duh

indahnya dunia~~~~

-.-

i am sooooo sleepyyyy but i can't sleep since i took caffein, 8 hours ago O.O

yes. it really kicked my brain. 

my inner voice starts to haunt me again. urgh. really depressing u know. 

remind me of my childhood, where i used to sleep-walking. bapak aku akan biarkan aku pusin2 depan tibi untuk bbrapa ketika. hahaha. aku masih ingatttttt~

*panjang cerita*

did i told u that i'll be a real aunt, approximately less than 9 months from now? har har har XD

okey aku tauk tok anak pusak, bkn ank org. hahahah~

gila excited. aku dahla xda adik. main ngan nemiak kecik? urgh. not me. aku salu rasa mun ada baby depan mata...aku rasa cam...boleh x aku pdh camtok...."keciknya...mcm belon...boleh picit2 tikam2 x?" i told u. i have no experience with kids. babies. hahahahah. susah mok dipolah bini? aish. bleh blaja. *tetiba*

 tp cdk suka aku so what can i say. hahahaha. so...yeah...doakan semuanya selamat :) inshaa Allah~ my family getting bigger. bagus laaaa. meriah umah~~~~ heeeee :) 

is this really happeninggggg? waaaaaaaaaaa!!! 

*nang panjang cerita -.-*

sooooooooooooo....

should i sleep now?

or maybe do some dance party.

hmmmmm.

warghhhh! nyesal aku minum kopi ya tadik!!! eihhhh ^&%#%^@^&@*(@!&@*!&

study pun xguna. xmasok pa2 kinek. otak aku mmg dikhaskan utk berfungsi dgn efisien not more than midnight O.O

maybe i should try....read few notes, slowly. right? 

no rush. exam is on sunday. so...

udah gik ko so so dari tadik ehhhhhhhhhhhhh -.-

kbai!

till then~

p/s: pahal pusak kiut oo? even pusak itam pun aku diat kiut. urm~~ mungkin sbb nya bebulu kot kan? and bulat? O.O 

p/s/s: susah ka mok patehkan dirik mun klua bilit off lampu and kipas? save electricity peeps. save the world! *tetiba*

p/s/s/s: always keep in my mind not to give up on anything; no one loves a quitter right :)

bai!

erhh

i don't hate u.
i just...don't adore you.
go away lah cicak!
ntah dari sine ko dtg tetiba jak nunjok muka -.-

bna ka mun cicak tkejut ekor nya tgugok?
hermmmmm~

o.O?

p/s: i wish i don't have to think. sapa suroh? -.-

p/s/s: i wish u knew, then u care. well, i WISH. haha.

hah!

do you love him/her? 

you don't have to answer this!

who is the first person come into your mind?

XD 

busted!

p/s: a friend asked me once. har har har gotcha!

urghh

slap me in the face or i kick her butt!
bisin ndak alah2.

plu ka kaka rah tepon teriak2?

"eee awk niiii eee eee"

wekkk~

*bunyi org single ngerepak?*

wpun aku tauk mun kwn aku tepon aku pun aku akn kaka kuat2. har har har~

aihhh p bena bah. tkekek2 tetak polah aku rasa cam....org ka tetak ya?

-.-

btw, done with tilawah! heee...

next paper is on sunday morning!

aku ngelayo dlm engin pas exam tek. rindu indah mok g kelas O.O

dh dpt surat!

ya jak la tek.

tgh mendidih ditgh hari butak yang panas terit tok

kbai!!!

till then~

p/s: hv to pick up my friend on saturday evening at klsentral *driver tegar sekali lagi*

p/s/s: aku masih menunggumuuuuuuu bicara~ *the only thing i can do is...sing! -.-

p/s/s/s: sik sabar mok balit!!! yay paintball! XD

in the end

i miss you guys
to the very max!!

ahaha ada ka word camya?

skati ku ngentam jak haihhh

study juju study!!!

fuhhh~~

till then~~~

:)

p/s: i miss all the moments and hope to create other undescribable moments upcoming hols :)

p/s/s: next year i'll be 23. gulp. and bulat will be 7 years old. hahahahahha! masok dajah satu pusak aku :P *heng*

whoop!

i'm on my study week

but i hate my study week coz it's too long and i'm mixing all the facts in my brain which may burst anytime soon O.O

but still i love it coz there's no class.

i think everyone loves study week right? hohoho~

i'm hoping to camp out in the library yesterday but i forgot it was public holiday -.-

so here i am. in my room. not alone. 

hmmmm.

how i wish i'm at home, or have someone to bring me food to my room coz i'm starving but too lazy to go down to the cafe.

hmmmm.

ohhoi sik sabar nya cutiiiiiiiiiiii~~~~ 

makan puas2. heeeeeeeee~

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

esok tilawah. *gulp*

kbai~

p/s: jika dapat ku mengulangi...pjlnn cintaku bsamamu lagi...akn ku jagaaa...sbaik2 cintaku ini...or cintamu ini? -.- *lirik lagu laju jak apal...bnda2 ilmiah tok pahal ssh gilak mok lekat? -.-*

p/s/s: mok soping. tp xda duit. xda masa klua. sikda bnda mok bli. tp mok soping. cmne ya O.O

p/s/s/s: stlh dikira2 mun mok maintain gpa aku knk score not less than B+ or else...nasib cuti skjp so sikla knk berus lmk glk nak? ohyeahh~

p/s/s/s/s: sem tok nang sem paling miskin aku. sik byk soping tp byk klua sewa keta la apa la and byk makan! ouch~ouch~ouch~

p/s/s/s/s/s: i miss u. i miss all of u. i miss everything. urgh~~ 

lovesss

just random pictures 

maybe i'm missing everyone

haha screw me.

when things not going to be the same anymore

sometimes we try to look back and see what's wrong

and we figure out that nothing is wrong

only the time is not right

yes. nothing is wrong right?

if there's a mistake, then it's just a piece of crap.

everyone did it. just the matter of how long will you take to forgive and forget? or maybe just forget?

ups and downs are normal things for me. i get used to that. 

and maybe it's time to think forward right? move on. silly mistake you made is nothing if we look it back years from now

and maybe...

you will laugh at yourself for making a huge deal about it 

:)

just wait.

we are going to be okey

if not now

maybe years from now

although i know years from now everyone will be different too :)

well

nothing to lose

if we are meant to be then we are. 

we are still the same

just the difference is that....

the situation is not going to be the same anymore right? :)

*tang ulang ayat sama jak aku*

i hope everyone remember that i'm still breathing XD

kihkihkih~

XD

till then!

p/s: i'm going to go through the night and pick my friend at taman permata, alone. hope everything will be okey~ pheww~ *driver tegar T.T*

o.O??

best nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! -.-
aku rasa org pun tok mesti beli smurfberry ya. sng la mok nait level.
haihhhh.
shari aku bleh nait 1 level, at most. kepak juak la mun tiap setengah jam mok men gem jak -.-

tido pun mimpi tok O.O

okey jum tgk grey's~~~

till then XD

p/s: time azan rumet aku tetak2 sik sedar dirik. aku nok meremang dgr nya tetak. eran -.- smlm pun tetak2 diat rm kol 2,3 pagi. tegur manas. dasar JUNIOR. twew~ yang eran gik ya, pelu ka bkk rm kuat2. bkn ko paham pun nak? eran eran -.-

p/s/s: do 30s dance party using this song --> sayang by shae XD har har har~ "syg apa kabar dgn mu? " hahahah gelik idong pey gugok ingus >.<

ouchh

dah dapat balit surat

but then

2 nama company salah

mlng tuka jadi lembaga air johor.

sapa mok praktikal kat johor? -.-

kepak dah aku ulang alik opis ya hari2

hmmm

mun la marek xda org amik surat aku ya

aku bleh dh setelkan marek sbb mdm xda sampe mgu dpn

and now aku rasa....

heartless -.-

screw u.

still i'm wandering who took my letter

aku rasa aku tauk tp aku sikmok polah fitnah since bila aku tyk nya pdh SIKDA

so...

sukati la sia -.-

focus with final right now

since i'm broke. really broke right now. i dun even have money to topup so don't expect me to reply ur text.

plus i made my study schedule very very very pack so don't ask me to go watch movie with you while....

eran ku. mbak aku kluar. tp xtauk mok kluar kol bapa. pasya byk alasan. sapa mbk sapa klua ka? that's one reason why i always go out alone.senang. aku xplu pk mok klua kol bapa sbb sukati aku jk mok klua kol bapa n mok gi sine. right?

scan gamba pagi tadik and org ya scan senget -.-

me in august, maybe. hahahah~

aku xla pande edit2 gamba tok. tok jk aku mampu. still nampak sengetttttt kan? urgh. mmg la aku mun amik gamba suka senget palak...tp....tok melampau gilak senget nya -.- *abaikan*

but...sukati la sia -.- kepak dah kmk koh. mikey hal2 kecik gtok. stres~

gus ku stres final jak. bguna jwk skit nak. hooo.

btw, decide utk SIK extend cuti -.- family aku balit limbang on 8 or 9 feb. so cam no point aku mok extend since tiket mahal gila mun mok balit masa ya *cuti raya cina* ada plan mok extend sampe isnin seterusnya means terlebih cuti seminggu lebih tp aku ada lab on monday -.- urgh~ plan mok balit pake miri or labuan. my mom said yes. but then...sik sanggup mok bazirkan 700 gara2 aku mok cuti lamak wpun sbnrnya niat mok spend masa dgn family huk huk :( abis jak sem 2 terus start praktikal. pasya cuti raya pun ntah mcm ney. bila la mok balit kpg :( uwa~~~~~

but i have to. hmmmm.

it's okey juju~ chill bebeh~

yeah. mmg try positif kan dirik dari marek gik. dgn apa yg blaku tok. sabar jak la. hui~

apa gik apa gik....

aaaa blur~~

dah start study week so aku rasa aku akan update agak kerap

just bear with me and my words and my unstable emotions. 

kuikuikui~

till then~ :)

ohhhh smile bebeh smile~~~~ nothing is going to be okey if you keep on asking why it's happen right~ so...move onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn~ *positif*

p/s: mebi balit 4 or 5 feb since 3 feb abg 2nd aku balit btu. nang macam2 -.- 

p/s/s: sng mok nasihat org spya jgn plh sesuatu bila kita xpnh rasa pun apa yg nya rasa. tp, bila kita kdirik rasa apa yg nya rasa, kita hanya mampu untuk dgr, angguk and sik pdh apa2 sbb ya lah yg terbaik. we will never know how is the feeling until we are in her/his shoes :) trust me. easy to tell others to forget & forgive, but it's hard. same goes to u right? so, i think the best thing to do is just...let it be~biarlah :) mun apa yg nya polah ya akan polah nya sakit, biar. sbb ya apa yg nya pilih. u try to stop, but u failed. u did the right thing. maybe something is not right, something is missing, just let her solve the missing pieces :) she will know what is right n wrong, someday. it may took few months or maybe years but she will find it sooner or later :) *bagei molah esei jak aku haihh*

p/s/s/s: rami balit umah. balitttt balitttt sak ada tenet bilit aku~

p/s/s/s/s: addict smurf's village. sanggup bangun tgh malam mok tanam brg baru~~har har har.

p/s/s/s/s/s: i always said that i'm lonely. honest to say yes i am very very very lonely :( i don't have friend to talk to here but i know Allah is always with me. no matter how far i go, how bad was me before, i know Allah is forgiven and He is always with me and yet, i miss my friends but i know we can't depend on them each time we need them. i get used to this. so not a big deal though :) it's hurt but yeah it's okey~ i'm a big girl! har har har~

OKEY I SHOULD STOP NOW O.O

ohhmeng

done with semester 1!
i feel happy!
for the...half an hour after finished my last class
but then....

someone took my supporting letter!!!!!!!!!
ohmeng
and i don't know who!

aku xda soh sapa2 amik, even kwn nok rapat dgn aku pun siktauk, and sapa yg gago2 mok amik ya? mdm pdh nya dah siapkan and simpan kat pigeon hole ya. and............*speechless*

uwa!! tauk x aku agak sia hari2!!! gara2 mok cek ada ka x. HARI HARI. Ya Allah...aku tgh geram alu tok >.<

for sure, sapa2 yg amik ya, u're screwed! sbb ko amik brg org tanpa izin. and ko kdirik tauk supporting letter ya sgt penting. and yes. i don't want to be evil here but the truth is, sapa pun kawu, hope ko dpt balasan yg setimpalnya. cth? KO SIKKAN DPT POLAH PRAKTIKAL PUN!!!!!!

k ya agak jaik tp arghhh i don't care anymore. aku mok dptkan esok, mdm xda. mgu dpn dah start study week. and bila gik aku mok dptkan benda ya?

yes. i'm screwed too.

sik di ajar kali nak mun mok amik brg org, padah. mintak izin. eran eran.

pengajaran utk sapa2 jak. amik brg org, padah. tp...at very first place, knk plu amik barang ya padahal barang ya bkn hak kawu pun nak? think.

till then~

p/s: ya Allah...berikan kesabaran dlm diri ini..

ku akui

Katakan padaku kekasih
Kesilapan yang pernah ku lakukan dulu
Ternyata aku yang harus di persalahkan
Ku akui

Aku leka dengan kerjayaku
Mengejar kekayaan di dunia ini
Betapa hancurnya hatimu laluinya
Ku akui

Jika dapatku mengulangi
Perjalanan cintaku bersamamu lagi
Akan ku jaga
Sebaik-baik cinta ini

Kini ku rasa kehilangan
Ku sedar betapa pentingnya kau di sisi
Yang selalu ada
Yang selalu rindu
Terhadap diriku

Jangan jangan
Jangan ku ulangi lagi

Jika dapatku mengulangi
Perjalanan cintaku bersamamu lagi
Akan ku jaga
Sebaik-baik cinta ini

Kini ku rasa kehilangan
Ku sedar betapa pentingnya kau disisi
Yang selalu ada
Yang selalu rindu
Terhadap diriku

tetttttttttttttttttt. tok lagu apis af ya XD. best. first time nya perform lagu tok masa lan berambeh haria. LIVE. woo. best woo. seduk2 ko feeling dgr lagu tok. ngiahaha~

just mok pdh...lagu tok best. n masok juara lagu next year~ *gara2 dgr hotfm suma bnda tauk* aish. mun ada geng, aku mok g tangga ajl tok. since aku sikda paper masa ya. ohhhhhh?! warghhhhhhhhh! sapa mok tgk ajl angkat kaki!!!! jum jum XD

kepak isik borang survey lecturer tok. urgh~

sik abis2 complain ko juju. -.-

kbai~

till then~

p/s: 30s dance party!! bleh kurus x agak2? XD

p/s/s: alah. aku gemok pun ada org kesah? hahahaha~ 

again~

so here's my final's schedule XD

click to ENLARGE~

well you can see i only have 5 final's this semester XD ouch. should be 6 including tilawah which is the first paper. not really 1st paper because it's tilawah, verbal examination. u will get your assigned examiner, recite the al-Quran in front of him, certain verses and then he will ask you few tajwid's, if i'm not mistaken. tilawah 1 is all about the recitation. no question. so..u go girl! XD *i haven't finish my tasmi' actually -.-

ndt will be the first paper! proceed with ethics, qc, metallurgy and my last paper will be a week after metallurgy which is the polymer XD so, i need to do my best for polymer. really best~ 

well, i need to do my best for all the papers! i can do this right? yeah! feel good about this since i have a week before my first paper. hope i can manage my time well. u all know what happen when u didn't have class anymore...yeah...even u have class u still have doubts right. aaa u know what i mean XD

just submitted my eit application through ONLINE. ntah mcm2 benda dimaok. sik cukup dgn hardcopy. urgh~nasib bait aku xbgaut sbb aku mok hantar kedirik, or maybe soh abg aku fax kan or maybe just submit it by hand since i'm on holidays right XD might do something beneficial to myself~ even soh jiran sblh umah hantar kan pun boleh, kot? hahah -.-

i decide to extend my hols, this is final decision XD will be back to kl on saturday or latest by sunday. i might face some problem regarding my room since i will be checking in a week later but still it's not a big deal XD bkn salu molah hal. haha. erk? -.-

i have lab test tomorrow. i'm not ready though. this lab 3 was very very very misery -.- urgh~

pa kenak aku gago sepiking jak2 tok eh? seteres -.-

agik seteres bila ko gago download game dlm kelas tek pasya tetiba mok bkk file ya corrupt. urgh >.< 

i must study now but......

i'm too tired to read -.-

tp mata aku segar bila tangga muvi or men gem kejap. normal o? o.O

aihh udah juju udahhhhh! setadiiiii!!!!!!!

kbai~

till then~

p/s: bleh x aku redha jak k esok n lusak sbb tok last week nak so cam....NO!!!!!!!!

p/s/s: bingong tangga dirikpun sik terator upa sejak kebelakangan tok. fuhhh. 3 hari gik juju. saba aa. phewww~

p/s/s/s: pahal hotfm tok byk glk iklannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn? agagagaggagagagag!

it really works!

do 30s dance party!
each time you get urself stressed out over something
and trust me it really works!
har har har XD

i asked one of my classmate about the past year paper
and he told me to check it out in the fb gp page
but here's the problem...

i have a problem to log in to fb
i just don't know why
maybe my internet connection just hate facebook? -.-

i can log in, yes i am but it's just...u know...

bila tenet nok slow gila menciput..adakah ko sanggup mok tunggu? benda ya bpusin2...*i hope u get what i mean* hmmm.

should i trust this past year questions? urgh. kelak xblaja smua tetiba klua soalan pelik2. urgh. urgh. urgh.

why we should study steel when now we already have this composite? polymer? u know..advancement in material's development!

kfine. i'm rambling because i'm too tired to think rational now -.-

one more week! oh please finish faster~

till then~

p/s: i forgot...i haven't book my return ticket, YET. my mom gonna kill me! >.< should i extend my holidays? should i? should i? urgh~

p/s/s: i heard that...mcd is now open in btu? lmk xmkn mcd sejak boikot ya start balit. ohh? -.-

p/s/s/s: supporting letter aku BELOM siap. and org yang hantar on FRIDAY dah dpt whereas i submitted my application on WEDNESDAY. urgh >.<

grrrrr

i hurt myself today

because of a kitten!

sprained shoulder maybe?

urgh~

nasib ko kiut >.<

aku eran pahal pusak suka dekik pokok pasya sik tauk mok turun -.-

pusak2 aku dirumah nun tauk juak gine mok turun pokok

pusak ctok xtauk! urgh!

balit dri kiosk tghari tadik tetiba ada bunyi pusak. nang bunyi mintak tlg eh -.-

and aku tgk jk atas pokok (pokok yg sama ank pusak stuck last sem, and aku jwk yg turunkan nya msa ya -.-) ada la ank pusak nok itam puteh ya. nok ngegeh2 dgn aku masa midbreak aria.

tetiba gk muncol ya. tem2 ko susah ko carik aku ooo. nang pande -.-

xda cara lain mok turunkannya mlainkan k kusi. nasib ada kusi rah sia. which aku rasa cam..urgh mun kusi tok patah bkn sbb aku berat ka apa aaa p sbb nya mmg mok patah! -.-

and ada sorg foreigner tok tlg aku. nya siap try nkah buku nya ke pusak ya soh pusak ya turun.

tp...tauk2 jakla pusak nak...mintak puji -.-

"how did u get up there? want to showing off?" <--foreigner hahahahah="hahahahah" ngerepak="ngerepak" p="p" ya="ya">

and now my shoulder hurt -.- 

how did she get up there btw?????!!?

eran ku -.-

o.O

hmmm...

still settling one last report to submit. and start revising for endless quizzes next week -.-

p/s: mun ekot ati malas ku setelkan keja tok tp ntah apa jadi dgn aku tok -.- i print all the report and journal for THEM and i'm planning to BIND this report. hmmm -.- xpala..ku xrugi pa2 ooo~ sidak yang rugi. kan kan? huuuuu...oh and make sure to claim with them..journal ok...how many pages u expect journal will be? NEVER LESS than 5 okey -.-

p/s/s: aku eran pahal org xpande molah keja mun sik perfect pun at least 90% good quality la. tok berik aku report nok dahla sik align, obviously nampak ko copy paste dri tenet bila ada kaler tulisan lain sia. adohah~

p/s/s/s: aku bkn xpat tolerate dgn org lain tp aku rasa cam dah terlebih tolerate. nyusahkan aku gara2 ko mok balit rumah nak? tauk dirik mok balit rumah, polah keja bagus2 boleh kan? siapkan. eboh sshkan aku. TIAP MINGGU balit rumah. bagus eboh blaja. diam jak dirumah. but my point is that, mun mok balit rumah, jgn sshkan org lain. that's it. aku igt agik last year aku gi kk abg aku tunang n kawen, keja aku suma aku siapkan b4 aku gi. bkn ssh pun nak? if u know about responsibility, then u will realise this. just saying though.   

p/s/s/s/s: i know i always said "its okey" what u expect me to say? "ITS NOT OKEY!"? seriously....

O.o

"responsibility doesn't go away
it can't be avoided
either someone makes us face it
or we suffer the consequences"

hmmm

o.O

*dying* but still breathing XD

p/s: every sem akn ada kwn aku yg amik leave sbb eksiden moto. latest? sik dpt mok amik leave sbb dah sampe penghujung sem sbb cam syg mok stop tp tpksa withdraw cgek subjek and it cost her rm500! ergh -.- sik kesah la sbb mbak moto, jadi pembonceng or knk langgar moto. hmmm. semoga Allah melindungi aku dan orang2 lain yang mbak moto or keta or apa2 la...dimana2 jua anda berada. igtlah org tersyg~~~ boh mbak laju2. mun ujan...boh jak gi siney2...ok a reminder to myself too i guess? o.O just...be careful ok :)

..

nothing is changing
it is never change
me the only one think it wud change
but its not
everything is going to b the same
it is the same
right?

:)

maybe im wrong
but
i must get ready
so im not going to hurt myself again..

prepare for the worst right
its better...

give me strength Ya Allah...

p/s: how i wish i can get this off n out of me. i never did.

relieved :)

first of all, i would like to Thank Allah for continuing giving me the strength to get through everything despite all those complains i always came up with :) 

indeed, i feel so relieved XD

semalam, aku memang dah redha awal2. macam biasa, refresh the same page almost an hour. nasib ada keja lain aku pelu polah so sikla aku nunggu mok dpt log in jak. tp seriously...ada macam 5 kali aku restart lappy -.- tenet mati bapa kali ndak ka aku dah xpat igt. bila on9 fb laju indah. biasa la ya. server uia traffic jam terok, but i keep on refreshing. in case mun xpt, bleh jak polah pagi tadik. tapi ntah la. tetiba dapat. haha. so last night i managed to register 15.5 credit hours XD and this morning add up another 3 credit hours. total 18.5 credit hours for next semester :) and aku plan mok amik mandarin jwk. hahhahaha~~~ tga la gine XD

click to enlarge XD

banyak? agakla. tp insyaaAllah boleh. aku tarit GEN sbb mok free kan 4th year pake nkah english kelak. suppose mok amik english tp dsbbkan kelambatan aku menglogin so abis la udah kelas ya. haha. sikda rezeki so xpala :) 

aok. aku amik auto skills XD sikla tauk merusah keta mak bapak jak nak. bagus blaja skit2 basic pasal keta. at least tauk la gine nuka tayar XD *x sure blaja apa tp yg aku dgr, blaja juak camne tuka minyak itam ya. hahahahaha. sounds interesting right? XD dh dolok aku mok ngisik minyak pun xpande. berik malu jak nak. maok pake keta tp xtauk isik minyak. hahahahha. atas kesedaran itu, ini lah jadinya. abis semua geng aku ku mbak masok tok. mwahaha~ yang tokrg ekot jwk sapa soh nak XD gkpun kls tok komfem byk laki. hahahah. aku dulik apa. i can survive this~!

dsbbkan aku sikmok menyusahkan idup aku amik cooking or sewing (since tok paling femes) sbb aku rasa cooking ya sng jak. blaja kdrik boleh. sewing? stakat jait2 skit ya suma org tauk nak. hahah. mun polah baju nang aku xpnh tpk la plg. tp dsbbkan mak and kakak aku pande jait so...blaja ngn cdk jakla nak *mun jwk aku maok blaja nak? -.- and plan mok amik kaunseling sbb kls ya sng, dtg kelas, dgr jak. bgik opinion. haha. ya 2nd choice aku. tp dah dpt auto, ok la XD

and nok lain suma dlm study plan XD 

ya 1st thing. 2nd thing? mdm dah approved borang aku. hahahahahha! aku xplan mok anta tadik tp dsbbkan rami classmates aku mok agk mdm so aku ekot la. and aku jd org last jmpa mdm. hahahahhaha~ and mdm approve jwk tanpa byk songeh gk. yeah~ XD

pasya...ethics dh settled! wpun aku rasa presentation ya macam apa jak sbb aku xbyk present, part aku biak laki amik sbb cdk xda bnda mok di present O.O tp xpala. aku tok kan salu camtok. SIKPA SIKPA. kepak2 aku polah slide k org lain present bah. hahahaha. skati la sia asal siap~~ 

individual journal review postpone! yeahhhh kurang sikit beban aku untuk esok. wpun dah tambah beban lain mgu dpn tp yg penting esok aku pelu settle kan kuiz polymer jak. mgu dpn ya lain cita -.- 

apa2 pun, ALHAMDULILLAH :) Allah permudahkan jalan aku semalam and haritok. mok padah aku sabar, relek, boleh la. cool. ada juak rasa kurang sbr tp masih ditahap boleh dikawal. first time rasanya pre-reg aku berjaya tanpa perlu reserved or petition or manual~ and tanpa sumpah seranah sik patut~ wahhhhh! 

and aku dah terfikir mok extend cuti aku seminggu XD sikda mslh subjek. sikda mslh bilit. boleh kan? heee~

Thank You Allah :)

ya jak la rasanya. heee. boleh cross byk benda haritok. one at a time :) igt ya jak. Allah akan tolong kita. kan? janji kita sabar, and usaha. mun sabar jak tp sik usaha sikpat juak. :)

so, semoga aku akan terus kuat and sabar. heee. and untuk sapa2 jak yang sdg berhadapan dgn apa2 jak :) teruskan bersabar, and ingat Allah. Allah ada dimana2 jak untuk kita, bila2 jak kita perlukanNya. :)

aku salu baca quotes, tumblr pun aku active balit kinek. and aku akn sntiasa igt cgek pkara tok...

kita patut rasa gembira and bersyukur bila Allah berik dugaan sbb ya tanda nya syg kita and perhatikan kita. perhatian Allah. sapa sik maok? ya tandanya Nya ada plan lain yang lebih baik dari skrg. sng kata...hikmah :) 

aku rasa ya bnda sama jak aku salu ckp dri dolok. haha. tp yala hakikatnya~

bah mupok lok kamek. kuiz polymer esok byk glk mok diapal. mcm biasa. nasib subjek tok best. O.o

jumpa gik esok or bila2 :)

till then~

:)

p/s: mak madah "sikpa biar org anok kita jgn kita anok org" pasya cam besa aku terus ujan lebat -.-

p/s/s: lom sempat ngabas pc fair. mok ngabas sushi king sbnrnya. aok. ada sushi king dlm pc fair. best nak? haha. bkn best, pelik aku rasa -.-

p/s/s/s/s: "walau aku tidak bersamamu, jgn lupakan diriku, kerana aku sentiasa mengingatimu, kerana aku sentiasa menyintaimu sepenuh hati"  (lirik lagu aku sik ingat nama apa tapi lagu masa puasa dolok -.-)

p/s/s/s/s/s: i miss a friend who shouldn't be missed. 

p/s/s/s/s/s/s: urgh. i miss bulat. hmmm. puteh getting bored with me O.O ari2 nya tga aku. ari2 aku kaco nya tdo. and kdg2 aku rasa mun nya tga aku nya pdh camtok "kau agik" haih~sikpun...mun dri jaoh nya tga aku...nya rasa gtok..."nya tok gk lari lok aku" *kuat alu imaginasi juju -.- pnde kaka swk indah puteh ya O.O

P/S : subscribed tenet smgu XD so byklah game baru aku dload. har har har~~~~ actually pake back-up pre reg smlm. and mmg bguna pun sbb aku add composite kol 1pm tadik dlm suro sbb baruk tauk subject ya dah dpt add. hahaha~

-.-

aku dah taip cgek post yg sgt gila panjang melebar 

tp bila baca balit aku rasa cam....

sabar jak la juju ooo?

hmmmmm...

:(

camne la aku mok bdepan dgn org2 camtok mun aku sik kuat. sakit eh. 

sabar sabar.....

fuh....

hello december?

" I can't think of any one reason why i want to be a surgeon but i can think of a thousand reasons why i should quit. They make it hard on purpose. There are lives in our hands. There comes a moment when it's more than just a game and you either take that step forward; or turn around and walk away. I could quit but here's the thing; I love the playing field" (Grey's S1)

yeah. same goes to me. i can't think of any one reason why i want to be an engineer, at first. I almost quit. I didn't see any reason why i should pursue engineering. I can't do statics, i even failed calculus 1! who failed the very most basic calculus in life and become an engineer? *that was what i think of back then XD

I never think about my future too. I have a great life. I get everything i want. What i know is, I have to get good grades, that's all. Then, i grew up. Too many things happened; good and bad that changed your life drastically and these things changed me, time to time.

So, here's the thing :) we never knew what we want until we face it, feel it, go through it, vomit on it, curse on it. dream of it. sleep on it. It's all about experiences :)

This means, I couldn't quit now, and never.

"Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate"

small little things happened to you might bring thousand meanings, grab it. :) and keep on standing; if u fall down, get up.

**dtg heng tga grey's. haha. and yeah, my task almost 80% done, Alhamdullilah :) need to study for tomorrow quiz before i get back to those unfinished tasks. Still, i can do this! XD 

*gila positif dah tok mwahahahaha*

till then~

p/s: "we're happy, free, confused and lonely in the best way"

p/s/s: everything will be alright XD

p/s/s/s: 3 more weeks and goodbye semester 1 third year :)

p/s/s/s/s: choose me; pick me; love me.

hahahahaha~

bila kuat gilak ngerepak
kuat gilak complain
sora pun ilang
walhal bkn nya ngerepak makey sora
aku pun eran -.-

adakah energy tekak aku tok digunakan masa taip post blog? o.O?

yeah

mok madah aku melalak2 dlm bilit koke sorang2 sbb stress molah keja

sik juak

ok bulak sikit la

ada la juak...sikit....

hmmmm

and now....

sadis :(

but it's okey

i'm STRONG and will stay STRONG :)

till then~

take care. everyone!

p/s: all of my doubts, suddenly goes away somehow..:)

p/s/s: reject 3 invitation kluar haritok. yahhh. time camtok tokrg carik aku -.- 

p/s/s/s: cptnya sabtu; dah malam? :(

p/s/s/s/s: aku sangat berasa tertekan sangat sangat tapi still tahap berjaga2~ uh uh >.<

p/s/s/s/s/s: anak usu satu2 nya pempuan belah bapak dah nikah. nama nya lebih krg jak nama aku. Dzuriaty :) usu pnh padah usu nkah D kat dpn sbb xmok anknya jadi nama last. hahaha. sgt ku paham perasaan itu -.- btw, congrats kak atie :) rasa cam last aku temu nya masa nya abis blaja rah ukm, and masa ya aku rasa aku baruk form 3? 4? 5? -.- and nya lah yg tlg aku tyk pasal unimas sbb nya lecturer sia, 2 years ago XD ngutik~and kak atie tok jwk yg pnh pujok aku spya xquit KML :P "ktk bli 2 baldi, simpan aek hari2 ok? eboh balit" hahahah agik ku igt ya -.- bkareh jaoh nepon mok mujok. wakakaka~

p/s/s/s/s/s/s: aku xmok mandik boleh x? sbb aku sikda g sine2 pun, dudok depan lappy dari 9am tadik until now. break for zuhur n asr jak. hmmmm O.O

p/s/s/s/s/s/s/s/s/s//s/s siyes xtauk s keberapa dah -.- : aku dah paham bnda yang aku sik paham sejak kamis lepas!!!!! sbb ya aku stop polah keja kejap~ har har har XD dhla xpat ckp ngn sapa2 -.- 

mata juling O.O

since supervisor seminar aku reya sangat cerewet dgn slides presentation, aku kinek sangat teliti polah slides.

"SENSE OF ART!"

 ada bena nya kata sir aku tok. cuba tgk tok...

ORIGINAL

EDITED

antara 2 igek ya, nok ney ktkorg rasa lebih sng mok paham and xmemeningkan palak? of coz nok dibah nak. benda yg sama jak. cuma dituka masok ke table jak. and xda penukaran maksud ayat berlaku. and sama jak 1 page. yala maksud sense of art sir aku ya. bnda yg nampak rumit tp sbnrnya ringkas boleh diolah kedirik asal tauk caranya. apa caranya? pake laaaa dak segala diagram, table, shapes yang ada ya. apa la guna org invent bnda2 ya nak. tp mun mok jwk molah slide naip sejuta word kat sia...aku nok biol kohh -.-

knk aku indah? sbb aku yg knk compile semua bnda. and dsbbkan sense of art yg ada dlm dirik aku tok, aku jd stress tga word byk glk ya -.- so aku tend utk tuka nya. nok atas tok slide grup mate aku. dsbbkan nya anta nok paling awl, so aku gk ada keupayaan mok edit pake nya sbb aku mls mok attach2 file, send balit, pasya explain *pada mulanya la

tp bila grupmate aku yg lain dh send part cdk and bnda yg sama blaku, aku tiba2 rasa mata aku camtok O.O tsk tsk~ and solution nya? aku send kat cdknya part aku and kwn aku yg aku dah TEReditkan tek yang sgt berwarna warni berbagai bentok serta gamba nye ade disitu dgn cdknya. and explain cgek cgek apa cdk plu polah balit -.- eboh padah bnda ya nyusah dirik cdk sbb aku edit part kwn aku tok nok ada 10 slides within 30min only, or maybe less. knk aku xpolah jak suma? nang xadil la mun camya nakkkkk -.- dah jwk aku ada part aku dikpun. mok edit cdk pun gk. kan bagus sidak implement jak sense of art ya dlm dirik cdk. sng idup rakyat jelata sekalian -.- bkn pake kinek jak, klk2 sama juak. trust me, u will thank me later because of this XD

the same things happen dlm polah report project. mmg kinek kmkorg masih taun 3 and blom gik polah real research and project. tp aku rasa xsalah mok start practice polah report pake format thesis nak. sik rugi. agik byk extra mark oleh disia. do in a proper way. sik ssh rasanya mok molah abstract, bnda yg smmgnya kita tauk nak. mun xtauk molah ya means xtauk la project apa kita polah, kan? sik tauk format thesis? apa guna gugelllll nak. dpd gago download2 bnda2 xpatut bwt masa tok *cth; muvi2 yang melalaikan kan bagus download jak cth2 thesis, case study rah tenet ya. meloborrrrrrr -.-

aku pdh gtok sbb aku rasa dh smpe masa nya kita berubah cara pemikiran. sik la otak mala jak kearah mok molah report kdk molah buku skrap rah skolah nak -.- aku bkn apa, kerja2 grup tok, aih heh. aku rasa cam xadil bila smua bnda aku polah, and aku ssh mok explain aku polah apa sbb cdk xtauk -.- and aku tpksa jwk la explain, jumpa and cerita cgek2. mun la aku tok sik lalek hal org nak, sik ku gago koh. -.- tp sik guna kita polah keja utk keuntungan kita sorg nak. so ssh gne pun aku mok explain ngn cdk, knk jmpa semua and wpun ada yg amik xtauk jak p aku xkesa. yg penting, keja aku siap, keja kita suma siap, and insyaaAllah dpt  ganjaran nya walaupun bkn skrg. 

ya juak abis kdit msg semua org mdh, "email sent" jak2. erh -.- *tetiba

okey. mmg aku tengah ngerepak. complain. haha. kepak gilak minggu tok. angol. nang ngadap lappy jak kinek. baca ya baca tok, edit ya edit tok. hmmmm. sakit mata sakit badan sakit semuanya -.-

Semoga aku akan tetap kuat utk hadapi semua tok. fuhhh~

skittttt gik XD abis project cgek tok, bleh la aku setelkan project2 lain ya. sikit jak gik~~

skadar luahan semata2. aku sptutnya tido 2jam yang lalu tp stuck depan lappy polah bnda tok. and yeah, i'm having insomnia again. sbbya aku plu masok tdo awl spya tdo aku ckp utk hadapi hidup keesokan harinya *nakpahal ayat aku dramatis gilak ya? -.-

to all my groupmates, i appreciate everything u guys did, i really am. u guys did good! we can do better, and let's improve ourselves together to be the best, okey? we can do this! :) *tetiba aku rasa, cam kacak jak ayat aku ya? *good, better, best? hahahhaha. *itu adalah spontan XD 

tetiba igt tem skolah dolok salu jak madah good, gooder, goodest? hahahahha cali XD

hmmmm. tido lok. esok dan lusak masih ada juju :)

Dgn izin Allah, semoga aku terus tabah dan sabar :)

till then~

p/s: start to have back pain. mcm2 penyakit keluar ujong2 sem tok. gulp~

p/s/s: eit application approved. next will be company approach. urgh~

p/s/s/s: aku xpdh aku maok glk volunteer utk compile semua, tp bila dh biasa dgn kwn2 kelas kdirik, tauk prange masing2, kita scara automatik akan ada rasa utk pigang tggjwb ya sbb kita rasa kita bleh polah ya and akn berik advantage dgn smua org. wpun aku rasa terbeban, tp aku tauk, kelak2 ada hikmah semua ya. kan? :) *gkpun aku pnh jwk soh org lain tp smua xmok. ney lah gaya nak? -.- tetiba aku mdh xmok nak. carik psl keluar bsuka ria weekend tok. ngelepar suma. kuikuikui~

I WILL :)

eboh bebulak

mun tauk, padah tauk.
mun xtauk, padah jak xtauk!
-.-

dsbbkan aku mok resume aku nampak kacak sbb resume aku nang sik kacak, aku nkah la yg aku tauk pake spss and mathlab which is sbnrnya aku sik tauk. ok bulak sikit. aku tauk, sikit la, tapi...sik la seterer pake excel. terer excel? bluek~ gago tga utube baruk dpt molah. ney gaya ya -.- n now aku stuck...cgek bnda aku  xsuka psl programming adalah bila tetiba nya ada error. and masa ya aku akan...mun aku molah manual tadik udah siap -.- tp, yes tp gik, dsbbkan mok markah extra so tpksa la guna bnda2 aneh tok. urgh. knkla aku volunteer mok polah graf2 susah tok? kan bgs aku molah histogram jak reya. tsk tsk~ ngegeh namanya ya -.-

byk workshop psl excel spss mathlab rah uia tok bkn ko pnh mok pegi -.-

BYKNYA KEJAAAA! -.-

dah jwk dak lain tok gago nyk aku psl keja cgek ya. tyk tok tyk ya bagei aku lecturer nok merik kja ya nak -.- *sbnrnya aku stress sbb aku xda kedit yg byk mok reply suma. dahla pake MAXIS! urgh.

tadik carik mdm mok ckp psl eit ya tp nya xda. and kat dpn office nya dh ada flow utk 2nd batch. apa aku pdh tok? kira flow sterusnya lps hntr borg mgu lps ya. aku tpksa carik company profile semua company2 aku mntk ya dsbbkan company2 ya xda dlm list. tambah agik la keja aku nak -.- huwaa..knk xbleh ka just approve jak? mun aku xdpt mana2 company kat btu aku polah jak kat kl tok. sng cita -.-

dah marek ndt tmbh gik keja. siap soh present. urgh. n dsbbkan ya jwk la aku sampe mimpi2 g oversea. sbb knk polah research psl airport pavement. and sblm tdo aku mmg gugel2 psl ya jak. ntah cmne la kluar psl mok g oversea ya?

dri material engineer ke civil dah tok. O.O and pagi tadik kls polymer blaja pasal biomedical. ha. bleh masok medic gk aku tok kli nak O.O

uwa.

tetiba stress -.-

lupak dah pasal one at a time ya -.-

kat board aku kinek ada 10 post-it yang ada pecah2 nya agik dibah2 nya. bygkan btapa byknya keja aku ya? sampe 10? pecah2 gik...mok jwk 20 nak -.- kali ada sampe 30? O.O

aku ckp bagei aku sorg jak bz nak.

sik sik.

nang suma pun bz kinek. normal lah tok. phew~

saja ngerepak.

hmmmm.

akn berusaha utk siapkan 1 kerja mlm tok. fuh!

go juju go!

till then~

p/s: kejap panas kejap sejok. shivering wpun sik sejok. probability utk dmm weekend tok sgt tgi sbb aku dah start flu n batok balit n aku dh start blur blur which means aku angol. makkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! -.-

p/s/s: balit kl 3 feb. ohhoi gila skjp cuti aku -.-

p/s/s/s: we can do this!!!!!! dun give up yet! :)

patience :)

sabar itu indah!

be positive!

semoga kita sentiasa berada dalam kalangan hamba-hamba-Nya yang bersabar :)

p/s: pegang dgn kata2 "one at a time" mmg sgt2 memberi kesan yang baik :) alhamdulillah~ sik bingong dah palak otak XD

p/s/s: hoping for everyone to be all fine :) do take care.

one at a time

byk benda jadi.
ok ok.

ONE AT A TIME :)

*post tok more kpd aku kelaka ngn dirik aku kdirik *bkn nang smua post kdkya? hahaha. so, just ignore it :)

sbnrnya aku tgh penin xtauk mok start dgn apa -.-

sbb ya dari pagi tadik mala la ter ONE AT A TIME jak2 -.-

reminds myself to do thing one at a time...

xplu gelojoh2...

fuhhh~

so, aku akn start dgn QC ptg tok. project ya plu setel mgu tok jwk! walau ribut taufan guntor kilat aku xdulik. mesti siap jwk! *over ka? o.O since this is A GROUP WORK so no matter what aku knk push cdknya utk polah tok scpt mungkin. sbb due date is next week. end of 12th week. oh oh? not only PROJECT, but also the CASE STUDY. hoi banyak nak? sir aku tok nang suka. silibus sik abis2 gik tp merik keja bagei gik ada 2bulan bok abis sem. tp xpa. we can do this! i mean...i can do this~ one at a time! and plus my individual case study review! oh em geeeeeeeee! QC ADA 3 KERJA PERLU SUBMIT NEXT WEEK. ada rasa mcm mok bunoh dirik x? sik sik. aku masih waras. phew~~~ sng jak ya~~~ *positif~

next! NDT! tetiba ada esaimen nak. k xpa. dsbbkan trip CANCEL so knk polah esaimen tok. xpa xpa. sng jak ya. gugel gugel jak polah slide powerpoint and submit later by 3dec. xplu present. HAH! tauk pun bgaut. berik kja gik byk2 aher2 *juju ngerepak. bebait jak O.O and yes. this is A GROUP WORK again. so...we can do this!!! *nang positif abis la aku wpun sbnrnya aku geram. haha. saba saba~ i can do this...one at a time~

next! presentation ETHICS! aku stress bnda tok. aku dah polah siap2. kira...aku polah semua sbb bila mok jumpa jak semua ada hal masing2 which is aku rasa cam...aok la aku rah uia tok nang dudok goyang kaki jak weekend tga muvi jak tdo makan tdo makan -.- oh juju saba saba. xpa xpa. rasanya bnda tok dah setel. plu siapkan slide and tgu turn mok present. dahla mala drag masa. p xpa. yg penting mesti siap b4 3dec! and report mesti siap before 14dec! ok setel~ ya sng jak. edit2 skit. print. dah! fuhhh~

report seminar!!! ok. aku plu setelkan part aku kdirik dolok. then mtk cdknya lain pun. then combine. *knk aku suka polah kja org? -.- sbb cdknya ya LAMBAT. mun sik dipadah or dityk, DIAM. if only u knew how to be responsible, then u will never do this. ya la maksud aku. kerja kita. esaimen kita. paham2 la nak. sik perlu tgu org nyuruh molah baruk molah nak. mun suma bnda mok dipadah, mok disuap, apa guna ko masok u. blaja jak rah skolah cnun gak. *yah emo emo -.- aku sik kesah polah keja pake org sbb aku tauk ada hikmah disebalik semua ya. aku dpt knowledge lebih dr org. aku ada privilege kat sia. tp, sedar dirik la oooo. aku kat ctok pun bkn nya stabil glk. yuran aku pun yayasan bayar. mun aku kat ctok FREE, sik ku lalek aku dpt dekan ka x. point aku kt ctok adalah : PAHAL AKU PLU POLAH KJA KTKORG???!?!?!?    pdhal mun lah ktkorg sedar akan maksud TANGGUNGJAWAB sbgi seorang pelajar universiti ehh. kan? betol x pdh aku tok? sapa2 jak rah dunia tok mun nya sedar dgn apa yg berlaku, nya sikkan polah benda yang akan merosakkan sesuatu yg sik rosak. eihhhh paham x? hahahahha aku stress tetiba xtauk mok pahamkan ktkorg mcm ney -.- sng cita....BELAJAR BERTANGGUNGJAWAB AND BERDIKARI... :) gkpun...sampe bila mok harapkan org nak? kita kat dunia tok bkn selamak2nya :)

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa nang pjg psl seminar. nang tgh geram la aku ya. hahahahhaha -.- so, seminar due 14dec. sik lamak ya. 2minggu. erh -.- but it's okey. i can do this~ one at a time, right? :)

report lab! hah. tok cgek ku malas. sama jakla elaboration aku psl lab dgn seminar. hahaha. yang pasti aku polah keja aku. setel! report dh siap. tggl mok print jak. horeh~

tilawah dah setel tadik! alhamdulillah. tggl mok tasmi' beberapa surah gik. ada 5 surah tinggal. sempat! i can do this~ one at a time :)

metalurgy? tgh tgu esaimen. and aku tauk akan bakal tiba bila2 masa jak! -.- xpa xpa. bnda blom jadi, so eboh pk glk~ yeah!

polymer? xda pa2 jwk. redi pake kuiz or maybe final jak terus. yeah!

ya jak la sanya nak? hahahhahhahahhaha!

ok. *pk balit 

I CAN DO THIS! ONE AT A TIME!

mna skali ngerepak -.-

plu ka aku campo post tok dgn post lain? aha campo jak -.-

TAHNIAH utk shake yang bok jk btunang ahad reya. ok sori siyes aku lupak nya tunang hari ya. mwahahaha. wat a bad friend am i? -.- but...my first ever room mate is getting married soon! aaaaaaaa. mcm ney la aku mok bygkan ko kawen oi. dgn dolok pnh jak main2 dlm bilit bgamba2 ntah pa2 posing2 tem tunang kawen camne. bodo alu mun igt. hahaha. main mekap2 indah lam bilit. mun igt balit...waaa...bila tetiba ada cgek masa aku nangis and ko la org yang brani mok tyk aku phl ko tok? hahahah. bodo alu upa -.- aih heh. walau apa pun, aku akan usahakan utk dtg majlis ko kelak. mun sik pat datang belah mpuan aku akn dgt belah laki. :) *mcm la nya phm aku pdh apa nak. hahaha. since aku dh pdh pun dktnya kdk tok :)

pasya....HAPPY 5TH YEAR ANNIVERSARY utk aku n 9 org gik kwn2 aku yang dah ada janji mok jumpa balit, 26/11/2012 tp dsbbkan aku kt ctok so xpat la nak -.- sik sangka dah 5 taun berlalu!!! dolok agik beringus rah skolah *kinek pun aku gk camya -.- hahah. kinek aku dah kat u. ada nok dah abis u! and bygkan 5taun yg akan dtg. ahaha. aku xmok bygkan -.-

pasya apa gik?

ok ya jak. mun mok taip pjg gik nang xguna la aku polah kronologi kt atas ya nak apa aku plu polah. bagus on9 jak -.-

hahahahahahhaha

JUJU NGEREPAK!!!

aku tauk ada org rindu aku ngerepak sbb rami suroh aku balit cpt :P

ohhoi.

k ya jak.

apa plu aku polah tek? O.O

kbai

till then~

p/s: how i wish i can stop the time, and do all these, still one at a time :)

p/s/s: fairy tales don't come true. it's the other stories. the ones that begin with dark and stormy nights and end in the unspeakable. it's the nightmares that always seems to become reality (grey's)

p/s/s/s: how i wish...AKU ADA PUSAK KIUT KEDAK PUPU? HUWA AMEWK MOK MEMEW JWK! T.T i mean...pusak bulu kck2 la...nasib bulat xpande baca blog...mun x ...kecik ati nya oo? -.- 

p/s/s/s/s: i expect the very worst thing will happen to my polymer's midterm but Thank You Allah :) i know i can do this~! :)

sometimes..

sometimes...looking for an answer only leads to more questions..

and sometimes...you're better off not knowing..

but..the best way to avoid giving an answer is to avoid the question altogether :) -GG-

same goes to when you say u didn't care but u still talk about it...

it means you never let it go..

but still, if u never let go doesn't mean you never move on

it depends, depends on you. ask yourself. have you move on? :)

just maybe we can start by giving ourselves some space.

yes, stop talking about it. it is the best way. although deep in your heart, it is the only things matter now.

just...you need space :) disappear for awhile. try to find the solution. which is you actually have it. just...space~

apa aku padah tok? O.O

oh. aku mok padah yang...kadang2, or bukan kadang2, maybe selalu, aku akan diamkan sesuatu. mungkin agak tergantung tapi, aku rasa, it's better to know nothing rather than know it and it will break your heart :) kira kedak...biar lah :) dalam apa2 perkara pun lah...hati perasaan jiwa raga, kawan bait menjaoh kawan karib decide untuk pergi jaoh, family kucar kacir or what so ever lah kan :) biar jak. benda ya akan dissovle kedirik. erk. dissolve? -.- kira kedak...kedak ya la! hahahahhaha O.O *rambling* mun kita tauk pun, just polah xtauk la. mungkin agak kurang asam kat sia tapi biarlah. ya aku la :) aku akan biarkan jak walaupun sbnrnya aku tauk. semua org perlu ruang n masa. kita semakin dewasa juak nak. muhasabah dirik. aku byk belajar untuk diam and fikir dalam2 tentang baik buruk setiap perkara kita polah. sik semua orang suka kita, and sik semua org bencik kita kan :) gikpun kadang2, especially mun dlm persahabatan la, kwn kita ya akan dpt rasa apa yg kita rasa sbnrnya cuma sik perlu padah. macam...telepati? eh btol ka? hehe. ada connection la kat sia. shati sejiwa? erk. hahahaha. *pahal aku tetak? cali ka? adeh -.-

ada la juak aku ckp pasal benda mcm tok kadang2 tapi sik selalu. dah kurang. mungkin sbb busy gilak kot kan dgn perkara duniawi kinektok >.< hmmm. or maybe mmg xtauk juak mok cerita dgn sapa? haha. ola kaseh -.-

tetiba muncul cita mcm tok? haha. marek aku bloyar dgn sorg kwn kls aku yang bok jak btunang cuti reya. and timbul la cerita psl aku n hidup aku. eh? -.-

kwn aku tok sik kenal aku pun tp just tga cara aku deal dgn org lain kt ctok, polah keja, spend masa cuti and apa2 lah, nya dapat agak yang aku ada hidup yang sangat undescribable back at home :) which means, my whole life is all about my family n friends, back HOME. haha. mungkin sbb ya aku kurang bercerita pasal apa2 pun mun aku kat ctok? kot? ka sik? hahaha ntah la. gkpun, xda pa mok cita nak. hahaha. semua nya baik2 saja :)

and bila dgr cita camne nya bleh btunang ya, aku rasa cam. ohhoi sweet laloooo kitak koh O.O alhamdulillah nya dah nampak masa depan nya dekat sia. hmm. and aku TERberik satu nasihat nok aku rasa cam...erh...layak kah aku? hahaha... "ko kawen taon depan, stay asing dulu taw, kasi habes final year, alang2. cita2 kau, husband ko kena respect. ape kes belajar macam nak mati kat sini last2 ko dudok rumah jaga anak" ok. a bit harsh there but my point is that, a husband should respect whatever decision his wife make :) remember, ilmu pengetahuan ko mbak sampe mati. gkpun, mmg ya plan kwn aku ya. mun laki ko tinggalkan ko tengah2 jalan idup ko kelak, sikla ko terkapai2. 

i learnt this much. i SEE this in front of my eyes. and yes, i don't want my life to be misery just because love of my live left me. *SIK MINTAK LA NAK -.- agik break ngn gerek bleh terumbang ambing idup, gne ndak ka knk tinggal laki? OHHOI SIK MINTAK AAAAA >.< just, be independent FIRST, and then u can be a good daughter and wife :) tp, aku sikla menidakkan takdir :) mun dah ditakdirkan hidup ko macam ya, terimak lah :) tapi, takdir boleh diubah dengan doa, usaha, tawakal. kan? sikla mok mintak husband hensem gila babeng *hensem tp gila? hahah*  skati2 jak nya muncol dpn mata nak? haha pa ka reti? -.-

to my husband-to-be if you ever read this, please don't ever leave me for any reason, except u die XD *sangat kurang asam sik cukup garam gula semua sia tapi maksudnya sangat mendalam :) ngiahaha~

ohh mmg jadi habit kot update hari kamis or jumaat kan? hahaha. 

btw, midterm exam aku dah abis isnin lepas :) relieveeeeeeeeeed! walaupun ada gik exam tilawah minggu depan sbnrnya -.- 

and mgu dpn byk quiz. cam ari2 jak ada quiz. tp dah feelingless sbb sblm tok tiap minggu exam, belaja sampe 6 chap sehari. mun quiz cgek duak jak so kacang jak ya XD mwahahah~ since aku blaja quality control sem tok, aku nang rasa idup aku improved bna2. hahahahahha! apa ka reti -.- and esok seminar pun dtg sign attendance jak and dgr org present. aku sikda pdh yang aku g kelas sbb aku tauk mesti rami mok mtk aku signkan. hahahha. aku sgt jaik. aku sik suka signkan bagi pihak org. sbb aku sikkan suruh org polah ya pake aku :) sng cita, eboh escape kelas! hahahaha XD

abg aku balit umah. cuti 2 minggu. ka 3minggu? aih heh -.- jeles. tp yang bestnya, dapat update pasal meow2. duhal aku ada anak meow baru gik XD hahahaha! bleh gik xtauk ooo -.-

and tauk x kinek musim pusak mengawan? aok. aku tauk sbb tiap malam aku rasa idup aku terganggu sbb dgr pusak2 tok klayi jak2. even pagi mok g kelas pun aku leh jadi penonton perkelahian sidak nya tok. kiut jak rupa. aku suka diat pusak nok tgh marah then bulu nya nait atas suma. mun ada sisir eh, disisir2 gne pun sik juak turun2 bulu nya ya. *bna skali imaginasi* hahahahahahhahaha! bongok aku tok -.- aku suka cgek pusak oren tok, aku tunggah nya OYEN. *tetiba aku rasa knk nama pusak ya kdk nama anak buah omme? hahahahhahahahahahhha!* ok ya xlawak pun. hmmmm. and aku tetap rasa si puteh ya pusak paling kiut kacak and ngegeh rasa hot la tek erghhhhhhh kat ctok. arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!! *ngelepar imagine pusak kiut gilak hahahahahah sot -.-

tadik aku kluar beli brg dapo. ckp la kot stok brg mknn tok sampe final XD

oh and selasa n rabu aku demam sikit. demam sikit maksudnya demam yang boleh gik gi kelas la tapi dalam kelas ya dalam palak otak ko ada macam2 la contohnya "kan best mun dpt tido...kenak sir tok macam menari2 kat depan ya?...bila nya mok abis ckp?" camya camya la. and aku berjaya untuk tido 12jam straight to gain enough energy for the day :D and now aku tetap rasa sora aku sexy XD

esok anta borang EIT. company2 yang aku pilih suma common companies kat btu lah. heeee. hope dpt lah nok atas2 ya. mun sikpat pun xpa la. sedar dirik cgpa kurang kacak -.- xpa, asal dpt tempat. weeee~

ok ya jak update juju minggu tok XD ngebaiiii~

till then XD

p/s: do miss me, do take care, everyone :)

p/s/s: aku rasa mok mengamok jak org2 nok mbak keta xtauk reti merik signal ehhh. sampe molah kita tpksa stop tgh jalan eh xtauk mok jln ka x sbb xtauk org tok mok belok ka x. mun ko langgar aku, nang masok jel ko ya! *mena skali jak manas -.-

p/s/s/s: byk ckp juak aku tok ooo? maksud aku...kt ctok. haha -.- kbai~

HEH HEH HEH XD