berlumba-lumba?

ini jawapan BM esok. please take note! I WISH.

study math sampai 3 hari 3 malam boleh je xtido. tiba2 bukak buku bm, mata jadi kecik. so, amik alternatif ke kiosk and beli nescafe. *i dun have the 3 in 1 coz...i just dun drink it actually T.T* and skrg ble plak ko on9 jujuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu? T.T

duduk xsampai 15minit...g toilet jap la...

duduk lagi...belek2...tulis2...lapa lapa...*padahal dah siap dinner bersungguh2 lagi tadi* makanan2...minuman2...*padahal baru lepas baham setin nescafe kan tadi?*

g kiosk lagi....*setiap malam kadang2 mampu mencecah 3 kali g kiosk.....* g toilet xyah kira la sbb cam undefined je *ceh ceh*

kadang2 tu...berusaha carik sebanyak mana reason untuk keluar dari bilik...g cafe? lapaaaa! *padahal siyes xlapa langsung*

kadang2...dua mata jadi satu...g kiosk or cafe xpakai spect dah...ala2 cam bz gile la kan sampai spect pun xterpakai dah...*poyo*

ada plak makcik kiosk cakap...mata awak dah kembang sangat2 dahhhh...g la tido dulu...*bajet ada eye bag la kan* cek2 kat bilik...aku rase cam biase je.............

kadang2 tuh...org kol ke msg bwt2 xtau dah...bwt2...henpon bawah bantal laaa...jatuh katil la...padahal earphone dok padat kat telinga kan...haihhh...

simptom exam nih kadang2 bwt manusia jadi kejam...ada tau manusia camtu...ehh shhhhssss...

tapi aku amat bersyukur sebab aku xde plak terpk sampai nak tergoleng2 atas katil dah..yeah!

kadang2 rasa cam insomnia plak skrg T.T normal kan? haha.

apa2 pun. GOODLUCK SEMUA! :) apetuh orang puteh ckp...let's burn the midnite oil! mwahahaha...

leberi uia penuh gila babeng sampai rasa bukan leberi dah T.T

aaaaaaaa ape aku bwt niiiiiiii

toodlessssssssssssss!

p/s: pusak di sitok penakuttttttt...tek ku ngejar anak pusak kaler itam sampe masok lam parit pusak ya oleh aku...apakaaaaaaa...

feels like ppl watching

so today i had my final test for workshop. miserable T.T oh not the test but the situation happened there.

i went sooooo earlyyy. mmg gila2 awal laaaa. 8.20am dah gerak u tau takkkkk. pergh. memang cemerlang kan? pfttt~ bukan ape, aku xsure venue katner sooo i just take precaution la kan. aku g awal. since i just walk so i hv to go early. soooo and sooo there was no ppl T.T except for a few of em. hmmm. aku salah venue ke? or salah time??!?!? ok x. aku xsalah. and xtau la sapa yang salah. hahaha.

so i just walked in and out of the hall for 3 times waiting for ppl i know.  yeah there some of em. i just be good to em and talked to em like i know them for a longggg time. apekah? T.T 

sebelum aku sambung cerita aku harini, just to conclude, the exam postponed to 10am. so we waited in the hall just talking and lepaking at the back waiting for the instruction. tapi kesian la kan dekat budak2 yang tunggu dekat luar hall. hehe. nasib aku kat dalam. wohoooo. the exam was fine. ok laaa :)

so ceritanya harini berbunyi begini.

i feels like ppl watching and talking about me T.T why?

because i talked a lot with my COUSIN. i suddenly met my cousin outside the main hall, just beside the conference room, he was having his tilawah so yeah..i met him :D lama oi xjmpa. xkan la aku wat2 xkenal plak kan. since his father is my mom's brother, so he turned out to me my 1st cousin right? haha. he is in his final semester. so, yeah. he's senior. haha. we talked...talked...talked...salah ke? wuwu. memang tersangat uia T.T nasib baik aku xTERsalam la plak cousin aku nie sebab klu ikutkan selalu kalau jumpa memang aku salam la kazen2 aku yang tua2 nih. oppps. haha. dah memang terbiasa camtu. nak wat camneeeee? i knowww...they still look me like i am a little juju in their eyes. they treat me like that. i am still...their little juju...wahhhhh...but stick to the fact...i'm 21 now T.T i am still...little juju!!!!!!!!!! aduh...this is wat happen when u're the only girl in ur family and happen to be the last...hmmm...little jujuuu...

or maybe only me felt like that. actually ppl dun bother about me. right. maybe. but...why is this one person..ermm..ok fine...many person i knew actually...aduh...jatuh saham aku! hahahhahaha...warghh!!! T.T nih la masalah nya surrounding baik2 nih. haha. 

we even talked about raya...his bro's spm's result, our other cousins...hmmm..do you know that i'm reuniting my family in uia? haha. i can make a family tree here :D and i miss em for sure...a lottttt...hmmm...

even tasha the chot's *nama baru haha* have this bau2 bacang with me. look? she met her cousin too in uia...and soooooooooooooooooo? 

ok this one more story...

3 years ago in cfsiium PJ *amboi detailnya* i suddenly met my 2nd cousin yang aku xpernah tahu kewujudannya di dunia ini. hahah. dah nama 2nd cousin kan. his mom is my mom's cousin. wargh manyak nya cousin T.T how i met him? in coincidence, he was my roomate's partner in society. they (my roomates) talked a lot about this budak. a lot. very detail. when they said his mom is bruneian *ntah xtau la panggil apa sbnrnya* so i'd curious. yer laaaa. mak aku pernah la cakap kan, ade haaa sorang kazen ko dekat uia tu. p la carikkk. ala2 jejak kasih gitu. haha lawak la mak aku. last2 aku jumpa jugak. xjauh mana pun. kawan kepada kawan2 aku jugak. so since tuh, kitorang jadi sangatla akrabbbbb. selalu je p lunch berdua dekat cafe jejantas tuh haaa. mwahahhaha.....kat main camp aku xpernah lagi la wat benda2 camnie. dinner or lunch berdua nih. hahahahha. adoi.

yeah so aku jumpa banyak sanak saudara di uia. haha. ask urself then. ko kazen aku ke? hehe. kut2 la kannnnn. aku banyak gak sedara mara kat semenanjung nih haaa. merata2. aku je xtau celah mane. kut2 ko sedara kepada bini kazen aku keeee. mane tau. hehe. kalau aku memang dah xde keje nak bwt, mmg aku bwt la operasi jejak kasih keluarga belah mak and bapak aku. wahhhh. 

aku pernah buat, dekat fb, carik kazen aku belah bapak. jumpa tauuuu! :D tengok orang la. tp pastu aku senyap la. hahahah. fb? haha. lepas exam la aku active balik. xda fb pun aku ada grey's yang sangat distracting T.T 

hmmm. is ppl really watching? haha. they dun even know me. so it's ok to watch right. just hope they dun judge me. wuwuuuu. hmmm. ppl really dunno me rite? sangatla di bawah tempurung. hehe. 

a lil update about me. wahhh perlukeee perlukeee? meh ceciteee ce citeeee~

kite bako je laaa..bengong~tolongla hentikan segala2 nya aku dah xsanggup nak ketawa benda yang xlawak sebenarnya tapi kelihatan sangatttt la kelakar T.T

hmmm...ape eh...

oh aku ada tilawah test esok kul 1126am..yerp..it is stated like that in my slip.. haha...

just recover from fever actually. sangat cukup terlebih tidur dah sekarang T.T and terlampau la banyak telan ubat demam and flu and berjaya skit utk diet. oyeahhhhhhhh! hihi.

dah settle kemas baju dalam locker . hampir 80% masuk dalam luggage :D hehe. what?? aku pening la tengok barang banyak sangattttttttt merata2 dalam compartment neh T.T sedap skit mata memandang tengok xda banyak barang. sem depan2 aku xnak keluar banyak sangat barang. dok diam2 la korang dalam beg tuhhhhhh*poyooooo* 

sangat stress sebenarnya. tapi bwt2 cool. yela. perlu ada cas2 positif supaya stress dapat diatasi. am i righttt? yeah!

u know wat...hallucination is the symptom of brain cancer....watch out!

aku dah cakap effects grey's xakan hilang. mwahahahahha!

well got to go!

till then..

p/s: eeingggg, how can i help uuuuuuu? update blog ktk gak. or...email me :) i'm no longer using facebook. WILL use it someday after the exam maybe :) 

p/s/s: i have this feeling...hmm...kiko is no longer exist? huk3..........................................who took my kiko????????????????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok that's enuf to show i am sooooo...sad actually T.T

running..

and still running...my nose is running...can't stop it! T.T

tahlah virus dari sapa plak nih T.T

oh pening T.T

oh ngantuk...nak tidooooooo je...sedap tido petang2 camni....

warghhhhhh!

running out of tissue!

hmmm...

oh spm's result dah keluar eh? T.T isk3 mmg la duduk bawah tempurung aku nih T.T

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aku dah 1st year degree so...aku dah selamat dari segala2nyaaaaaaaaa!

i mean...xperlu pecah kepala nak pk nak masuk u mane kan...hahaha...*padahal aku la pembuat keputusan paling teruk diseluruh alam T.T*

yang penting...aku xperlu decide apa2 lagiiiiiiiiiii!!! 3taun je lagi and i'm free to go!!! *amboi*

akuu...akuuu...da siap assignment bm! oyeh! *sempat gak aku tgk grey's smlm tauuuuuuu*

and skrg aku pening sbb baca notes bm yang panjang lebar T.T

kenapa aku struggle gila2 untuk bm padahal? hmmm..tahla...rindu dowh blaja bm...dulu mana ada masalah nak blaja subjek ni...tapi skrg...mcm xtau ape2 je..huwa huwa...

dahla...

btw, aku dah abis kelasssss utk sem2 niiiiie! tapi esok ada exam study circle...senin dah start final utk workshop...selasa ada tilawah...and kamis depan ada 2 paper final...so...sounds...no break for me!!!!! yayyyyy!

and minggu depan awal bulan...ehem ehem...aku akan bertapa di dalam uia sampai 9april..yeah~~~

i can do it!

u can?

of course u can!!!! do like me!!!! tgk grey's hari2! hahahah...erk...

hmmm...

dahlaaaaaaaa!

till then~

p/s: i am a half person u know...everything i got...half...hehe :P

i heart him

more than anything in this world. please go home now! T.T

kiko xnak balik rumah sejak 3minggu yang lalu. sejak dia dapat anak sedara baru and kazen baru. mungkin rasa tersisih and rasa tercabar sebab lepas nie terpaksa kongsi makanan beramai2. mungkin la. only my assumption. xpun mungkin dia takut tengok benda macam dia tapi kecik and xbukak mata. erk. such a shame. buat malu je la ko nih. penakut! haih. balik cepat! ape ade makanan lagi best dari kat umah aku ke? haihhh.

aku mana la ada benda lain nak cakap kalau bukan pasal kiko. bosan? haha lantak ko la. sebab. aku pun bosan sbnrnya T.T

stuck buat kerja bm nih xpernah habis2. sangat paling terhebat la cikgu aku bagi assignment dalam minggu terakhir kan. xpe xsusah pun. just..sangat terserlah kelemahan vocab bm aku sekarang nih...huwa...

mmg perlukan kesabaran tahap max sebab line mmg cambesh skrg ni. aku just perlukan 2 lagi nama syarikat pleaseeeeeeee la tolong jangan matiiiiiiii. arghhh T.T syarikat? yerp. dari mesen g medical and sekarang g business lak. macam2 adeeee...

mood skrg dalam tahap kritikal. so, anyone whom think want to mess HIS OR HER life in mine, just forget it okey? back off and goodbye. WAH marahnya aku....well..sudah terang lagi bersuluh...im not in a mood of fooling around materialistically *if such word exist* jangan sampai aku blame orang lain lepas ni. which i never did before. so and so lagi. jangan buat sampai aku buat. paham ke x? ok. jangan. please la jangan. 

if i said no, then it is NO

bear in mind. im not a jpa scholars yang bijak pandai pointer dean's setiap sem, not even holding any scholarship which can label me as STABLE. kalau paham, sila paham2 la. kalau x, sila2 la buat2 paham. hah! paham x? hahaha. well, if and only if im fooling around watching movies in klcc or go karaoke in wangsa walk, whom are you to know everything? wow. sangat stalker. i have life. that's why i want to live my life now. do you know how does it feels when darkness around you suddenly appear with light? find your life and feels it :) moving on is not easy, but it is possible. 

rambling while doing ur assignment is good. im doing 3 in 1 jobs now. 

plan untuk tidak tidur lama sebab bakal mencetuskan kepeningan kepala pada esok paginya. sangat komfem T.T walaupun hari ini sangat sejuk and sangat ramai manusia memerapkan diri di dalam bilik sahaja. buat ape tu? haha.

canoeing was fun yet..muscles hurt here and there T.T 

got to go!

till then~

p/s: nak kurus sebelum balik rumah sebab....abang aku dah kurusssssssss! huwa huwa....saya banyak pressure disini......

p/s/s: dun say you are ok if actually you are hurt inside~

semut?

see? you see? aku still on9 and tak tidur-tidur! *xkan la aku on9 sambil tidur pulak kan?* 

reason???

aku tgk grey's anatomy season 5 untuk cd yang kedua sampai HABIS! aduhhhhhhhhhh! *ketuk2 kepala kat meja*

microsoft word yang mengandungi isi-isi folio BM aku yang LATEST yang aku perlu EDIT konon2 nya la *sbb xda sapa soh aku edit pun sbnrnya* tapi disebabkan aku nak tambah bilangan muka surat yang sememangnya cukup ngam2 alah tuh pun sebab kitorang letak gamba untuk 2 pages! haihhhh. *ayat keterangan yang sangat panjang and out of topic?* aku biarkannnnn and aku lebih prefer gom player mainkan greys kesayangan aku...huwa huwa...final minggu depan!!!!!!!!!!!! apa aku bwt ni? T.T 

my inner voice said...alah...hadiah birthday ko weh...no input learning please? MASALAHNYA folio bm aku due rabu ni T.T and craps. why im the only one whom work on this? alah jawapan simple. sebab aku rajin. tengkiu. aduh!

tapi...tahukah anda...grey's anatomy sangat sangat sangat sangat awesome!!!!!!!!!!! abaikan adegan2 mushy yang ehem ehem sebab my point sebenarnya ialahhhhh...tahukah anda bahawa...cancer yang terhebat diorang pernah curekan adalah spinal cord cancer? it took more than 24hrs!!!! agak2 26hrs kalu xsilap...pergh...awesome! *aku sekarang macam murtad engineering pulak since aku tau term2 medical more than engin's stuff* 

enuf. i'm an engineering students whom loves math sooo much but have to repeat the paper because i felt i'm brialliant enuf to pass it without even know how's the final question is and and i'm not going to repeat any more paperrrrrr this i promise T.T and now started to love dynamics but hey not for long since saya murtad aero and oh saya sayang aero tapi saya prefer material keyh *aduh macam sedih la pulak* T.T and will always prefer chemistry rather than working with diodessss amplifierrrrr watsoeverelertronicstufssssss...phewww...ohhh in addition, whom lost in her programming class coz i'm sux in C but good in mathlab, MAYBE *since i understand mathlab more than c so....but still i did not manage to finish the assignment* hmmm yeah...ohhh i dun like studying electronic errr but i started to like it when it comes to the last2 chapter but i think i like the electronic lab...*because this semester my lab partner was awesome and we managed to finish all the experiments with 100% rate of surviving the lab, i mean...all the experiments :) ohhhhhh do not forgettttt i love my workshop technology subject very muchhhhh since i can wear jeans on every wednesday and yeah..i just love all the...stuffs we worked on despite all the abang2 workshop ppl keep talking about hensem la comel la macho la sengal la busukkkkk la apa apa laaaa aku xpedulik yang penting aku dah habissss semuanya hahaha..well bear with all the abang2 stuffs because we approaching 2nd year, you know that right? when one of our friend get married and seems everyone punnnnn nak kawen jugak keee? adoi..merepek lagi...hmmm...i mentioned all is it? ohhh and i put BM on the second of my favourite subject this semester...not to forget my ustaz in tilawah 1 whom until now dun get the chance to rotan me haha oh yeah we finished our study circle last wednesday and will have our final this coming saturday *see, they burn our saturday!* and enuf with study circle. let's meet leadership n management class next year! oh i mean. on second year~~~ fuhhh...rambling is gooooooodddd and make me sleepy *grab a pillow in a sudden*

agak2 banyak x grammar mistakes aku dalam perenggan merapu atas ni? phew....nasib baik english xperlu amik rush2...hahaha...T.T

woi semut g jauh2 lerrrr walaupun aku suka tengok cita a bug's life xbermaksud aku suka ko menyemak atas meja belajar akuuuuu beramai2 kannnnn...

goodnite! oh goodmorning! i can hear the birds chirping means...it is morning!!!!!!!...

ok ok sleep sleep!

till then!

p/s: i still have my inner voice talking to me..helpppp~i need brain surgery! *effect greys sangat mendalam* 

p/s/s: please pray i'm not going to write about greys anymore after this...i mean...just before my final~~~~ 

21st :)

happy birthday to me! it was yesterday :D saya sudah duapuluhsatutahun!!!!! mamak saya cakap boleh g register dekat spr dah. ziyan pun ckp benda yang sama. yessss. aku nak buat undi rosak! haha. bapak cakap makan banyak and riadah banyak! makan banyak? CHECK! riadah banyak? KIV. hehe :P

hari jadi tahun ini banyak kelainan :) saya ada 2nd midterm for electronic pagi tadi. tak pernah2 dalam hidup pergi sekolah masa hari jadi. haha. mungkin dulu2 pernah. mengikut perkiraan tahun, yep. dulu2. sik la ku ingat gik nak. haha. and i spent my birthday night, not alone alhamdulillah :) my roomate was here with me last night. thanks yara :D she wished me and she told me, u will get your present tomorrow! what was it? the electronic paper..was not that tough :D alhamdulillah.

i was planning to go for outing actually. dunno where but...only i want to go out from this place. haha. i texted tasha and she said she can't and asked me to go out on sunday since she had work to do on saturday. ok then :D and want to know what exactly happened? haha.

they planned it. haha. 

THANK YOU SO MUCH GUYS! especially to tasha, zaza, jiji and azam :D i was surprised! sik sangka. siyesssss! hahaha. 

to tasha, kmk mena2 ingat ktk mintak tmn g meeting. gikpun kmk nang dah besa neman kitak nak. haha. bila padah g rectory, kmk eran jwk tapi xjwk terpk bnda lain. since kmk tauk s-dev mmg dkt sia. haha. dahla reply msg pun mamai2. kmk ingat kmk dah akhir. well, THANK YOU! sik pernah kmk dipolah orang gitok. kmk ngenak orang jak salu. hahahahaahaha. i bet my sweater xkan ilang kaler kuning TELOR yaaaaa! hahahahaha...and to zazaaaa...really miss u!!! lamak alu xjumpaaaa. and thank you for being thereee during my birthday!!! even ktk bzzzz gila babenggg xtido 3hariiii.. hehe...i know..xda facebook tok nang ssh!! hahaha...but u guys did remember rite? :) and to jijiiii, for sure i will remember this moment throughout my lifeee! ko tikam telurrrr rightttttt  too tuuttttt! hahahaha. thanks weh!. and azam, thanks for the cake. haha. ko nang sentiasa jadi the only lelaki di antara kmkorg nak? hehe.  thanks oiii. ebo sik tido! :) sik dilupak h.y, tahnks for the sushi! hahaha. aku plan mok mbak tokrg kua g makan sushi la sbnrnya. tgk2 tokrg ada plan lain. hahaha. btw, thanks to the bear and cupcakes! :)

haha. diorang baling telur dekat area parking depan bilik aku. nak tau x yang tasha hampir2 mengkantoikan diri dia sebab aku terjumpa dia dekat kiosk asiah. haha. duhal meli telurrrrr kitak disia. haha. makcik kiosk ya pun pandei jwk kaver owh. haha. well, u guys did a very gud job! berjaya :) tahniahhh~

and padan la macam ramai je yang wish aku. aku ingatkan mmg xramai la ingat since i dun have any social network to connect with u guys. hahaha. well, thank you!

the 1st person to wish me was ikah :) then noor, then him, thenn bertimbun2 msg...tapi for sure...it were all from you guys, besties, gph...thank you guys! see, even i've been silence for soooo many weeksss, you guys still remember rite? sebab ya aku berani :) diam xbermakna kita xingat nak? masing2 ada kerja kedirik. so, live ur lifeee and treasure every moments! :) 

oppssss tidak dilupakan. lepas selesai semua. aku mencari2 budak2 bilik sebelah. hilang. haha. so aku g carik dorang dkt bilik budak kecik si tiqah nih. jumpa. aku just nak bagi kek sbnrnya. last2 dorang yang surprise. hehe. well, sori bkn xnak bagitau, tapi...xkan la aku nak gtau bday aku arini kannnn. hehe. tapi xpe. korang tetap rox. pecah perut aku sebab makan kek and sushi xmenghalang aku untuk membaham dominos korang. haha. thanks weh :) gembira dapat kenal korang and rapat dengan korang. i know i am not alone here. korang sentiasa ada untuk aku kan? haha. gedix. geli. haha. woi gila kenyang! T.T

soooooo, THANK YOU SO MUCH everyone!!!!! love you guyssssss to the maxxx! :)

opssss. HEPY BIRTHDAY to ommeeeee! ngennngggg. laju jak ko mok ekot aku. xpat tgu duak tiga ari gik ka? hahahahhaha. kurangkan ngegeh!!!! walaupun aku tauk ko ssh mok kurangkan. hahahaha. cepat tinggi!!!! eboh melebar! hahahah. sayang ko oi. and sayang semua! :)

sumpah saya mmg sangat bz sebenarnya T.T byk kerja pending. haha. tapi saya xpedulik! esok nak keluar jugak! i mean today! mun jadi g putrajaya tengok hot air balloon!! mun xjd, just go shopping. oyeah! sebelum minggu final bermula, laju2 la aku bergumbira. haha.

semalam stresss gila. and happy balit. arap time final xstresss gila babeng. hehe. chill~

got to go! till then~

woah gamba2 macam banyak jak tadik. crik la dikpun k. hehe.

SEMOGA PANJANG UMUR JUJU.....and HEPY SELALU!!!! i will study hard and smarttt! :) i will...move on :)

p/s: you wished me...im glad...really glad...:)

p/s/s: it's not the end of the world when u feels like darkness around u...it's actually the starting for the new life~ trust me...

wishesss

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

har har

"juju lagu kitak!"

har har har...

sangat BUZY

p/s: semoga roh2 mereka dicucuri rahmatMu ya Allah...

march?

hah. march!

bila aku sepatutnya study untuk final test lab esok konon2nya nak carik notes ece since buku aku dah kena colek, aku hilang tempat bergantung sebab aku dah xda masa nak kunyah satu buku micro tuh T.T kenapa la dah nak abis baru tau mdm section lain ada upload notes dia dkt web dia? LAMBAT betul la aku T.T anyhow...dun worry! sempat lagi weh. a day can make a change! for sure if i'm struggling hard from now and just SHUT DOWN this laptop. haih

u know what. of course u don't. well, go through my post last year, the same month.

i miss her for sure. oyeah. him too. no big deal. i did do something to them at the very last moment. 

:)

that is why...i really love march...and hate it too...a bit la...not that much...well...japan dilanda bencana pun dalam march kan? haha. apekah? T.T

grandpa grandma, we miss u both :)  

do u know that..bila dah hilang baru kita akan rasa kehadiran yang sebenar...so...jangan sampai dah hilang...baru nak sedar :) they went away, we still here, breathing...but do our soul really with us? do u ever realised...how u've spent ur whole life...for me...miserable and doing unnecessary things...? i did...when i lost them..THEM...wow so many them there :P but yeah...so...wake up guys...we're not living this world forever...

abesssss laaaa effect grey's anatomy melampau2 dah ni T.T well u guys should watch it too...confirm lekat :P

mwahahha...

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study!!

till then!!!

p/s: al-fatihah~

a weekend?

salam 1malaysia! ini bukan kisah dongeng semata2 (alah slama ni pun aku bukan taip cerita dongeng T.T) harini aku mampu untuk keluar setelah semalaman bergoleng2 di atas katil menidurkan diri serta menerbangkan diri di alam lain. sabtu terbazir camtu je T.T yeah yeah aku tau korang mesti nak cakap please get ur life yada yada. i am having my life thoroughly. haha. stay dibilik tanpa ada yang menemani kadang2 terasa sangat pedih and PATHETIC tapi well i used to it though. kadang2 kalau ada orang aku rasa kekok. knapa aku nak membebel pasal ni lagi? T.T entah.

tapi, kalau ada teman kan lagi seronok? xpayah la aku bercakap dengan kipas kan....kipas????? 

nak g makan pun ada kawan..xdala aku sampai abiskan berjam2 dekat cafe semata2 nak GET a life kan...wow...pathetic...tapi sekarang macam lagi best sebab ada kawan baru...makcik KIOSK baru tuh peramah gila. hehe. beli softener pon kena soal jawab macam2....aunty ni syiok la! :D

well i bet it's not only me. semalam jumpa senior, ok lebih mesra kita panggil, akak komiti dinner engitex haritu. dok bersembang sekejap. rupa2 nya nasib kita serupa :D and melalui apa yang dia cakap...."alah awak buat la kerja awak siap2 komfom xrasa apa2..."

yerla kalau pk pk pk je mmg la rasa kan? ape la aku nie...

main point nya aku xda la rasa pathetic sangat2 pun sebab aku rasa aku seronok macam ni walaupun kadanga2 sampai sehari aku xbercakap langsung. heh. ko ade? xdeeee. kah3...

aku banyak kawan kadang2 xsemua aku boleh approach macam...dorang2..haha...dorang2?

harini kawan aku merangkap my roomate to be sem depan :D bawak aku merempit keluar uia. ok be noted...LUAR...haha..scary? untuk 1st-timer memang sangat scary...kadang2 rasa selipar aku tertinggal dekat belakang T.T aku xpernah rasa suasana naik motor dekat...highway? YERLA dkt btu mana ada highway...ok aku tipu...ade...hmmm...TAPI rasa dia xsama macam bawak moto dekat...KL? lagipun...sejak bila aku reti bwk moto???? hahaha..driving is different from riding a motorcycle...driving? hehe...MUNGKIN lepas ni aku akan rasa kekok untuk driving sebab...hmm...driving? macamana aku boleh start driving balik? well...*im sorry im rambling here* 

kalau hari x hujan...and xdesperate nak keluar...kan? semua xakan jadi...roundabout? hehe...

im wondering how does it looks like this year....

setiap kejadian TERBAIK terjadi dalam hidup aku ada kaitan dengan perkara yang terbaik pernah terjadi dalam hidup aku. sebab..kalau bukan kerana perkara terbaik itu...aku xakan pernah sedar kenapa aku perlu teruskan hidup berjuang berjihad dekat sini. kan. perkara terbaik itu datang dan pergi dan aku dapat sesuatu kalau perkara terbaik itu hanya pinjaman sekejap...well...i will still thank to ..Him..for sending me the greatest thing ever happened to me...kan?

hehe. mushy? hmm. 

HAHA. geli.

well...blame the...emmm...mana project programming kitorang????? T.T aku on9 pun sebab nak cek e-learning and cek tajuk project but where is it????? adoi...lagi 2 minggu nak abis sem la sir...aku dahla xsuka nak on9 lama2 ni....tengok ha apa jadiiiiii...haihhhhhhhh! 

aku dah cakap x kelas math aku dah habis? hmmm...

to my calculus 1 lecturer for TWO semester...prof azram~~~ well...a big thank to you :) my Allah bless you and your family always...i've admired you for being too optimist...kuat...walaupun dugaan macam2...hmmm..kita sama la :D adeh...well...emmm...jangan gitau orang aku nangis masa kelas dia haritu...hahahhahaha...terharu laaa...especially the part when he said, i have to work, my children needs me...adoi...tedihhhh~ you know what....he was having his first heart by-pass on 19th march 2003....huk2...sirrrrrr....T.T hope u and i can get through this! i mean...u with your work :) and me? to pass this. haha. 

dahla. membebel cerita bercampur aduk. kalau dalam bm komfem2 esei aku dah terpesong. oh btw, i'm wondering apa jadi lepas kelas bm aku habis pulak? haha. kelas paling best sepanjang aku belajar dekat uia...hmm..mesti orang cakap aku PELIK...sebab...korang xrasa apa aku rasa :D haihhh...agak2 cikgu potong markah aku x gara2 aku menjawab dia haritu? T.T adoi...jangan la cikgu~~ saya mempertahankan apa yang saya tahu...hehe~ agak2 dia baca x? haha...

aku jumpa sangat ramai blogger merangkap classmate and coursemate aku jugak tapi xberdaya nak follow sebab rasa macam xsetanding dengan korang...yerla...blog aku merepek2...hahahaha...

oppps. lets wrap everything.

i miss HOME! 

*itu jugak la last2 kan?*

till then...

p/s: i miss you whom i think...happier than before now :)

p/s/s: ohhh lupa...had a slice of cake just now..:)

watch out, silent readers :P

tak salah nak jadi silent readers kalau anda betul2 SILENCE. tapi, kalau bertindak menjadi silent readers tetapi pada akhirnya membongkar kisah blogger tersebut kepada orang lain, mungkin tidak lagi dikategorikan sebagai silent. hehe. sangat hairan melihat semakin hari semakin banyak orang2 yang suka mengambil tahu hal peribadi orang lain dan akhirnya menghebohkan kepada orang lain. kalau nak stalk, stalk je. senyap sudeyh :) xpayah la nak tolong blogger tersebut meningkatkan traffic blog dia. sukati dia la nak taip apa. kalu nak sangat rasa apa dia rasa, buat la satu. xkan nak stalk sampai bila2 kan? heh.

wow. angin naik satu badan. biasa la. perempuan. tapi xakan pokok bergoyang kalau xda angin kan? aku senyap, salah. aku bising, makin havoc jadinya. heh. so, marilah kita menghavockan benda yang telah havoc secara sendirinya. oppps. i better shut my mouth right? tapi depend jugakla kan dengan situasi.

haha. lawak la.

so i am now in my room, not alone, my roomate suddenly appear. ohho ingatkan keseorangan lagi la dihujung minggu sebegini. haha. tapi xpa. minggu ni misi terbaru. harini habis 1 season grey. esok mungkin sedikit busy so stop kejap. haha. i have my life now. wow. amazing. juju is having her LIFE. greatttt!! :D 

oh yeah. kamis lepas aku g satu event yang sangat best tetapi pada akhirnya memberi impak negative kat aku. sob3. terHOMEsick sebab sangat seperti berada dirumah. wuwu. i miss home terribly :( i miss kiko for sure. sangat2. uwaaaaaaaa.

semalam aku jumpa our chief minister and his wife. haha. kacak wo. i am not proud to see them but i am just too proud to be sarawakian although out state having such i-dun-know-wat-is-wrong actually with the politics but...well..i don't ever care..haha...yang aku tau, dorang bagi aku duit untuk aku sambung belajar...so? :)

they said, study hard n smart boys and girls. balik negeri, berkhidmat untuk negeri, tak salah. we are 1 malaysia bahhhhh!! :)

so guysssss, let's do our best to serve for the nation! hehe.

wpun xda alu geng aku temu, i mean my school mates, except for one, georgence :) well, nothing to say. i just feel like crying when i saw the uni buses, but no one of you were on it :( although i know from the beginning none of u guys are coming...well...just a piece of hope...maybe there's miracle...but unfortunately...there was none.....

well...i know i'm keeping myself silence now...but deep in my heart i really miss those moments...heh...sounds pathetic...a girl whom deactivating her facebook just to avoid all the social networking from anyone...and now saying she is missing all of em? laugh then :)

aku punya kawan yang punya hidup masing2 juga. jadi? 

goodluck guys! :) juju is missing everyone...GPH? you know who u r....just to let u know...living my own life alone is not easy...but i'm trying hard to get used to it....struggling hard is hard...but it can be as easy as an ABC when it comes to your...revenge...right? :)

oyeah lets hit the bed then. ngantok. pile of works to do and end up doing nothing. heh. WAKE UP juju. adoi.

till then...

p/s: selamat pengantin baru kpda kwn kitorang yang bakal mengakhiri zaman bujangnya hari ini. haha. the 1st person in our batch is getting married. semoga berbahagia selalu weh! :)

i'm coming HOME :)

i'm coming HOME! *ceh padahal ticket lom bli*

hihi :) but for sure i'm coming home within a month!!!! happy? for sure. i'm going to meet my lovesss for sure :D oyeahhhhh! i'm so happy to know that i'm going to be home for a month. lama la jugak kan? :)

wpun sebulan lepas aku da balik, tetap jugak rasa excited nak balik. home is where the heart belong, right? haha.

been surviving a month alone. nicely done. 2 more weeks left to reach my final destination this semester. nicely done, hopefully. 

oh i'm rambling here in my friend's room, my room-mate-to-be next semester :) haha. skrg tengah nak merapatkan ukhuwah la neh. hahaha :P gedix. aku nak bela kucing sem depan weh. boley kan? hahahahaha...

oh well, harini aku jadi stalker setelah sekian lama menyepi. haha. well, what in my mind now? :)

i'm going to continue my life as usual and nothing will conquer me :) insyaAllah. kenapakah perlu aku mengingat kalau tidak pernah diingat? haha. u ask urself then.

my family is having FUN in miri now. yahhhh. my cats are suffering in home. tedah tokrg. hahahahah!!!! my cat's family is becoming bigger and bigger nowwwww. oyeahhhh! kin meriah rumah aku. hahahah. owh back to the business, why there are in miri? tahlil :) missing them for sure. huuuu...

anyway, anyone missing me? my latest pics are all over the facebook actually. search it then :)

bah mupok lok. kepak. 

till then!

p/s: he'is in a relationship!!!!!!!! hahaha....padan muka...

future

i choose my own future. i strive for my future badly. i've been annoyed 2 times by the staffs and for the 3rd time, i managed to go through to the higher authority, get the form and tada.... this is the result...

:)

double thumbs up to me. hendak seribu daya, xnak? lantak p la..

i did it all by myself. no one is with me that time. so? heh. aku riak sekejap.

kenapa aku boleh buat sendiri, korang xleh? ask urself then.

dorang tu manusia jugak, xmakan orang. walaupun aku kena sembur macam2 pada awalnya, last2 apa aku dapat?

a month left for me to settle down everything. nampak macam susah gila. hmm.

POSITIF! aku boleh! walaupun ramai orang tinggalkan aku, aku boleh!

till then.

p/s: kalau aku nak jadi selfish, dari dulu dah aku buat. bila aku ckp org selfish, aku kena balik. kadang2 aku pk lebih baik xbercakap langsung kan. cakap je salah. hehe. sukati la.

i am a dork

"apasal xda sape yang datang setelkan perkara ni awal2? last2 minit macam nie baru ada org datang? xker pecah kepala kitorang nak setelkan?"

hehe. padan muka aku.

rakan2 seperjuangan ku sekalian, aku bukanlah manusia yang sangat2 baik di dunia ini, and aku bukanlah seorang yang nak mencarut2 sebab marah kat korang. tapi disini sebagai pengajaran yer rakan2 semua, sebab aku pun banyak belajar dari hidup aku, belajar jadi berdikari. aku bukanlah orang yang sangat2 berdikari sebab aku masih lagi perlukan sokongan keluarga untuk support hidup aku. berdikari maksud aku kat sini. please take action. jangan hanya tau bercakap tapi? paham2 la.

xhairan kah anda, jadual clash selama lebih seminggu, pada last minitnya kira2 sejam sebelun sesi pre-reg bermula tiba2 berubah?

sangat xhairan la kalau lepas ni ada perkara ni berlaku, xakan ada orang yang akan fix kan sbb semua da tau pada last minit nya akan berubah jugak. ala2 magic gitu. haha.

magic telah berlaku. tadaaa. tahniah kepada semua yang dapat merebut subject :) and aku? hanya dapat duduk di tempat reserved sahaja. tahniah!

akan terus bersabar dengan dugaan ini :) xper la kalau result aku xcantik macam korang. at least, aku ada buat something untuk bantu korang.

so far aku gembira hidup begini. dari hari ke hari batu bata bertimbun atas kepala. sangat seronok. mata dah xmampu nak menurunkan apa2. haha.

bila berusaha nak membantu tapi diri sendiri terjatuh. tahniah juju. aku dah xlarat nak bantu sesiapa. maaf. sampai takat ni sahaja. i have to find my own life.

aku bukan seorang pencarut, to be honest. and aku kurang enak mendengar kata2 sebegitu. maaf.

to be honest, aku memang saja menyepi sebab aku nak buktikan dekat semua, aku boleh hidup tanpa perlu bantuan korang. walaupun kadang2 dah tertaip msg mengadu, aku gagahkan jugak delete balik. kenapa? entahlah. aku pun xtau :)

sangat busy untuk sebulan ini. hope tiada gangguan dari sesiapa.

till then.

p/s: :)

T.T

dalam kekalutan serta kekelamkabutan nya aku melayan karenah orang ramai yang bertanya itu dan ini mengenai keclashan yang berlaku terhadap jadual sem 1 2nd year nanti dan aku yang macam pandai sangat bagi kata putus " korang add je laaaa lantak p la jadual clash" mcm dpt je nak add T.T kita tunggu la apa jadi petang ni.

main point sebenar bukan pasal jadual clash ka apa tapi...juju yang pandai dan hebat dan awesome ini dengan pintar nya TIDAK menghantar slip yuran untuk finance department! SANGAT BIJAK bukan? T.T padan muka. tp nasib baik aku tau sekarang. so that bole la aku btenggek di center untuk ptg ini. BIJAK BETUL la. tolong orang bukan main pastu aku sendiri xsetel lagi. HEBAT. 

berambus ke finance dan engin. kalau aku dapat setel kan kes jadual clash nie budak2 mater sila belanja aku makan sebulan! T.T

toodles!

leb

mun mena nya sayang ko nak, nya xkan mbak ko begerek pun. 

mun mena nya alim, xda istilah begerek pun dalam idup nya. 

quote from me myself to someone somewhere haha jadi doktor leb dah saya kinek oi

bena nak?

alhamdulillah aku sedar akhirnya..

terima kasih untuk surrounding yang membantu

san nyawa ku tangga mayat berbungkus depan2 mata oi

mun yaaa pun xbergetar jiwa aku xtauk la

eh bkn la mayat real oo. boh nebes indah. haha. 

mekorg blaja pengurusan jenazah so belajar la gine procedure2 nya. dpt la ilmu sikit sebanyak.

huhu.

cita pasal future.

kenak aku pilih material? sebab aku dah xda choice lain! hahahahha...

bukan2...sebab...aku sedar aku lebih menjurus ke bahagian ya..nasib Tuhan tutup pintu ati aku untuk terimak offer cgek ya..aku dapat offer yang lebih bagus akhirnya...makseh byk2 la kpd sesapa nok tolong aku. sapa ka? sa nya ku polah dikpun jak suma. hahahahahah....hendak seribu daya...xnak? seribu dalih la nak. haha...

x saba abis sem tok. sebulan gik. xsaba mok cuti sebulan. xsaba mok amik short sem. xsaba mok cuti 2 bulan pasya. xsaba mok posa n raya. and xsaba mok start 2nd year doing my major :) oh yeah charge2 positive banyak dalam badan aku kinek. nahhhh..haha...

and i love workshop technology, honestly from the bottom of my heart :D wpun ko salu molah ku kepak gila babeng terpeng terus sampe2 bilit dahya bangun2 magrib and kelam kabut g halaqah setiap ari rabu...aku tetap suka ngan kawu..2 kali g workshop then toodles! :) oh lpk gk...wpun ku salu g kelas teori lambat sbb kelas bm ku sali abis aher, berlari2 aku ngagak ko tauk x...huhu...trasa kdk klaka ngn org :)

bah dahla. till then.

p/s: kiko pulang gik! paluk lak.

lantak pi la

lantak kau laaaa!

**post yang sangat panjang berjaya didelete atas sebab2 kemanusiaan TQ

cepat la 7 mac aku mok beli tiket belon la oi T.T

sedih x bila kita berusaha kuat mok tolong orang tapi xpernah di amik kesah? haha. padan muka. mok bait gilak dengan orang pahal? dirik kedirik xtentu upa. mind ur own business la juju. xperlu gago hal orang.

at least ku xnyusah idup orang lain dah kinek. xda org perlu dengar aku ngerepak. xda org perlu respon dgn apa aku cakap. sak tokrg dikpun la respon lekak bc post tok. bkn ku maksa nak?

yah. im not in a good mood. sapa brani crk pasal dalam masa sebulan tok nang nasib burok la. 

toodles.