muka aku kali nk. p bkn nya aku mam org pun. bila org len manas ka majuk ka aku pujuk bh. phl org len xkdk aku oo? aku kcik ati bssb bh. munasabah alu sbb aku. bkn slh aku pun. xda aku ego eh. org lom knl aku kali nk. kali la. tem2 gtok bok la aku mk crk dak cdk dlk2. tem tk bk cdk ada. ckp jk pa ngn cdk cdk lyn jk. sedeh eh. bla jaoh bok kta mk hargai cdk. p bknla aku xhargai cdk dlk. xtjk glk jk. kali la. hui. sedeh eh. kdg2 aku asa kdk org bodo jk rah ctok. mk plh apa2 mesti sorg. kdg2 ya aku ekot jk pa dsoh org. kdg2 cmpe hal duit pun aku ble xkesa. org utang aku pun aku plh xtauk jk. cpa la nyaman ati mk nageh duit nk. ada ka nok suka menageh2? xda ku asa. herm. sedeh eh. asa mok plg kinek2 jak. hurm.

sori la mun kekecikan ati aku tok xbtmpt. mok dipendam, sakit. mok diluah, xcmpe ati. hui.

sedeh sedeh :(

2nd week

i'm here in cfs for 2 weeks. another 5weeks of lectures and the mid semester come. wait for another 7weeks then the final. and and i'll be back to btu. wuhuuu. look, i seriously count the days. i even make my own calendar. oh life. why it is so hurt. wu~ i hate myself for being like this. urgh. i need life. wargh.

so far my study goes so well. i cope with the subject very well. i received my 1st tutorial this week. and and my life goes like that everyday. it seems bored and dull. ya ya it is so boring. urgh. oh life. 9xalah2 jwk aku tok oh life)

i want to talk about my room. 005 AC. i have my own bed, my own locker(s) <-- i have to lockers. i have my own study table and lamp. the toilet is far and only one. i do my laundry everyday. i eat with my friends every evening. herm. i want my room at home. argh. i am craving for internet connection so badly though my roomate have the broadband. hurm. i feel not comfortable borrowing ppl stuffs. urgh.

my life is so dull~

i want him~

hurm~

till then~

i hate this place

to the max.
because i hate my math n phy class
because there are so many boysssssss
uh i feel not xcomfortable
i sat rooted on the chair
i move only when necessary
wargh
hidup saya amat mcbr sem 2
uh
hurm
i'm not going back for raya haji :(
sedeh
pilu
wargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mommy i want to go back!

homesick =(

2nd semester just started and i miss home terribly. mok plg! mok plg!

i hate this place.

i hate my new hostel.

i hate the food.

i hate the toilet.

i hate the atmosphere.

i hate the guardssssss.

i hate the admin too.

why give us short break? bodo~

i hate everything.

i love home.

uh uh.

mok plg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i hate the one who curik my clothes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

paloi ko yar!!! sak ko bekurap pake baju yar!!!!!!!!!

i hate umobile!!!! umobile paloi! bankrup ko xlmk gk!!!!!!!! s**T

i want to go back~

i want my previous room~

huwa~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

huwa~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i need time to recover~

ohh march, i need you. let's fly to march~

i'm going back on 5th march 2009~

i want to go back this coming december but the ticket is so expensive~

huwaaaaaa~~~~~~~ i hate studying here~

hurm......

btw, i'm officially engineering student.

i take math1, chem1, phy1 and bio1.

my schedule not so pack.

onmon, i have morning classes, tues, evening classes and vice versa. selang seli. on fri i only have math class in the morning n free in the evening. but still, i hate this place~

i want my mom

i want my cats

i want my family

hurm.......................

before the new life starts

i want to tell a bit about my 1st semester. blah. i don't really want too but ngaa. maybe a bit. yeh a bit.

the life started on 10th june.

oh btw. a bit about, how i ended up with the decision to enroll in that place.

it was the very-very-very last decision. all things i did in straight 3 days. all the pengesahan thingy until packing stuffs thingy. in 3 days. blah. i don't want to be in that place but i have to since all the pressure was on me that time. so, here i come to 'that place'. huh.

enrolled as physical science student, end up with decision change to archi student. then now, still praying for the best to be in engine family. oh saya mmg pelik. jgn tanya kenapa.

2 weeks of missing home terribly. i cried almost everyday. saya mau pulang! started classes without any group. had to do that silly add-drop thingy which i never knew what was it at first. stupid admin. my name was not in any single list. i was hopeless that time. i'm all alone. i was surrounding with medical students. i don't like it. i need space. wargh. i was all alone. in my mind just, i need rest. i want to go back. let search for the cheapest flight. hahaha. then, went to studio for 2 weeks. i gave up. drop all my core courses. left only english, arabic n understanding islam in my study list. so, struggle with that 3 subject. blah. that's easy. ppl said. but it was the hardest subject in my life. blah.

2 weeks after the taaruf session, i met my swkian mates. at last. oh btw, i met one from limbang. she is naa. but she is a bit weird. nahh. then, i was with my roomates all the time. on one night, syahrul called me and asked me to go for the perkepis meeting. so, i went to blok e and tadaa. there, i met them. all the swkian. oh that was a blast. i met tasha and izzi. we are friends until now. in fact, best friends. thank you Allah.

on the department briefing, i suddenly sat besides this one girl. i brought over my x-ray since i have not done it. she asked me why i bring it. i answered la why. then, she asked me from where. i said, "bintulu". and she replied, "hah?!" i said again, " err bintulu swk". and suddenly she scream at me, " kenjet kitak. kmk org kch!" haha. then, my life changed again to a better side :)
i met zaza, my bestfriend and roomate-to-be next semester. she always came to my room, and we started to talk-talk-talk. we always stop over tasha and izzi room as well. and yeh. i love them. without them, i never know what will happend to me. they are my gossip-mate, dinner-mate, shopping-mate and everything! they are just like my friends in school. i love them all!

ok ok finish with that. my 1st semester started with misery and ended with a bit of happiness. have not found the true happiness. hope for it the next semester. hello ppl in cfs, i'm coming. tomorow. flight 230pm. and i'll missing bintulu so much. and the peeps especially.

and the end.

short and simple.

till then~

one week of silence

so i'm back. quite busy these past few days.

last saturday- just got back from kch && the journey was tiring, terrible and blahhh!!

sunday-busy!

monday-double busy!

tuesday-triple busy!

wed- had a fun day-out with loved one

thurs-pack pack pack! damn that uni give us few hols

fri-today~ again, had a fun-fun-fun-unforgettable day out with loved one ( and it the last one though isk isk isk ) && attended anugrh cmrlng at smkkid. wuhu~

i was soooooooooooooooooooo busy with loadssssssssss of house-works. duhh i don't mind though. i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee doing house chores because i'll miss it after this. isk!! isk!! isk!!

CAUTION!!!

this post will be in swkian languange................. :)

so, i done with packing, errr half and quarter done with it actually. done with shopping. so, have this elek-elek-bah mindset. so, there you go. i am sooooooooooooooo not in packing mood. uhuk. i hateeeeeeeee pack stuffs. especially when it is time to go back thereeee. and it is vice versa if it's time to pack for hols. it is veryyyyyyy different. i hate going back there! huwaaaa~ i hateeeeeeeee moving. mencik! lu igt gua ni apa? robot ka? dhla brg aku ya byk. paloiii~ erhhh! k done.

ohh saya tiba2 rindu skola. i went to school this morning to attend the prize-giving ceremony. sy dtg bh kdong sy tek cuti. xmok sy org cop sy buang batu kelak eh.ok ok saya mengaku saya berasa agak embarrased kerana hanya saya seorg yg hadir tadi (terkecuali amoi2 cantek dan apek form6 yg maseh setia diskola itu ya ). saya brasa amt malu krna org mlihat sy spt ingin makan sy. sy tau la sy ini byk lemak tp jgn la tgk mcm itu kn? wah wah tlebeh sudah ni. ohh tkecuali jugak kpd mamak2 dan apai2 yg dtg. syg sorg saja yg dtg! erh mencik. malu sy eh. dh sy tok asa kdk femes la pulak. eh awk cney nektok? study cney? cdak lain tek cney? ohh sy juga mjd jurucakap dan reporter kpd kwn2 skalian (nasib la aku tok tauk cney suma tokrg oii!).lelah juak sy mok jwb tp xpa la demi bgsa dn ngara sy xkesa la. dh kepak juak sy dudok tgu turn koh. ya juak nerimak plg last. mencik sy nunggu2. phm sy prasaan org tgu2 ya koh. dlk saya tiap taun nait stage eyhhh ( mok ngeshor tok) xcept tem sy pom4. tem ya sy ada jadi antu ckit bh. yala sy tok tek xdpt nait stage tem ya. p prasaan sy nait stage xda pa2 koh. xalah2 juak org merik present sy ya jiran sy sblh uma tok. salu sy tga nya motong rumput ptg2 bh. borink juak. hahaha. dhya. byk juak cgu2 lmk sy dtmu n dclm sy tek. rindu indah mok blaja ngn cdk. ya sy tga muka blur cgu math sy. gk igt sy eh pa nya aja. ya sy xtemu. cgu 8met sy ney ndk kh tuju. nk salu dtemu sy xalah2 cgu bm sy koh. apu nyak. kakya sgu pj sy ya. edeh eksen alu nya ngn sy. edeh cgu tok dh utang pasu lom dgnti! ahahaha xdala ;P oh lpk. sy tgk tek makin rame juak cgu2 baru nok encem2. ( ada k compete ngn cgu yong udh) haha yala sy dtg tek cgu yong juak nok sambut sy eh. ng epy sy tok koh. rindu sy tga muka nya. p sy rasa xda nya igt sy tok. nama sy pun nya xigt gne mok knl. adoh2. yala bio sy b3 ya. apu nyak wai. ai tba2 sy terigt pa nya mdh dlk koh. "kamu ha jgn kawin dulu, belaja dulu" wah wah.aie aie rindu sy ngn skola eh!!! dak amoi2 cantek tek (cindy, shi yong & tu chai) teriak2 nama sy tem sy gk turun stage. ney juak sy dga org gk btepok tgn nak ( ada la org tpok tek? ) kakya alu sy knk serang cdk. aiyo amoi, bila kamu dtg? cuti ka? wahh lama tidak jmpa yaaa!. hahahaha. lekak ya apa o. bok igt. ada nasyid tek. aduh ya gk mlh sy rindu tok. igt gk sy dlk2 tem skola da grup nasyid xdiiktirap lm blkg kls sy. salu jwk blagu2 k sy. rindu sy koh. tek saknya mbk lagu besh eh. dga cta tek wakil swk. ya bok junior sy. hebat eh! hahahaha. makin hebat skola sy nektok. xsgka juak sy. kakya tek blagu mekorg. lagu swk tnh airku. bh ya mena sy blagu. lmk dh sy xblagu ya bhhh. nasib sy gk igt lirik. haaa. jgn lupa lirik!! hahaha. kakya tek sy tliat mdm bi sy. ya sy nego nya. dplok nya sy. kakya ngerepak mekduak. besa la oo mekduak. ya tek nya nyuroh sy diet. apu nyak. kaktok sy diet mdm oo? hahahaha. yah. rindu sy skola eh :) dhya tek. suk sy tga nemiak btpok2 tgn bla dga cgu announced cne mekorg sambong. bah bangga la asa tek? ( aku xla, pa jk la tpt aku yaaaa ) hahahaha. yaaa plg havoc tek bila hariz pun turn. perghhhh. dh mamak nya gago bcrk adiknya. hhahaha cali bh cgu khosyi. ya tek cgu marina ( cgu sej ku dlk tok) announced nya skul rah cairo. pergh suma tngangak nemiak dga! ya tek sy mok mdh, my main poit here is : ebo pk biak smkkid xpt g overc oiii!! over the sea ng rame. tok, oversea! wuhuu. chaiyok chaiyok eh skola kid. hahahaha. byk juak sy ngerepak o? sik bah. sy tok tang tba asa mk skola balit. sy xmok g klas. sy mk g skola jk. hahaha. aie aie. sy rindu skola :) rindu kngn2 skola eh. lmk sy rah skola ya. 2003-2007 tauk x. tauk alu sy skola ya gne. edeh kdk bgrk juak upa sy tok. rah sia jwk sy tmu cinta ati sy bah. wakakaka. dh2. kepak aku ngerepak tok. adoh. gik skali sy repeat, sy rindu skola!!! :) skola ya rindu sy x? hehua ;P

this post is kinda suck i guess for someone who doesn't understnd my language. haha. sorry dude ;)

ok. i done with all the craps. btw, pics coming soon. the usb cabel is missing in action. pergh.

got to go.

till then!!