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aku xtauk la pahal mun sa stress jak asa mok ngerepak..dikpun..? ssh mk crk teman nok mok dgr apa aku mok ngerepak..well, i tend to be bit emotional then..dahya mun knk dgn org yg jenis xtahan mok dgr ngerepakan (??) they tend to keep quite and meng'iya'kan jak..without any suggestion or..nasihat? (gila vocab bi sudah cetek! parai~)

aku ada sorg yg leh dgr smua apa yg aku mk ckp xkesa la tension ka epy ka sedih ka..tp..smpe bla mok bgantung dgn nok sorg tok? kdg2 rasa serba slh bila the only person popped out my mind is him. bkn xigt nok lain tp..i rather tell him than anyone..rasa besh..tp still, trasa membebankan org..but then aku terigt kata2 sorang tok, selagik ko xpat idup dikpun ko mmg akn sntiasa sshkan org..yeah true..but it's so hard for ppl like me..yg xsuka sshkan org tp tpksa jwk sshkan org..mun bley everything aku sgup polah dikpun but who am i then? hak2..

since jd student main camp tok or maybe i shud say as undergraduate student? hak2..sa besar alu jak..kdg2 xsngka, rasa bok taun lepas abis spm :P oh smbung cta tgantung..hmm..i tend to do eveything by my own..i rather do it alone then have to wait for others..tp some of it i can't..i have to depend on others jwk especially when it comes to assigment..i wish i am a genius tp saya tidak :) i know my strenght wpun my future seems sangat samar2 kinek..ho2..

mok mdh aku mula sedar nektok, bley tahan la. sedar yg everything we do, dun ever say can't do it..bila hari ya aku mula give up dgn engin, aku mula pk mok carik hala tuju lain, ada 2 org penting dtg and berus aku abis2an..haha..kita perlu korbankan ssuatu yg kita suka demi kebaikan kita dikpun nak? and we must not say NO..pekakkan telinga dgn kata2 negatif org..huhu..yeah..i'm trying hard to change my perception about i donno wat but i'm really2 trying hard to change, anything that must change :)

bila pk balit 4taun jak gk, tenang asa jiwa wpun sbnrnya mmg kepak mok tgu. well, just chill and relax la nak :) just aku takut masa xckp..utk aku abiskan semua and pulangkan semua apa yg aku 'pinjam' kt org2 yg spttnya..which is..sacrification...

hmm btw..i want to apologise to some of my frens..xtauk apa jd..or maybe kita masing2 bz nak so no time to give positive feedback to me..kmk paham..i just want to make eveything clear ok? juju syg tokrg aie..:)

i can be on myself..providing some encouragement from u..i really do :)

bah2 mupok lok..

till then!

p/s: kira scara rawak, 2mgu gk mok midsem..means..3 mgu gk mok balit..OMG! hak2..overrrr!

p/s/s: masa utk menjimat dan menjaga saham :)

p/s/s/s: i love u :)