polyoxybenzylmethylenglycolanhydride

such chemical compound exist! 

or the short name is bakelite :D

what is bakelite? the first ever plastic on earth. inexpensive, nonflammable, versatile.

*trying to memorise it

hmmm.

o.O

i slept as soon as i reached my room. kedak tumbang jak rupa aku -.-

truly i'm not that sleepy but i think my brain can't absorb anymore facts for awhile. 

letak tepi segala ethics dalam kepala *bukan buang jaoh2 sbb ethics is something that we need in our life, forever!

proceed with polymer. yes, i love this subject. like it much. but it's hard. don't deny this. it's really hard. -.-

hard hard hard.. but it is possible. just...hafal. then i'll survive!

fighting juju! XD

*being positive. pheww~

bila dah biasa sorang, memang pelik bila sik sorang. eh? p betol lah. hmmm. biarlah aku sorang jak sampe abis kat uia tok supaya aku sik tiba2 tekejut bila sik sorang. eh? maksud aku sorang ya kedak sorang lahhh. kesine2 sorang. makan kedirik. nang la makan kedirik ooo hahah. normal jak ya aku rasa. tp...normal ka mun sampe kelua pun kedirik? hmmm. tiba2 rasa sik normal. mun orang diat aku mesti orang rasa kesian *kali la* haha sbb aku kadang2 kesian juak tga dirik kedirik -.- ada orang mok teman cuma aku yang sikmok. hmmm. ntah..benda boleh polah dikpun k pa mbak org nak? betol ka? ka salah? hmmm. apa aku tok tiba2 jak -.-

tp...

aku salu rasa aku forever aloner sbb sorg sorg kwn tinggalkan aku sorg sorg kat ctok :(

tp kali aku kuat and dah biasa ooo yala aku sikda la rasa down gilak cuma sedih sikit jak.

takut...

bila tiba2 ada masalah besar and siktauk mok agak sapa. 

truly i lost the shoulder i can cry on :(

aihhhhhhhhh juju tacing indah burok alu upa >.<

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

sorg classmate dah tunang. tahniah :D semoga sampe ke jinjang pelamin! jinjang? btol ka ya? -.-

kawen la cepat2 sblm grade ok. sng aku g kenduri tokrg. ngeeee. 

aihhh melalut indah. aaaaaaaaaaaaa. 

apal apal apal!!

>.<

ngebai~~~

till then~

p/s: hari hari ingat. hari hari doa. hari hari mintak petunjuk. hari hari pdh apa ada dalam hati. semoga Allah permudahkan semuanya :)

i'm cool

i'm cool

although the weather really killing me -.-

kejap ujan kejap panas

kejap demam kejap sehat

but still

i'm cool

well...i'm cool :)

although my midterm will only start tomorrow

the 1st paper 

and will only finish within next 2 or 3 weeks

i'm cool lahhh

bila org lain dah habis midterm

and aku baruk mok start

alah cool bebeh cool

org lain dah boleh plan untuk final but i can't because i just started

eh i'm cool cool cool :)

i'm cool...

presentation bakal berderet

eh cool bebeh~

when other member ask when we can proceed the discussion

and i just can't say anything because of the unfinished midterm 

i'm cool...but them? -.-

eh i'm cool! 

i'm cool...

bila jumpa kawan kelas kawan lab and semua tanya

"how was your raya"

"sambut kat mana weh"

eh i'm cool lahhh

it just that...

the questions were....a bit annoying -.-

tauk2 aku xbalit gago juak nak tanyak -.-

soalan yg sememangnya ada jawapan. skema jawapan yg telah siap aku polah sblm cuti start gik -.-

ok. maybe they just want to make a conversation...hmm...

eh i'm cool!

cool!

cool!

cool!

yeahhhh~!

but truly...

i do miss home :(

jeles oi dgr cerita raya ktkorg wpun aku rasa bnda ya normal jak pun. aku rasa mun aku beraya agik meriah. tp...

apala yg sama nak dgn pagi raya makan mcd compare dgn pagi raya makan masakan rumah? mak masak? 

aiguuuuuu -.-

jeles indah. pa ka reti.

at least...aku dpt g genting. neyyyyyy. 

ada jwk kawan neman raya. neman cuti. wpun mmg xsama dgn family kedirik. hmmm.

apa ka -.- tetiba jak.

boleh sik mok tga muvi cgek? kepak ngapal kepak baca kepak kepak kepak o.O

arghh sikboleh. study jujuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! >.<

mak madah studyyyyyyyyyyy. semua padah studyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! eboh main2!!!!! kan dah janji kan?  

ohhoiiii -.-

ngebai~ngebai~ngebai~

till then~

p/s: jodoh maut semua ditgn Tuhan. kita sikpat mok polah apa2 melainkan berdoa. kan? 

p/s/s: it's only youuuuuu only youuuu only youuuu *mood blagu. eboh jakla lirik lagu masok ketas jawapan aku esok -.-

p/s/s/s: aku demam. aku sakit gigi. gi dental rami org. ingus sik pande berenti. susah tido sbb aku amik caffein pagi2. mun sik amik ngantok. mun amik sikpat tdo. masalah nar juak -.- apa la aku pelu polah tok? makkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!! -.-

ended.

yeah my midbreak already ended. no more jalan2.
struggle for other 2nd half of the semester.
promise :)

yes. i had so much fun!
we go genting at last!
weeee~

unexpectedly but it's truly happened.
yayyy~ :)

awl2 cuti dgn pupu
then try utk settle kan keja tp nampak gayanya sedikit kecundang -.-
not 100% done but nearly done. kihkih.
rabu jumpa kema. sunway kami dtg. last minute plan sbb salah masok simpang subang instead of bangsar -.-
then jumpa noong~~~

the next day sambong jalan.
amik my driver. then we went jalan2 again.
sine ooo? -.-
ohooo ikea! pasya ou! ohhoiii dasyat kan -.-

pasya anta mamak noong balit nobel. then anta kema. then we went carik makan2 dalam ujan lebat -.-
then balit uia again.
pengsan lah yg pasti -.-

then....*recall~
raya oi raya -.-
rasa dah cita kan. haha ulang balit duhal cita aku tok. cisss -.-

raya makan mcd. sadis ooo -.-
ya pun ssh alu mok dcide mula2.
then bli tiket genting. balit uia gik. tgu abis smyg jemat.
amik sega kt selayang.
then carik domino sampe midvalley -.-
domino=2nd menu raya juju n izz. sega dah kenyang makan rendang tsk tsk -.-
then lost way. agagagaga.
raon2 kl buang minyak.
snap2 gamba. g klcc tgk lampu menari2.
nang kdk tourist lahh -.-

pasya balit gik uia.
dah sampe bilit ramzi decide gi danau.
keluar balit -.-
hahahhaha~

then..
sabtu genting! oyeah!
mok cita byk gilak! yg pasti bjaya main smua bnda yang extreme
weeee~
sukaaaaaa~
best gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! speechless~

byk gila moments best2 >.<

and today...
anta izz balit tbs, balit bp.
drive sega balit selayang, lom mok balit bp. kihkih.
sesat mcm biasa.
sik sah mun aku drive xsesat. haha
mun izz drive xjwk sesat melainkan aku yg menyesatkan jalan ya -.-
hmmmmm.
saya mmg bkn driver tegar~
and honestly....
pencen lok aku drive keta sem tok.
siyes kepak -.-

sampe uia around 420. cun2 asar.

and here i am now

alone again -.-

dgr lagu lonely jadk dri tadik. tsk tsk~

sadis nya~

but life must go on!

*ndak alah2. kaka over, klk tacing sorg2 -.-

sikbleh sikbleh. byk keja tok. exam nunggu. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

start polah apa yg patut jujuuuuu >.<

k ya jak.

hmmm.

rinduuuuuuuu semuaaaa :(

bila jumpa agik? aaaa taun depan -.- kfine sabar menunggu. kejap jak ya~

nasib ada ktkorg. mun x, mmg....aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...ari2 ujan lebat kali -.-

hmmmm. rindu nya :(

dah2.

kbai~

till then

p/s: thank you for all the moments :) love u guys~

p/s/s: gamba ngare2. instgram ada, fb ada ;)

aidiladha '12

yay!

sob sob -.-

a bit feelingless. 

hewhewhew~

last year raya dekat ikea. with pupu and umu. tgk wyg siappp.

last 2 years kat umah sbb memang dah cuti sem.

last 3 years dekat semenyih rasanya dgn family tachot ya pun skjp jak tp ok la rasa kat umah juak.

last 4 years paling pathetic kan? haha. dah bangun tghari. sik igt alu raya. esok ari terus main kat ts. abis cuti demam sakit2 badan. kihkih.

how about this year? ngeee o.O 

abis dipusin ku kl seminggu tok. rasa boring alu dah drebing. tetiba rindu nait tren. apaka -.-

drebar sik bergaji dah sampe so sila take over. kaki saya sudah mahu putus *alasan nang macam2 -.-*

tem mandik dengar takbir raya. *ujan rintis rintis* tang kuat alu juak bunyi takbir ya -.-

btw, aku sikla sorang2 kat ctok. level tok tetiba ada banyak foreigner o.O dari sine ndak ka dtg. slalu sikda -.-

ok la juak walaupun mula2 aku tkejut tga cdak tkejut tga aku. paham ka? -.-

mesti cdk eran...

why this malaysian didn't go home?

gahhhh..

itsokey itsokeyyy

izz dh sampe. dh amik aleh stereng keta kihkih. dah puas jln ngn kemaaa. mkn spuas atii. kejap kejap jmpa noong and family XD lusak jmpa gik.  so..sik la loner gilak pun kan XD

esok gi amik sega raga. yeahhhhh~ btambah gik meriah hari2 ku.

lusak genting! *mun sikda halangan disaat2 akhir lah kihkih*

well

no one will leave me alone

i know that :)

tido lokkkk. kepakkkk. fluuu sik bait2 -.- demam kebah sikit. palak penin skit. sooooo selemet melemmmmmmm!!!!!!!!! :)

salam aidiladha semua :)

sanak saudara rakan taulan dimana jua anda berada. ececece ucapan ya juju malas ku -.-

to my family...

apa la erti raya bila duak orang penyeri rumah ya sikda nak? kikiki :)

miss u guys. selamat ari raya makkkk!!! boh masak byk2 xda org k ngabis ya kelakkkk XD 

berik cdk bulat jak makannnnnnn. 

tsk tsk. mun crita masok ke family2 tok tacing indah aku -.-

*the reason why i didn't call home yet -.-

kompom ribut petir aku kelak. udah juak kl tok ujan lebat mok mampus tek *ayat ya dramatik alu jak ooo*

eh bkn aku dah padah slmt malam ka tek? -.-

kbai!

till then~

:)

p/s: thank you :)

she is me

i am okey

i am okey

i am okey

i am okey

i am going to be fineeeee :)

ndt check

ethics check

seminar half check

polymer not yet

qc not yet

metallurgy not yet

-.-

prioritize the one with midterm exam next week

and the one which dateline is on next monday

so...

i'm left with polymer and seminar

phewww~

seminar oh seminar

why aaa i have to do so many things for this 1 credit hour subject? 

macam polah kerja 3 credit jak -.-

i even have to go to the library for you

erhh

*ngerepak ngerepak*

i can't do memorising thingy now since my head is still spinning o.O

so

masa untuk tidur

gudnite!

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz~

p/s: can't wait for genting. so...have to get well very soon~ gahhhh >.<

p/s/s: all alone but i'm okey :)

hengs

dun think u're cool enuf if u can drive 110km/h on the road but u never manage to park the car properly.

aku la ya -.-

hmmmm.

i can't proceed my project since my friend didn't do her part YET.

and...

i'm clueless -.-

apa mok polah tok ooo -.-

nyew nyew

*cita ulangan*

prangei pelik aku tp benar tp rasanya tok normal jak (ya description ok) akan dtg menerjah sukatinya jak.

bila tiba2 aku rasa..."eh...balit jakla ooo?"

aku cek la tiket. 

and...this what i got yesterday O.o

no more seat today! daebak~~

oh air asia eboh pdh la. bagus aku gi korea -.-

tp...tok normal la sbnrnya. mun dah bli last minit gia la harga nya. hew hew hew~

eh eh. aku sik balit pun. dah muhasabah dirik puas2 marek. diat kipas pusing2. diat siling. diat lantei. diat lua penjan. and aku rasa...i can survive this! yeah bebeh yeah!

aku ada sebab munasabah knk aku sikmok stay uia sbnrnya. alone. sebab ya macam agak sensitif la mun pdh kt ctok. yang pasti sbb nya...mmg munasabah lahhh...berkaitan dgn keselamatan juak la. hmmmm. 

just hoping nothing will happen and i know Allah will protect me, and my other friends who didn't go home this break, insyaAllah.

kwn aku pdh gtok...

"zu dudok dlm bilik je jgn keluar2"

o.O

gila apa -.- mok kemeh gine? k tampoi? hahahahah!

aku untung la sbb toilet pa suma dkt bilit. ngeee. cuma...i stay at 3rd floor which is kinda....hmmmm o.O

and byk juak keja plu disiapkan so...break a leg!

dah jumpa supervisor seminar tek. best! bait aluuu! from indonesia. xmok ckp melayu tp bila nya tkeluar bhsa indon nya aku rasa cam tga cita indon kt umah~ and...nya ada tv lcd ntah brapa inci bsr gila kat bilitnya O.o *ok xda knk mengenak -.-

then g tutor polymer. dpt 1st kuiz n 1st esaimen. ok-ok la. aku bjaya tambah 11% dr markah asl. kihkihkih.

and jadual final dah keluar! oke preliminary only. so far ok sikda clash. and my first paper will be on the dec 29th. last paper on jan 12th. so rasanya aku bleh balit lah 13 ya...*tgh cek tiket juak tok* walaupun paper ethics and qc bderet -.- better la dri sama hari. hew hew hew.

ok. aku rasa aku dh byk merapu ritok -.-

since i'm only talking to myself today. and i know this will continue along the hols. gahhhh~ 

disadvantage of staying all alone. mun sik gila, sot aku -.-

got to go

till then!

:)

p/s: everything will be alright, right? :)

p/s/s: again, i forgot about the dental -.- aiguu!

hew hew

unofficial midbreak start today

*maka esok ada kelas hew hew hew

will stop memorise things for a while. my head might burst if i continue it -.-

well

apa oo? -.-

last weekend spent masa ngn family jak. pagi selasa bruk balit uia. ngiahaha. missed only 2 classes on monday since the other 2 were cancelled. ngiahaha.

rabu ada 2 kuiz tapi jadi 3. sikpa sikpa i still can survive menggoreng. and just now had 2nd quiz for polymer. 

and now...

tgh tunggu abang2 dkt luar ya abis molah kerja nya so that i can go out to the washroom -.- haihhhh. mun sik stop2 dlm masa sejam gik nang aku nyesah baju betudung la kaktok >.<

bulak padah aku sikmok pulang eh -.- mak dah offer pulang tp bila ingat exam melobor pas cuti mmg luruh hatiku -.- plus dah ada plan dgn geng so hmmm. see u next year lah bintulu -.- 

 

gago juak aku ngecek tiket tek. tiket mas rm1560 to n fro O.o ya pun knk balit ari minggu sbb ari sabtu pun tiket dah SOLD OUT. hoooo dasyat O.o air asia around rm500. hmmm mahal la juak -.-

hmmm. bertapa lah aku kat uia tok sampe minggu depan. hukhuk. mmg akan jadi sgt scary. hmmm. but it's okey. everything will be alright. He will protect me. i know that. yeahhh~

all my midterm is after the break. yeah this is not good. mun aku main2 cuti tok, main2 juak la midterm aku klk -.- plus semua project pun dah hampir2 mok due. ohmenggg. cepatnya masa blalu -.- 

it's ok. it's going to be OKEYYYY. positive positive~~

so, start with room cleaning i guess. yeahhh~

till then~

:)

p/s: gila homesick. aku nang sikpat diat org pulang cuti tok. meleleh aik mata. meleleh? -.- agik merembes keluar aik mata bila orang tyk "ko balik bile" nang xpaham2 org ya aku tok bkn org lepeh nak -.- 

p/s/s: lupak mok singgah dental tadik. oi gigi aku belubang O.o sakit woo huwaa~

rain

Hujan lebat ku redah
demi family tcinta

kelas isnin ku eskep
demi family tcinta

T.T

T.T

Sgt annoying bila kita try mok focus tp focus hilang sbb gago on9. Tp gik annoying bila idong xbenti mngeluarkan cecair. Ergh >.<

Hope for a better week.
InsyaAllah..

...

i always post something and hope something will happen

but

i will delete it as soon as i realize

there is no chance that thing to happen

so

goodnite :)

...

i always be there whenever anyone needs me
i guess
but it didn't goes well to me i think
again
yes this is the test i have to bear with
i receive it with open arm
no sigh.
will not give up.
to always be there for anyone who needs me
although i seems nothing to anyone
invisible maybe
but
i'm still alive
very much alive here

i guess this is the consequences i have to take because i didn't follow what you guys told me to before
just because that it changes everything
much understood.

so
its okey
i'm going to be fine
i will

:)

although ppl took me for granted
you use me and i'll be the last person u turn to
much understood

if i lost everything or everyone in this world
i still have Him

yes.
i'm not going to give up!

just sometime i need time off too
i learn about anger in ethics class
and i understand that if i didn't let this anger out that means i'm a coward
and i'm not

so
let this feeling out so i'll feel better
and yes
this comes straight from my heart

berdiam lebih baik.
sangat baik.
aku nampak hikmah berdiam tok.
and sakit juak sbnrnya.
sangat sakit.

pastok aku tido
and aku tauk
bangun pagi esok aku akan rasa lega and tenang
and mungkin aku akan nyesal sikit

"kenak aku post benda mcm tok"

hahaha
and aku akan tunggu sapa2 untuk text aku and tanyak aku

hahahaha
lamak dah sik polah keja macam tok
i'm really in bad shape now i guess

gara2 pendam perasaan mungkin

and yes

i'm really tired

wish for a better day tomorrow
insyaAllah...

...

this happened when you keep yourself to yourself for too long

pathetic.

...

she is currently exceeding her patience limit.

but still

under control...

Ya Allah...berikan aku kekuatan serta kesabaran yang kuat...

:(

not end

Im not gonna give up
never!
I can do this
fuhhh..
:)