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Assalammualaikum..

It's been awhile oyeah? hehehe. Last post was way back in june. Hahahaha. Agik ada aku. Sihat. Sejahtera. Gembira. Mengembang dgn jayanya. -.-

Aku busyyyy.

Gago bosh until end of august. Thank you Allah settled semua bnda pling membebankn tp serius i am  ready for bosh2017 *munnnn gk dgn niosh haha* n achieve target early nov so 2bulan tok aku ng goyang kaki tercangok2 diopis. Hahahaha. Mun tmbh gk sbln ng gila aku tok -.-

Abg aku pun dh slmt jd laki org early august. Happy but sunyik dh. Hmmmmmmmmm. Kepak kawen tok oi. Mcm2 bnda mok dipolah dipk. tp bessssss. Ng besss. Hahahaha.

Oh since i've changed my url a year back then so no one manage to read my blog anymore. hahahaha. tapi nang xjuak ada org nanyak lah. i guess they think i am doing just fine? maybe. But yeah i am totally fineeee. Living my life to the fullest, in shaa Allah. :)

I meant to write to someone coz i dun think of any better way to tell you this...since i am best at writing long essay so, here you go..

Hai ktk. Since i'm giving you my story, so here u go. Ready jk mata juling. Tp sorry if feel annoyed. hehe. Boh jerak pls.

sikda tapis2 oh. so everything here is just real, truly mine and hmmm complicated? hahahaha. I told you so I am complicated. kmk xbulak. kmk xpenah bulak org. org bulak kmk jak ada. hahahahaha.

i am sorry i have trust issue. i just dunno what had happen but that's just it. i used to be sangat2 lurus and i trust everyone who came to me, who tried to immerse with my life, i let it but then they usually let me down so, okey maybe sbb ya kot kmk ssh mok cayak org dah. and i even dun trust myself. huh?

hahahahaha.

I type a lot. like a lotttt. cuma byk masok draft. sometime kmk type bila marah, and in the end kmk akn realise there's no use. so nah masok la nya dlm draft jak. kadang2 bila kita taip, siyes, ilang marah ya. lepas. then xplu pun post. hahahaha. sort of my way of releasing my anger. tedah nak? since xda org mok dgr cita kmk, so, type jkla. hahahahahaha. pathetic gila rasa.

At the very first moment i know u, i doubted. to be honest. :) sbb ada trust issue tek nak? hahahahaha. coz u know what, i am a typical girl/woman yg rasa semua laki tok sama jak, useless.

sorry but it's true.

i have family problem. typical one. normal. ada org yg lagik terok dri kmk. but ntahla. my version of story is not theirs. tp ckpla masalah ya boleh polah kmk trauma and having that trust issue? yeah. ckpla juak mslh ya boleh polah kita xpat tdo malam. well, dolokkkk la. kinek nyaman jak tido. hahahahaha.

now i am big girl dun cry. hahahaha. despite that trust issue, my last cinta monyet was 5 years ago, 2010. knknya cinta monyet? agik zaman belajaaaa gik biak gik beringus gik rasa ko la idup aku untuk slama lamanya and my mistake is that msa ya i thought of marrying him and yeah.. but this one hit me so hard yg kmk rasa mcm, apahal ktkorg tok xpande ka mok jaga ati mpuan? maok, amik. xmaok buang. yahhh. hahahahaha. last around 5-6months xigt. so kmk menyinggelkan dirik since jan 2011 up till now.

so around these 5 years i am trying so hard to regain my strength and trust to anyone, agak susah juak la. xtauk juak knk susah ooo. sbb dh ssh mok cyk org kot. and if u still remember kmk ada padah, i am everyone's shoulder and problem solver, sampe kmk lpk mok selesaikan mslh mek mpun. so scara logiknya nak mun ktk tga n try to solve other's problem, ktk akn rasa, ya Allah sshnya idup ko, xmok ku cm ko. cmya bah.

to be honest, kmk bna2 move on early 2014. so around 3 taun juakla blaja utk lupak n move on n timak hakikat yang he's not for me and Allah has better plans for me, and yeah i did it. xtauk knk dpt lupak. mcm automatik reset button keluar, mek tekan button ya, then taraaaa mek dh 100% move on. lucu jk rsa tp yala yg jadi. mungkin msa ya kmk tetiba rasa i need to be happy for myself. udah2 gik la. cmya. and rasanya kmk ada taip dlm blog tok psl ya. if rajin bca la k.

ohh n msa ya pun kmk ng pk psl final jak. since mok final sem dah. so, hmmm maybe sbb ya kot. bruk mok pk future nak? hahahaha sedih x.

since ya kmk blaja jaga hati mek bna2. but ntahla. xda org approach kmk. like seriously xda. eran juak. dah jd cam xlaku dah. sedih eh. serious. and apa yg kmk realise and tauk dri bbrp org kwn mek adalah org suma pk kmk tok xsingle!!! hahahahahaha demm. alu jdi xlaku. setegal 3taun menyendiri konok tek nungguuuu tp sbnrnya xda pa2 dah. so org pk kmk xsingle so xda sapa branii kaco. hahahaha padan muka nak? tp tok ng bna, msa dinner last batch kmk, kmkorg main truth or dare. and bila sampe turn kmk, sidak tyk psl single ka x. and kmk pdh single. and smua mcm, "HAH? TIPUUUUU!" demm. -.-

ada gik kwn mek mdh, kmk nampak happy, bahagia. hahahahahaha. ntahla. kmk rsa idup mek pathetic alu tp xsangka org rsa the other way round. how i wish i can turn back the time and be that person they always thought of, kan?

mek rasa mek nang loser alu. ney gik mok survive engineering, rasa nak leput jak. dh give up byk kli dh tp entah la dri sine kekuatan kmk dtg. magic. abis juak kmk blaja. dlm masa yg spttnya gik ya. xda extend2. proud oh. sapa x. kwn mek sampe ada yg tuka kos. sbb ya mek puas ati dgn apa yg kmk dpt. even kmk xjd engineer. hahahahahaha.

kmk cayak, Allah ada plan k kmk. yala bgs kmk masok uia. insap la juak. dolok gaok jak. xpnh mok pk dudi hari. bila dh msok uia, rasa tenang jak. sbb ya kot kmk rasa kmk leh survive. kan? huhuhuhu.

spjg mek kt uia, mek ng salu sorg. bila ktk pdh ktk salu sorg, mek senyum jak bca. tang sama indah. hahahahaha. so kmk phm rsa ktk. bila ktk pdh ktk salu kuar tnpa hala tuju. same goes to me. just that kmk polah kat sinun la. mek salu jak abis kls, trus amik bas nok dlm uia, depend dgn bas nok ney sampe dolok. mun bas nok g tren sampe lok, kmk nait ya. gi klcc tga wyg sorg2. mun x just g mkn ka ci mata ka. mun ada gik sigek bas smpe, bas ya gi kl. gi area sogo. mek nait jak. ci mata tga tudung2. amik inspirasi mok jual tudung apa. wpun on off still kmk polah. hahahahahahaha. mek jln sorg jak. xda org tauk. mak mek xpnh tyk mek polah apa cnun. smgu ada la 2x jk mek tepon. hahahahaha. lucu igt balit. tp siyes bessssss. kmk rindu zmn ya. wpun xda duit. stakat duit tambang n mkn, ckp la. tp bes. klua jak sine2, dgr lagu.

kmk pnh jak nait bas kakya lupak mok turun sine so kmk turun stesen last bas ya. kkya nait jk apa2 bas. g sine2 jak. nang sukati. sigek kl mek pusing. hahahahaaha. kkya balit mlm. gaok x kmk? hahahahahaha. dahla xstudy. hahahahahhahahaha. tp pass jk kmk suma paper kmk. mek pnh fail cgek paper jk spjg idup mek. ya pun calculus 1 masa 1st year 1st sem. ya pun sbb kmk decide mok pindah unimas sbb mek dpt offer dec intake masa ya. tp xjdi la nak. pjg gik crita. hahahahahaha. so, aok ya sbb mek fail paper ya. kmk xblaja. mek gago ngemas brg mek konok tek mok pulang swk nak. kakya mek dok lam hall ya 3jam, doing nothing but thinking about going home. hahahahahahahhaha. loser.

kmk xtauk eh knk bila dgn ktk kmk jdi cam diam and xbegitu bcerita psl tok. kmk xtauk knk. ohh trust issue tdik kot? hahahahaha. tp siyes, dgn ktk kmk tlampau tapis. kmk kadang2 mcm, eh xplu la cita tok. ha cmya. phl oh. eran kmk. hahahahahahah.

tp bila ktk dah start mok cita psl dirik ktk ngn kmk, so kmk rsa, ermmmm dh smpe msa utk aku cita ka ooo? aaa cmya la. tp kmk xtauk mok cita cmne. hmmmm. cmtok jakla oo. hahahahaha.

mun psl family problem, kmk bleh cita. bila2 masa ktk mok. tp get ready jkla coz i am totally gonna cry. hahahahaha.

mun psl ex2, xda pa2 glk mok cita. typical story. boring jak. cinta monyet bah. uk uk uk. hahahahahaha.

kmk mun dh pcayak ngn org, mmg mek akn cayak bna. mun mek dh layan, means kmk selesa. so...could u pls do the same? :)

so that;s it i guess. the rest ktk leh bc dikpun. mun rajin. mun xda kja. tp ng pjg. kmk nang kuat naip. hahahahahahahahahaha. dolok la. ktk akan nampak perubahan blogging style kmk dri tahun ke tahun. hahahahahahaha. leput mek tetak dikpun mun bc balit. arghh.

ok yajak.

bai!

HAHAHAHAHA

Assalammualaikum. :)

Aku dtg rajin mok baca balit blog tok. well i just missed some moments back then. moments jiwa rabak jiwa kecundang bahahahaha bongok.

Moments masa belajar. rindu. tp xmok la ulang balit. hehehe.

Mun org tanyak, bes ka kerja. bes sbb dpt kenal org rame. mcm2 ragam. real world ya ntah la. mcm sama jak masa blaja. ntahh. xda beza pun aku rasa. hahahahaha. weird me kot hmmm.

Pasya, ko kenal org yg matured2. org nok kelakar hal dewasa jak. nampak laaaa cita orang besar and org masa belajar xsama. ya meh? hahahaha sot.

Pasya, rame la org yang mok kawen sekeliling ko. xkira la org opis ka. kawan belajar dolok ka. ABANG kedirik ka. hahahahhaha bengong. oi abg aku mok kawen dah. aih heh. bes tga org suk mok kawen tp yala kelak neyda bes gik. sunyik? sort of. hahahahahahahhahaha.

Pa gik?

Ahaa boring la aku tok. Malas mok g kerja esok pun ada.

Nasib bait kerja nok xguna tenaga fizikal.

Yala aku xpande mok kurus2 tok. hukhukhuk!

argh stress plg igt dah gemok.

eihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ok dah ya jak.

bagus tido.

wehoooooo

naitnait

till then~~

p/s: stress bcarik baju k wedding abg aku. susah oi carik baju last minit camtok. hadoi.

Aumm

Assalammualaikum :)

Homaiges I really need a break but I can't.

Too many works pending.

I blame it on myself.

Aku yang xpande mok bagi masa kot. sikpat mok salahkan kerja ya banyak kan. hukhuk. *pengsan*

but seriously I need a break.

hmmmmm.

mok cuti :(

bahaya bila aku da start pasang lagu raya.

dush dush.

3 on 1

Assalammualaikum. :)

Just finished a hell of one hectic week; padahal baru rabu.

Hahahahahahah.

It's been a long day. Tapi sekarang dah boleh tarik nafas legaaaaa coz dah settled alhamdulillah.

Since monday ada 3 kelas dalam masa sehari. and most of it kelas luar. and yeah I'm too tired of driving. hmmmm. Bila ingat balik saat2 aku jeling jpj tepi jalan disebalik pokok pegang teropong tuh perghh serious rasa dia mmg umpph. -.-

xpa juju kerja kena ikhlas. kerja kena ikhlas.

*mantra saya buat beberapa ketika nih coz tetiba dah rasa menyampah dengan kerja sendiri*

kerja kena ikhlas okey.

fuhhhh.

3 hari ulang alik adtec, ulang alik pgb and sometimes ulang alik parkcity everly. pergi kumus warehouse pun ada. gila tak gila.

kelas adtec tu pun aku dah pandang sebelah mata je. nasib baik la trainer okey handle sendiri. hmmmm. kelas pgb nasib baik dpt trainer yang dah pernah datang and participant pun semua okey. wah xyah ckp la. menyampah sikit tp nak buat macam mana. layan kan saje. haigu.

kelas paling senang la dd4x4 sbb xyah koordinat sgt coz wakil dr hq ada so bleh la dipercayai. kira mcm lepas tgn sikit la. nak buat mcm mana. tangan aku pun 2 je. -.-

thanks kat korang semua yang sentiasa percaya kat aku and boleh aku percayakan. hahahahahaha.

maaf la kat si fatah aku kalau hantar dorg balik airport balik kerja confirm bebel xhenti2 hahahahaha sory la dekat ofis aku xleh nak bebel sgt xda sapa nak layan sobssss.

hmmmm.

ok dah itu saje.

lepehan betul kan yela nak buat cane duk bebel ngn org sana je beberapa hari ni agagaga. okeybai semua.

till then.

Hol-is-day

Assalammualaikum~

Ohyeah i just got home and suddenly in the mood of blogging coz i'm too depressed yeah yeah so stressful yeahhh.

gila.

last week i went for a HOLIDAY. you know holiday?

hari dimana kita perlu enjoy happy have fun sik pk pasal kerja and watsoever problem u have and deal with but me? I just waste it. just like that.

abis duit.
abis suara coz teriak xtntu pasal coz yeah im so stress
abis masa.
abis segala2 nya
nok bertambahnya stress.
yeahuuuu bohoooo.

aku sepatutnya sik mbak hp pun masa holiday. patut tinggal rumah jak. kan. hahahahaha.

sampe kinek aku masih rasa aku buang segala2 nya last week. sayang. duit bah. setegal sigek benda. setegal sorang jak. mood aku berubah. gila alu.

i swear im not going to disturb you masa ko cuti coz i know how's the feeling of being disturbed; emotionally.

hmmmmm.

sedih. my first ever cuti bila dah kerja and using my own money; self-reward. tp end up mcm ya. urgh. sedih ok sedih.

i'll prove you guys aku xmcm ktkorg.

hah.

geram.

okbai.

marah tok.

grrrrrrrrrrrr.

hahahaha.

kbai. till then/

Happy-less vs Unhappy

Assalammualaikum. :)

I am back.

Wehoooo.

I miss blogging gila babeng hoi. hahahaha. xda masaaaaa. ya benar gago kerja. BAHAHAHA maka ada jak masa malam2 mok update. hmmm. malas la kali. harharhar.

Kita selalu rasa kita sebenarnya okey. tapi sik. camne kita tauk kita x okey? sikpat tido ka? palak otak pk benda yang polah kita x happy memanjang? HAH.

At the very first place, ko xpelu pun pk bnda yg polah ko x happy ya. tol x. that makes you unhappy! or happy-less coz ko xtauk pun sbnrnya ko ok ka x? hahahaha. apa kah itu juju? -.-

hmmmm.

Selalu, bila aku pk sesuatu yg boleh polah aku happy, just..pk pasal ya jak. contoh? mok beli baju. happy bah! ada baju baru. scroll2 ig, carik baju ney dikenan, last2 xjadi beli sbb...ntah. sbb bila scroll dah terlampau lamak kita jadi malas. boring.xpun kita rasa kita xlayak sebab kita xda duit pun mok bli benda ya! hahahahah paham x maksud aku? hahahahahah.

happy ya sekejap jak. masa kita pk ya, happy la skejap. tp bila dh lamak2, jadi boring pk benda ya sbb kita tauk kita xkan dpt bnda ya. like...so sure. cth paling sng. ko suka org. tp ko tauk ko xkan dpt org ya sbb yeah u just know u can't. hahaha ntah. kali juak la. bila byk pk tok last2 bkn oleh apa pun. loser~~~ aku suka org tp aku tauk org ya xsuka aku plus xkan suka aku like i know yeah i can feel it. so, yeah loser me bohoooooo!

ala juju. baruk 25 umo. gik mudak. gik byk masa mok jadi happy. so xpala kinek jadi miserable camtok. bkn salu. hahahahaha. LOSER~~

oh yeah i am 25. happy belated birthday to me!!!! ;)

hmmmmm.

senang cita nak, jangan pk. mok try utk x pk ya nang susah but yeah just try. we know nothing. at least cuba kan. boh xcuba trus. yg penting, jgn give up!!!! xbleh give up juju ah~~~ mun org soh ko move on, move on jak. cita lamak oi. boh jadi bodo spjg hayat. hahahahaha. bna alu ya~~~ org len dah move on oi. ko jak mcm erghhhh loserrrr~~~ hahahahahahahahaha. 

i miss something. but i don't know what. been searching for that something for hmmmm berapa lamak tah. yarabi. nang loser aku tok. phl pk bnda gtok agik. hahahahah. dem~~~

bah udah gik. sik guna pk2 bnda gtok. xda faedah. tang byk gk kerja bleh dipolah. hahahaha. gosh i have so many due dates to catch. mataiii~

bah mupok lok. gebai~~~~

till then~

PERGH rindu mok mdh till then ya hahahahahahahahaha.

i just missing this. that's all. :)

Am I too late?

Assalammualaikum :)

I guess I am not. still January. So...

HAPPY NEW YEAR! mihmihmih.

:)

Rindu zaman blogging tiap jam dolok. Hahahahaha.

Tapi bila pk balit. If aku selalu blog, means I am depressed. HAHAHAHA.

So ko tengah tension lah kinek sbbya ko muncul?

Not sure.

:)

I am missing some moments which I am not sure what it is.

I met a lot of new people lately so belajar banyak benda baru and mula fikir lebih jauh (walaupun rsanya sebelum tok pun aku dah terlampau pk jauhhhh)

Boleh pake gik ka ooo follow the flow aku ya? hmmmmm.

Maybe boleh. Maybe sik. Entahlahh. hahahahahaha.

What am I missing?

pfffttt~

Well...

I am thinking of applying for masters. and I am not sure why.

okey that's it.

gebai!

till then~~

:)

p/s: setiap kali dengar lagu dalam mp3, terlampau banyak and bercampur baur memories aku. and yeah. I am missing every bits of it. rasa macam mok putar balit masa or mimpi balit ka tapi sikmok lalu nya balit. boleh ka? hahahahahaha.