take heart~

Assalammualaikum. :)

wa wa bring me down
take a walk and turn arounddd

oh u everything to me
love u ever since the day we parted
dun u ever leave me broken heartedd

lagu tok bes
salu dgr masa mok g zumba
sort of warming up lam keta
hahahahahahaha.

i have an emotional breakdown lately. PMS to be exact. boringg. rasa mcm mok mrh org jak tp xpat coz that's not me. argh stres eh. -.-

tauk x keja admin tok susah sbnrnya. susah bkn apa, susah sbb knk mula balit. lelah gik ya. bagei rupa pindah opis pun ada. suma knk diato balit. xeran juak la nemu benda pelik2. *pagi tek ada tikus* eui~~

pasyaaaaaaaaaaaa ng la byk alu brg nok xda. dahya semua mok kinek2. mun la aku tok doremon, ng kinek2 la aku brik. tp yala mslhnya aku bkn doremon nak. grrr -.-

pasyaaaaaaaaa nak, knk ooo org len xpat jadi kdk aku. hmmmm. -.-

*jgn lyn, tgh emo*

aih geram eh. xda ka bnda nok sng. -.-

*jgn lyn, tgh emo*

mun emo, diam jak. boh libatkan org len. the best action ever. jgnnnnnnnnnn sesekali mrh org nok xda knk mengenak. duhhh. ada ka aku tetiba mrh org? -.-

sorryyyyy for everything that ive doneeee
hello from the outsideeeeeeeeeeee

gepeh this year will be happening again :)

sbb suma dah balit. okey xsuma tp most of them dh ada ctok balit. setaun ktkorg tgglkan aku umi eein kt btu tok, bila mekorg dah mok survive, ktkorg balit ooooo. hahahahahaha. survive ka mslhnya? sort of. tp ntahla. last year kan aku cam bz so xpk glk pun psl boring. hahahahaha. now, start balit la sesi lepak lunch, poret weekend, mun boring or stress mlm gi waffling or sushing or lepaking umah sapa2, dahya aku ngelepar plg umah gate knk tutup pintu knk kunci. hahahaha. rinduuuu. juh polah agik! :D

start balit la sesi mkn2 umah ejummmmm. masak2. yeahhhhh. ada la juak reason mok polah mkn2 kalitok. ada masa ka masalahnya ooo? -.-

*tp hria nak aku polah lasagna less than 4 hrs siap, leh mkn trus gk ya* hahahahaha amazing right?

*gila namanya ya*

mun dh bna kuat ati ya, ng jadi juak. proven!

aaaaaaaaaaaaa start dh mok plan mcm2. mok polah ya mok polah tok. lalek la jd ka x. hahahahahaha. rsa mok polah bbq agik cm dolok2. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa besnya.

*okey hyper tetiba*

aku tok nak, mun dh lyn org bna2 ya, means ng bna la ya. ish ssh nar rasa cmtok. bila gk rsa cm doubting2 tok. rsa loser pun ada. eihhhh geram. stress plg pk. sapa soh pk mslhnya? -.-

the only thing i want now is, to trust n to be trusted. haaa cemya. org lepeh madah, cenggitu hah. -.-

but at the same time, xmok la nmpk desperate. am i too desperate? only you know.

aih mls nar mok pk.

mslh aku kinek adalah....aku dh lmk xrasa mcmtokkk!!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeee bodo eh. hahahahahaha. mala mdh ngn dith, kmk dh lmk xrasa cmtok, kmk xtauk mok polah apa, polah cmne. nya mcm....mcm aku tuka jd admin tok la...sort of ko knk mula balit. eh xsesuai alu tok. jap aku pk....

nya mcm...bnda yg ko dh pnh polah...tp ko tggl lamak..n ko xtauk mcmney mok start balit? aok. cmya...n ko even xtauk rasa nya cmne. coz like seriously, aku xpnh ada rasa cmtok. mcm bulak jak kan. tp ntah. kali sbb aku dh xtauk rsa ya cmne kali nak? hahahahaha bongok juju. dh org brik soh rasa cmya, xmaok, agk juak pk plik2. bahhhhhhhhh dah aku xtauk mok polah apaaaaaaa -.-

dri first ever person aku cita, suma pdh bnda sama...follow the flow jak..tga cmne..tp nak, flow ya pun aku xtauk cmne mok flow kan. phm x? nya cam...aik sungei nok deras ya tetiba ada batu rah tgh2, so aik sungei ya cam terpecah. kira cm becabang2 jadi. nya lurus jak sbnrnya. tp ada jakla batu tgh2 ya.

APA TOK JUJU?

-.-

hahahahahaha gila aku tok.

ada juak yg pdh, jgn main tarit tali glk. klk hilang. hmmmm.

tauk x bila ko pk psl hilang ya, adoi sakit eh. start la pk mcm2. yala mslh pempuan tok. hmmm.

xmok eh. huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

yala aku dh pdh hria, mok mula ya susah alu sbb takut bnda cmtok la. yarabi. igt sng ka mok start hria? pjg alu rasa esei dlm palak otak aku tok. mcm2 cita aku igt balit that reminded me of why why why, should i bla bla bla eeeeeeeeeeee stress eh. hmm.

tp..bila ko dh lamak alu sorg..n suddenly ada org care, apa ba rasa ko? mun bna aku feelingless nak, xla aku suk2 senyum2 kdk org gila dpn hp nak? yahhhhh.

tp...mun la this person Allah just brik pinjam spya aku rasa yg...well..juju...life is short..u should really enjoy it while u can...to be happy is the only thing you want rightttt? and to find your person, might be the most happiest moment in ur life, well, Allah knows it, dun worry.

*ttba rsa mok nangis waaaa*

bhaya nar jd pengredha mcm aku tok. when u always thing of the worst thing to happen so that when its really happened, ko xla rasa mcm trok glk. *well, ko jk tauk gine rsanya but i think it would be bearable*

yahhh

*tetiba lagu raya kua, nang random abis playlist tok grrrrrrr*

xpalaaaa. aku perlu lebih positif jak. psya, maybe i should not put so much hope. org pdh cmya. hmmm. bkn aku ka yg pdh cmya? -.-

cuba igt balit ooo, bila dak kwn ko dtg ke ko, pdh bnda cmtok, then apa ko pdh ngn daknya?

*igt balit*

aku rasa aku salu pdh nok apa cdk pdh ya. follow the flow jak. mun ada, ada la. mun xda, jgn ko ngs bagei mati laki. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aku pdh cmya. sbb aku salu pdh, mpuan ngs sbb laki ngl ko adalah mpuan paling bodo and loser dlm dunia tok. ermmm ya meh? -.- harsh glk statement aku tp mcm bna jak. hahahahahahahaha.

jujuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. ko kuat baaa. masih kuat ka aku? -.- uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. phl byk glk cas negatip aku tok. shuhh shuhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

ttba aku mok tyk org len, cmne tokrg lyn org ooo? apa aku rsa aku layan tok cm plik jak. mcm slh jak -.- tp org pdh, be urself ba. so just be myself la nak? hahahahahha start dh bodo. wpun dri tdik dh aku rasa aku xbtol tok. -.-

ssh baaaaa. aku kdg2 pk, mun aku polah cmtok, apa rasa nya tok? mun aku pdh cmtok, klk nya pk lain. mun mun mun, klk klk klk. yahhhhhhhhhhhhh. *terjun katel*

blame the PMS. kan dh pdh jgn lyn aku. hahahahaha.

okey dhla. bgs goleng2 tdo.

till then.

p/s: jeles ba aku tga dak len dpt g sia g ctok, aku tecangok2 diopis ngato stor mcm org gaji. hmmmmm. dhya start la ngungkit, lelah aku blaja dolok tp polah kja tok. psya i will start blame myself for having that thoughts. arghhhh. ko igt mok sng tok sng ka jujuuuuuu? suma org mula dri debah baaaaaaa. huuu. saba k saba.

2016!

Assalammualaikum :)

Happy new year uols! 

xda apa yg berubah, azam carry forward mcm biasa hahahahaha. 

cam besa. mok kurus mok fit mok bmi normal mok rajin mok kerja ikhlas mok achieve target mcm last year *alhamdulillah* mok usaha keras gik so i'll have the chance to be promoted to permanent post *springkling hopesssss* so xbleh malas2 juju aaaaa. pasyaaaa mok blaja masak *hahahahaha dush dush* last year mbk kueh jak gi opis. i'll try to cook dis year. baking and cooking is two different things u know *obviously* emmm i'll try. org pdh mpuan mesti pande msk. org pdh, bkn aku. my collegue said that ko akn automatically pande msk bila dh kawen. soooooo? xplu la gago mok blaja msk glk nak. lak dh kawen kompom2 masak. gugel jak. setel. hahahahahhahah *tek mdh lain, aku dikpun konpius hahahaha*

welllllllllll, aku pnde jk masak. *ada org tetak bc tok klk* it just that, kdg2 ko msk k dirik ko mpun jak then ko ended up eating all of it. aihh boring u know. in the end ko dikpun mkn. hahahaha. conclusion nya adalah? msk la k org. hahahaha dushhhhhhhhhh. so, what you want for your lunch/dinner today? hahahaha. larii.

spending my 5 leaves unplanned. aaaa siyes xtauk mok polah apa mlainkan house chores. marek jln2 buang minyak keta. aku pun xtauk la apa purpose jln2 marek. but what i knew was...dolok2 salu jln cmya. hahahahaha. gosh. besar dh aku. hmmmm. 

somehow i feel scared. hahahaha bongok nak. mok start taun baru, with new job description. siyes takut. dah ntah pa2 la job description aku tok. bleh aku rumuskan dgn satu ayat jak. "menjaga kebajikan semua" true bah. jaga facilities, receive complains ohh yeah nang bes bila ko dolok ng jenis kaki complain. kinek tadah telinga terima dgn hati terbukak jkla nak. -.- try to develop something new n bermanfaat n increase productivity for the sake of your office and office-mates? hahahaha dem siyes aku xtauk apa bnda ya. jgn bos nyuroh aku bkk fb utk whole swk pun niosh udhla. agik fb bosh aku aku polah bodo smpe kinek. huwaa.

tok molah rindu engineering -.-

haaaaaaaaa larii gik.

i have reasons to stay. like serious one. i have planssss. i think this over and over million timesss. org pdh kita keja mesti ada target. yeah of course. last year taget aku ada satuuuuu jak. aku mok pasang kaki tgn niosh swk balit, and yeah i did this. bravo! so, next aku plu pasang kaki tgn aku dikpun. which issssssssss aku plu grab all the opportunities utk develop myself. hmmmmm.

at first, aku pk aku mok specialise in confined space jk. like...at least bleh jd fasi. ckp laa. but thennnn, thought of that made me scared, again. aku mpuan ba. hahahahah dem. dolok xpnh pk ka masa blaja engineering, ko ya mpuan? -.-

then again...i think it overrrr n overrr and aku tetiba minat mok involve in height. since aku x gayat. oh serious bessss! aku suka. ng kenak ngn jiwa. but thennnnnnn, aku pk gik, aku mpuan ba. -.- aiyok.

lps ya baruk la aku terpk, since i am grey's anatomy number one die hard fans sampe mati sampe apal semua scene yg ada nak, so, why not involve in first aid? leh polah cpr. hahahahahhahaha.

so i made my decision. ecewah. mun juak. mok try masok bofa this year. pray for me. at least i have something to look forward to right. mission ka ya? sort of. aaaaaaaa hope dpt. ssh nya jd kontrak tok. hati ya tenggelam timbul. tang tba dtg sot aku mok resign. dahya dtg cahaya mdh eboh eboh. dhla cahaya ya kdg2 samar2. eihhh susah. camne ooo. *tukuk palak dikpun*.

STAY JAK SIAAAAAAAAAAA.

bok kja setaun gago jk pk mok resign. grrrr geram pulak kite dgn kite sendri taw~~~~~

to be honest, jelous oi :( tga geng2 semua jdi engineer. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. nok makin stres ya, org nok dolok salu niru esaimen ko, niru kuiz ko, niru semua bnda psl ko, bleh jd engineer bjaya kinek? *tgh xbesyuko utk 2saat* JUJU PLS BERSYUKO. ok done.

mok mdh aku tok bodo, xla glk. wpun kdg2 aku xigt camne nak ngira. hahahahahha mati kita. lelah jak 6taun blaja math kakya lpk cmya jak *sedihhh* p xpala. rezeki org lain2 ba. :)

enuf about work. ecewah. menyampah plg aku,

relationship goals!

as usual, i'll be there for anyone, anytime, anywhere. ecewah. ayat sama jak juju tiap taun. ng boring -.-

target mok nikah of course ada. tok bkn aku sorg ok. semua tokrg mdh last year, kita agik ada 2 taun utk mencarik jodoh! hahahahha sot. eran phl geng2 aku suma xlaku. maka suma kacak2. Ttp yala, kali suma muka xmatured. org gk igt mekorg 19 kali nak. hmmmmm *HAHAHAHAHAH* 27 will be last. munnnn juak xda, oma apa, jlnkan tggjwb anda. hahahahaha. so, ada gk 2years, xlmk ya. sempat gk mok kumpol duit k byr scenenco. hahahaha. kenja -.-

nok feelingless cm aku tok pun gk pk mok kawen. xkan la ktkorg xmok nak? eksen nar. agik2 nok dh begerek sepulohjutabulan ya. ededehhh. mcm2 jk relationship goals tokrg nak. mok ya mok tok. just remember, mun gembira bahagia eboh tjk glk. tjk skit2 jak. xslh mok tjk, tp igt jak org nangga, Allah nangga, mun Allah xredha, then? tutup buku. noktah. sedih x mun cmya? sedihhh. :)

ok dah ya jak. pjg indah post taun baru tok. hahahahaha. sebelum menutup tirai, ingatttttt, be happy always!

till then~