first n last

i dun think i can adapt MYSELF there. o.k i knew im being so selfish. i have no confident to work and to get along with others. UNLESS, ive got my fren whom i can talk talk talk n talk comfortably. i think, my frens know who i am and what sort of behaviour i got. however some of them cant really understand me. what they know is to blame me. thnx God my mom dont blame me coz she knows me better. yala mak aku genti la tauk aku gney nak. sng cta la, aku tok nang bisuk, i cant talk. sora ku ada tp mun bab2 mok bukak cita tok aku xpande. coz mind set aku dr kecik giya. so, hv problem with it anyway?

let me tell you MY story, these are MINE, xda bulak2, suma cita bena..

In february 2003, i entered kolej tunku kurshiah, n9. 3 days in kl, we had some sort like orientation, and i knew hazwanie, azie, shafikah and others. only these names i remember. azie was my good friend, (look, i can still make fren eventhough im sooo sombong). azie, shafikah n me were sent to tkc and we arrived there around 3 to4 p.m. pity me, im the only one without my frens coz azie n shafikah were in the same dorm. and starting there, i feel soo desperately want to go home, HOME is BINTULU SARAWAK. its not kl or seremban or somewhere else in peninsular, its BORNEO. thnx God my father was still near k.l got meeting. he came n persuade me. but in vain. i was crying crying n while talking on the phone with my mum, i was sepaking2 the door or sliding door or ntah la apa benda ya. and suma org tga aku and aku plh xtauk jak. so jaik kan? haha. my mom came n brought me to k.l. kira kdk mok pujok2 la konok tek. tp aku dgn ati aku yg teramat la keras kdk batu, ukan kdk batu, krs gk dr batu! haha. aku ttp xmok stay. n tpaksa la dgn muka tebal my mom, brother n me agak tkc ptg ya pake komuter and byr balit suma yuran yang yayasan swk da byrkan. kecian alu mak aku tem ya, dala duit xckp. aku rela kuar duit dr bank aku. and aku tauk tem a cgek family aku mrh aku. aku xdulik asl aku dpt balit. n i stayed in tkc about 4days. aku smpt jwk masok bilik sakit n knl sorg kakak akt. mmg besh tp aku xtahan. xtauk la phl ow. and aku gk igt, ari jumaat, the same week, aku masok smk kidurong balit. nasib nama aku blom dibuang. so aku kdk bercuti la sminggu ya. haha. look, only a week. ada cpa2 dpt pch rekod aku? ;p

ada gk cta. masa ku fom4, after pmr. elehhh mntg2 result aku kacak tek nak. akumtk tuka pegi 4sc2. mok amik lK la konok tek. haha. pas cny xslh ku, aku pndh ngn geng2 aku yg len. effa&anete. tah tba2, hari ke2 or ke3 aku da rasa kdk homesick. haha. kdk CLASS-sick kot. tg tba rindu mk ngn geng2 dlk. haha bodow ku tok. dsbbkan aku malu mok mtk tuka g 4sc1 balit, yala tek aku decides pndh teknik (yabi ng bodow gila xda otak ku tok), coz shafiq mdh ngn aku mun mk macok cia g jmpa Cikgu Abu. so, aku mbk la parents ku tek. haha. dah gk cikgu ya teruja tga result aku. yaaa nya soh dtg terus ecok. kdk bangga la aku tek nk. cewah. tp malang nya skolah ya, aku cuma thn sehari jk. eh eh x. stgh ari jak. hahahahahaha. apahal ku tok? aku kdrk xtauk. ebo tyk apahal. aku mmg gtok. dr dolok agik. cuba tga, dr f1 gk aku giya. hahaha.pndh2 aku ujg2 rah kidurong jwk. ebo eran aku g U lak rah upm jak. hahaha xmtk owh. aku arap mind set aku da tuka tem ya. herm. and last2 aku tuka gk g 5sc1. aku gk igt ari ya ari sabtu, aku dtg dgn mak aku, aku nangis dkt tangga mok g pej am ya. and suma cegu tyk apahal, aku jwb dgn aik mata. aku jmpa utz siroj, tnpa malu dn segan aku ngs gk dpn nya n aku xeran la nya knl aku glk2. n nya pdh, bia la aku masok 4sc1 balit n i like, yay! and mdm christine pujuk2 aku spya ebo ngs, n suma geng2 aku giya. n starting dat time, i feel like in heaven. ebo la pndh agk lam ati aku. da la nyusah mak aku jk. abg aku ng mrh2 ngn aku. herm. thnx to eein jwk, nya pujok2 aku. sgup nya tepon aku. aku tem ya da rasa xmk g skola da. rasa malu gilak2. herm.

yala apa yg tjd kinektok. aku xmk ssh kn mak aku gk. tpksa anta aku g keja. tpksa gago mk amik mlm2. n tpksa nyusahkan bos rah sia. in fact aku mmg da ssh kn cdkya. im so sorry.

so, pengalaman2 tok la kdg2 mlh aku stress. im so stress o.k cpa pdh aku xpnh pk phl aku kdkya. mok mdh aku tok manjak glk, im sooo pemberontak. manjak mmg la. tp mun ngn geng2 aku, im sooooo frenly. sejarah idup aku tok, kdg2 menghantui dirik kdrk. aku takut ba tem da besar klk aku kdktok. i cant get along with others. and they tend to blame me at first. o.k aku xkesa sbnrnya org blame aku, cuma masalah aku knktok, i dont know why aku kdktok. hey, even with my own cousin, aku xckp glk. ask them. mun dlm frenster bkn main gk aku. p mun da depan2. not even cousin, sumtimes with my own teacher, mun my frens are not aaround, i tend to close my mouth and say nothing. o.k dats me. so, hv problem with it anyway? im working it out to change o.k! aku gk cuba tok tp ssh glk!! adoh2...

at last

im not a jobless school-leaver anymore. har har har. i got accepted to work at kfc(town) as a cashier ( err yeh yeh i dun even know how to tik tok the machine). thnx to ther anyway, if not because of her, i would never got the job as im so give up to look for any vacancy again. it pissed me of somehow. no one like to look for job actually. especially ppl like me who tend to feel bored easily. kan kan. errr kadang2 aku rasa malas plg mok keja, yeh dun blame me o.k. im bored n lazy rite now. however, i am going to work whatever it is. i MUST work. or else, zuria will be zuria forever. i mean, the old me. err only i know what im talking about. hehe. craps!

i still looking for new layout rightnow. naa. i just cant find it. hish. o.k pls not give up o.k. aiyer.

these past fes days, im kept on reading others blog, especially sarawakian. however, they are mostly mirian and i cant found any btuian except for roscella, ziyan, eein and me of course. its hard meh. why ppl here dun want to blog? blogging is fun, trust me. you dun have to blog everyday, just keep a blog and make it your companion. err o.k now i understand, im always talking about myself only. haha sorry guys.

herm its raining heavily! aaa i want to meet fareez today but it seems i cant make it ;( miss him~

monday blues

yay i woke up late again. OMG. what happened to me? hehe. sukati saya la. i already reminded my mom to wake me up before she off to work, and she did it anyway. however, as usual, i continued sleeping ;p and i woke up at 10 a.m sharp~ ahahaha. well done!

i dont have any plan today. maybe go out with my friends. or maybe stay at home watching tv. this week i need to clean this house from upstair to the kitchen, err the toilet as well i guess since my aunt will come to bintulu, attend a wedding. i dont know whose wedding it is. err maybe my relative too. naa its not my problem anyway. haha. my mom will be working 2 weeks more, and then she take leave and retired soon. yeah. i hv friend. haha. err cant wait for kl trip AGAIN. hihi. my brother promises me to bring me to genting. if not genting, just bring me to eye on msia would be fine actually, or maybe the new shopping mall. since anis cant make it last time, so i am looking forward to meet her this time. haha. thnx to my mom, she booked the ticket until monday so i hv time to meet her on sunday. hebat betol mak saya kan? ;p

errr hey lets change the layout again. hehe this would be fun. huhu. lets start layout hunting! byebye!

today is friday, date lm blog tok salah coz nya dah ngekngok kdk tuan nya jwk xP

ive been tagged again~huhu. drpd kita borak2 kosong jum la molah tag toh wpun aku rasa xda pa2 nk berfaedah nk aku dapat =D

1a. I love to eat :
-chesse cake
-chocolate daim
-ice-cream perisa yam
-popia haha sowt

1b. I hate to eat :
-makanan yg xnyaman la!

2a. I love to go:
-shopping
-ronggey2 ke mana2 jk asl bejalan2
-g melancong
-sekolah! hihi xda keja. miss school damn much hukhuk~

2b. I hate to go :
-jamban awam yuck yuck~
-tempat nk byk org indon rah cia~indon nk suka melepak2 ya..nyemak~

3a. I love it when :
-org sayang aku gilak2
-org nk aku xsuka ya ubah pangey nya
-duit aku byk
-aku rasa hepy gilak2!

3b.I hate it when:
-org gago hal aku..chit!
-geng kdrk mlh hal ngn aku
-xda duit!
-xda benda mk polah!
-boredom!

4a. I love to see:
-org2 yg gembira
-kejayaan org2 yg aku sayang
-org2 yg aku syg dpn mata

4b. I hate to see:
-pencemaran udara serta mata
-org2 yg tah pa2 rasa kdk kck tp?
-org2 yg eksen2 bait tp sbnrnya?

5a. I love to hear:
-lagu2 nk menenteramkan jiwa
-lagu2 yg bley mlh kita asa mok menari
-org2 klaka benda nk besh2 n bfaedah

5b. I hate to hear:
-org menyumpah xtentu hala
-org kelayi
-org ngerepak2 jak2

the tags goes to............

cpa2 jak la~ ;p


haa..rasa kdk byk gk ku mk nkh p yala, otak xpt berjalan dgn pantas.jd slow da tok.hahaha.

ermmm.. sblm terlambat...

HEPY BIRTHDAY TO ESTHER!!! SWEET 18 YAH..

bday nya 19jan~ herm. pa date rah blog tok lambat? rah dunia nie nya ya? hish leceh betol~

happy wednesday ( what date is today? eerr?)

naa..i woke up late, AGAIN. uu its usual especially for ppl like me. who does not hv anything to do aite? hehe. i woke up at 10.am today. actually its ealier but i continue my sleep again. ther called me at 8 a.m, asking about the kfc thingy. then i continued sleeping. hihi. last night i slept early bah. hish. it can be categorized as early because most of school leaver like me would spent their whole night watching tv, talking on the phone as well as chatting online. isk isk. kan kan?

dunno wht happened to me lately. im being so emotional.hikhik. i betrayed my bf. its nothing actually. i only lied to him. i dun mean it though. i NEED to lied him. urm. its my fault. na..stupid me~

today, im going to town. jalan2 crk keja ;p

emm i heard that jasmine got offer from utp. naa..she did apply for it and attended that educamp thingy. congrats to her and best of luck there!

urmm..

i wonder, would there be anyone or someone reading my post? hakhak. suspicious.

love in the air

fareez and i got 'perang' last weekend. ehe. nah its settled already. herm. i love him. no matter what happened. im felt so guilty.its my fault. im sorry..

aa i need job. i tried kfc and wish me luck keyh.

dun hv idea. na.

IM BORED.

ENUFF ;P

suddenly

i miss my frens! hehe i miss school days..uh i just miss old times..aaa..miss my class, my teachers! all la..hehe..

&& SELAMAT MENYAMBUT MAAL HIJRAH 1429

its new year! yay~ the TRUE new year. hehe. oww && i just like this.hehe.

nice! ;p

utp requirements

FOUNDATION
Foundation (Engineering) (1 year)

Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) or its equivalent with credit in Bahasa Malaysia
Applicant must obtain at least grade 4B in the following subjects :

-English
-Mathematics
-Additional Mathematics
-Physics-Chemistry

The total units* of those subjects (excluding Bahasa Malaysia) must not be more than 18 units

Foundation (Technology) (1 Year)

Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) or its equivalent with credit in Bahasa Malaysia
Applicant must obtain at least grade 4B in the following subjects :

-English
-Mathematics
-Three (3) other relevant subjects (excluding language related subject) such as Additional Mathematics, Physics, Chemistry, Geography, Accounting, History, Economics, Commerce, General Science and etc

The total units* of those subjects (excluding Bahasa Malaysia) must not be more than 18 units
*Unit calculation: 1A = 1 unit, 2 A = 2 unit, 3B = 3 unit, 4B = 4 unit, 5C = 5 unit, 6C = 6 unit, 7D =, 8E=8 unit, 9G = 9 unit



owww..look!!look!1 its tough right? ngaaa..AT LEAST 4B..ok let me see...BM? naa..at least i got A2..ok pass...English? urm..i target A1, but i never got A1..my teacher cabar me to get A1 though...haha..i hope not less than A2...ok pass...math? naaa no need to worry much...add math? uuuuuu...i hope to get A1 too...phy? oww..let me see...if im not mistaken, the question was ok...not dat hard...not like what we owes say, " pa tokkkk...nie da blaja tokk.."..erm ok...chem? im aim for A1, of coz..coz it was what i aim for...engineering is my future...not medical..hurmm..so? yeh mari kita berdoa ;p

oww..if im not mistaken...utp only hv foundation programme for spm leaver..so? ;p

aku rasa la...

kerana ketulahan result kita bley hancor ;p i guess so. bak kata org la nak, pa nama nya tek, restu? ha ya la penting. even ko tulah ngn cegu but u got good result dats not mean ur result is good. ada ari ko knk klk. so watch out~ sng cta, ebo la ngumpat, tulah ngn cegu ow? ;p

aritok aku anta abg aku g apot. he's fly back to k.l for the last time.nya final sem so, nya balit lak, aku g? owh yeh.mekorg g sama2 ;p n i met shirley, cindy, ting yan yan.oww gosh.they are awsome! saknya g kl together, cuti2 malaysia!!aaa...jeles nya ;p n there were so many ppl, org balit suma i guess. and me? still wondering around what the heck im doing now, cam org xda hala tuju. cewah! hehe. relex maa..saya tgh crk keja ini ;p

pejam celik pejam celik lak march dah. march 2008 will bring much more memories for me i guess ;p i hope its the good one.AMIN.results and my bday. and i hope its a good bday~

ketentuan

Tak semudah kau sangka
Melepaskan kau pergi
Hati yang meronta, hampa kecewa
ku tekad sembunyikannya dari pandanganmu

Ku rela begini
Berakhirnya di sini
Dari bersamamu terus berpura
Setelah cinta tiada lagi di hatimu

Chorus

Ku hapuskan airmata dari mengiringi
Kesengsaraan mengharung perpisahan ini
Ku pujuk jiwa nestapa
Pendamkanlah duka
Pasrah pada lara ketentuan ini

Tak semudah kau rasa
Melepaskan kau pergi
Hati yang terluka dikunjung jua
Kerinduan yang tidak tertanggung terhadapmu

*Bridge

Sesungguhnya
Ku tahu betapa sukar untukku
Menempuh hidup
Walau sehari tanpamu
Ku terseksa

****this is a song o.k. nothing related to me.i just love it ;)

owwww...its new year!

im sowe for the silence.wakakaka.im so lazy to blog and my monitor was broken yesterday.and i like, what!??!? duhh without this one and only computer i cant live! argh. but then, we, my brother and I persuade my mom and willing to pay for it( my money gone!).and we bought THIS last night ;p thnx God.

this week, im looking for part-time job and yet i dun find any suitable job for me.actually, im not willing to be a sales assistant..why? coz i cant talk.and will not get along well with ppl. (ya, i know im being negatively thinking here) no one will want to buy what i promote.and yet, the company will certainly dun like me.huh.i dun want to be humiliate by myself. dun want!

urm.yesterday, we went for an outing.aa i dun really expect that, azmi and eein will bring along their gf n bf. i just like what?! u never tell me la! if i know it early, i know thet i am not going with them.why? its better for me to sleep on my bed ;p actually, i want to hand in my application at kfc medan.somehow they change my plan. i had to follow them first. i told them, i can go there by my own. but they, who try hard to be caring la tek kan, ask me to hand it later and follow them to the one and only cinema where i loss my RM9 just to watch alien vs predator 2. huh. i like the movie but im not sending the form yet ;( somehow, i loss my keinginan to work they.huwa.. im jobless right now. looking for job killing me. its not that easy. i already applied at new world but until now, no GOOD response. hurm.

schools start yesterday too, where i hv to go out without him :( duh. i miss school so much! herm. and yeah.last night i recall back all my memories last year. and it hurts me a lot.shit~

i remember about the ppl who talk back about me and also my own true-bestest fren la konok tek, who rebell me, stab my back.and i remember about the kem remaja bestari, the awful camp ever in my life.and i remember all the students. i dun know why i still remember them! i remember all!! i know i promised to forget it, but it stucks in my mind firmly.no one can help me to forget it.they all s***

and i will never forget 2007, the worst year ever for me ;p spm&&the ppl.

im looking for anyone who want my books.all my books,textbooks and revision books. im only sell it in low price. i maybe cut the price down to 70% from the actual price. anyone interested? and im looking to anyone want me to teach him/her anything.from BM to PJK i will ;p

&& hepy new year guys :) im lookinh forward to my new new new new life ;p