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Assalammualaikum..

It's been awhile oyeah? hehehe. Last post was way back in june. Hahahaha. Agik ada aku. Sihat. Sejahtera. Gembira. Mengembang dgn jayanya. -.-

Aku busyyyy.

Gago bosh until end of august. Thank you Allah settled semua bnda pling membebankn tp serius i am  ready for bosh2017 *munnnn gk dgn niosh haha* n achieve target early nov so 2bulan tok aku ng goyang kaki tercangok2 diopis. Hahahaha. Mun tmbh gk sbln ng gila aku tok -.-

Abg aku pun dh slmt jd laki org early august. Happy but sunyik dh. Hmmmmmmmmm. Kepak kawen tok oi. Mcm2 bnda mok dipolah dipk. tp bessssss. Ng besss. Hahahaha.

Oh since i've changed my url a year back then so no one manage to read my blog anymore. hahahaha. tapi nang xjuak ada org nanyak lah. i guess they think i am doing just fine? maybe. But yeah i am totally fineeee. Living my life to the fullest, in shaa Allah. :)

I meant to write to someone coz i dun think of any better way to tell you this...since i am best at writing long essay so, here you go..

Hai ktk. Since i'm giving you my story, so here u go. Ready jk mata juling. Tp sorry if feel annoyed. hehe. Boh jerak pls.

sikda tapis2 oh. so everything here is just real, truly mine and hmmm complicated? hahahaha. I told you so I am complicated. kmk xbulak. kmk xpenah bulak org. org bulak kmk jak ada. hahahahaha.

i am sorry i have trust issue. i just dunno what had happen but that's just it. i used to be sangat2 lurus and i trust everyone who came to me, who tried to immerse with my life, i let it but then they usually let me down so, okey maybe sbb ya kot kmk ssh mok cayak org dah. and i even dun trust myself. huh?

hahahahaha.

I type a lot. like a lotttt. cuma byk masok draft. sometime kmk type bila marah, and in the end kmk akn realise there's no use. so nah masok la nya dlm draft jak. kadang2 bila kita taip, siyes, ilang marah ya. lepas. then xplu pun post. hahahaha. sort of my way of releasing my anger. tedah nak? since xda org mok dgr cita kmk, so, type jkla. hahahahahaha. pathetic gila rasa.

At the very first moment i know u, i doubted. to be honest. :) sbb ada trust issue tek nak? hahahahaha. coz u know what, i am a typical girl/woman yg rasa semua laki tok sama jak, useless.

sorry but it's true.

i have family problem. typical one. normal. ada org yg lagik terok dri kmk. but ntahla. my version of story is not theirs. tp ckpla masalah ya boleh polah kmk trauma and having that trust issue? yeah. ckpla juak mslh ya boleh polah kita xpat tdo malam. well, dolokkkk la. kinek nyaman jak tido. hahahahaha.

now i am big girl dun cry. hahahaha. despite that trust issue, my last cinta monyet was 5 years ago, 2010. knknya cinta monyet? agik zaman belajaaaa gik biak gik beringus gik rasa ko la idup aku untuk slama lamanya and my mistake is that msa ya i thought of marrying him and yeah.. but this one hit me so hard yg kmk rasa mcm, apahal ktkorg tok xpande ka mok jaga ati mpuan? maok, amik. xmaok buang. yahhh. hahahahaha. last around 5-6months xigt. so kmk menyinggelkan dirik since jan 2011 up till now.

so around these 5 years i am trying so hard to regain my strength and trust to anyone, agak susah juak la. xtauk juak knk susah ooo. sbb dh ssh mok cyk org kot. and if u still remember kmk ada padah, i am everyone's shoulder and problem solver, sampe kmk lpk mok selesaikan mslh mek mpun. so scara logiknya nak mun ktk tga n try to solve other's problem, ktk akn rasa, ya Allah sshnya idup ko, xmok ku cm ko. cmya bah.

to be honest, kmk bna2 move on early 2014. so around 3 taun juakla blaja utk lupak n move on n timak hakikat yang he's not for me and Allah has better plans for me, and yeah i did it. xtauk knk dpt lupak. mcm automatik reset button keluar, mek tekan button ya, then taraaaa mek dh 100% move on. lucu jk rsa tp yala yg jadi. mungkin msa ya kmk tetiba rasa i need to be happy for myself. udah2 gik la. cmya. and rasanya kmk ada taip dlm blog tok psl ya. if rajin bca la k.

ohh n msa ya pun kmk ng pk psl final jak. since mok final sem dah. so, hmmm maybe sbb ya kot. bruk mok pk future nak? hahahaha sedih x.

since ya kmk blaja jaga hati mek bna2. but ntahla. xda org approach kmk. like seriously xda. eran juak. dah jd cam xlaku dah. sedih eh. serious. and apa yg kmk realise and tauk dri bbrp org kwn mek adalah org suma pk kmk tok xsingle!!! hahahahahaha demm. alu jdi xlaku. setegal 3taun menyendiri konok tek nungguuuu tp sbnrnya xda pa2 dah. so org pk kmk xsingle so xda sapa branii kaco. hahahaha padan muka nak? tp tok ng bna, msa dinner last batch kmk, kmkorg main truth or dare. and bila sampe turn kmk, sidak tyk psl single ka x. and kmk pdh single. and smua mcm, "HAH? TIPUUUUU!" demm. -.-

ada gik kwn mek mdh, kmk nampak happy, bahagia. hahahahahaha. ntahla. kmk rsa idup mek pathetic alu tp xsangka org rsa the other way round. how i wish i can turn back the time and be that person they always thought of, kan?

mek rasa mek nang loser alu. ney gik mok survive engineering, rasa nak leput jak. dh give up byk kli dh tp entah la dri sine kekuatan kmk dtg. magic. abis juak kmk blaja. dlm masa yg spttnya gik ya. xda extend2. proud oh. sapa x. kwn mek sampe ada yg tuka kos. sbb ya mek puas ati dgn apa yg kmk dpt. even kmk xjd engineer. hahahahahaha.

kmk cayak, Allah ada plan k kmk. yala bgs kmk masok uia. insap la juak. dolok gaok jak. xpnh mok pk dudi hari. bila dh msok uia, rasa tenang jak. sbb ya kot kmk rasa kmk leh survive. kan? huhuhuhu.

spjg mek kt uia, mek ng salu sorg. bila ktk pdh ktk salu sorg, mek senyum jak bca. tang sama indah. hahahahaha. so kmk phm rsa ktk. bila ktk pdh ktk salu kuar tnpa hala tuju. same goes to me. just that kmk polah kat sinun la. mek salu jak abis kls, trus amik bas nok dlm uia, depend dgn bas nok ney sampe dolok. mun bas nok g tren sampe lok, kmk nait ya. gi klcc tga wyg sorg2. mun x just g mkn ka ci mata ka. mun ada gik sigek bas smpe, bas ya gi kl. gi area sogo. mek nait jak. ci mata tga tudung2. amik inspirasi mok jual tudung apa. wpun on off still kmk polah. hahahahahahaha. mek jln sorg jak. xda org tauk. mak mek xpnh tyk mek polah apa cnun. smgu ada la 2x jk mek tepon. hahahahaha. lucu igt balit. tp siyes bessssss. kmk rindu zmn ya. wpun xda duit. stakat duit tambang n mkn, ckp la. tp bes. klua jak sine2, dgr lagu.

kmk pnh jak nait bas kakya lupak mok turun sine so kmk turun stesen last bas ya. kkya nait jk apa2 bas. g sine2 jak. nang sukati. sigek kl mek pusing. hahahahaaha. kkya balit mlm. gaok x kmk? hahahahahaha. dahla xstudy. hahahahahhahahaha. tp pass jk kmk suma paper kmk. mek pnh fail cgek paper jk spjg idup mek. ya pun calculus 1 masa 1st year 1st sem. ya pun sbb kmk decide mok pindah unimas sbb mek dpt offer dec intake masa ya. tp xjdi la nak. pjg gik crita. hahahahahaha. so, aok ya sbb mek fail paper ya. kmk xblaja. mek gago ngemas brg mek konok tek mok pulang swk nak. kakya mek dok lam hall ya 3jam, doing nothing but thinking about going home. hahahahahahahhaha. loser.

kmk xtauk eh knk bila dgn ktk kmk jdi cam diam and xbegitu bcerita psl tok. kmk xtauk knk. ohh trust issue tdik kot? hahahahaha. tp siyes, dgn ktk kmk tlampau tapis. kmk kadang2 mcm, eh xplu la cita tok. ha cmya. phl oh. eran kmk. hahahahahahah.

tp bila ktk dah start mok cita psl dirik ktk ngn kmk, so kmk rsa, ermmmm dh smpe msa utk aku cita ka ooo? aaa cmya la. tp kmk xtauk mok cita cmne. hmmmm. cmtok jakla oo. hahahahaha.

mun psl family problem, kmk bleh cita. bila2 masa ktk mok. tp get ready jkla coz i am totally gonna cry. hahahahaha.

mun psl ex2, xda pa2 glk mok cita. typical story. boring jak. cinta monyet bah. uk uk uk. hahahahahaha.

kmk mun dh pcayak ngn org, mmg mek akn cayak bna. mun mek dh layan, means kmk selesa. so...could u pls do the same? :)

so that;s it i guess. the rest ktk leh bc dikpun. mun rajin. mun xda kja. tp ng pjg. kmk nang kuat naip. hahahahahahahahahaha. dolok la. ktk akan nampak perubahan blogging style kmk dri tahun ke tahun. hahahahahahaha. leput mek tetak dikpun mun bc balit. arghh.

ok yajak.

bai!