sometimes..

i feel like spirited up, by MYSELF. haha. tah tiba2 masa final f.ain i was like..yeah just go through it for the next four years juju. it's nothing. see, u can be on your own for this past a month although u did mess up other life too. haha. pity them huh. hm. although i am still waiting for it. 6nov will tell me which one is my path. i've done with all of it. i can pass this semester hopefully. all the assignments were done well, plus that not-so-perfectly project i did just in one night and the stories behind it *shut up* with carry marks like that, IDC anymore. i can PASS but not with flying colours. not my fault. OK OK BLAME ME. *sigh* but at least i passed right? it's NOT EASY to pass engin stuffs HERE. noted it. HERE. SHUT UP. i'm not trying to compare but ut's true. bila org lain dah start mok banding2 kan than why on earth i shud shut up? u guys shud be here and feel it. SGT SERONOK ok. haha. i'm not lying. it's not that bad though i said i really HATE being here before. when ppl keep on telling me, dun go dun go because it's ur destiny to be here, who are you to plan my future? HAHA. but then i realised, yeah it's not THAT BAD. at least i feel secure here although not all the time. at least i have a fren to accompany me whenever i need her (well i know she's trying to persuade me though :P)

oh and i have klcc here, ts, midvalley jgn dilupa, oh oh sogo, jln tar..ok saya xdeny semua ini merupakan semangat saya sekarang. borink2 kluar. sng cta. hahahahaha. duit? so far ok. xjuak ikat perut ctok. wpun kdg2 pk jwk, duit mak bapak dibazir gia2 jak. apa ko polah? yala tek. perlu ada smgt kdktok. hahahaha. oh lupak. GENTING just nearby u know. hahaha. aduh. sgt2 materialistik tiba2...maaf~ but it's true. smgt aku merupakan semua ya. walaupun ada la cgek smgt tok tp smgt tok cam jauh jak. xpat dipaksa2 utk dtg. xpa la xkesa. bukan nya mok kawen kinek oi. ndak ku maok~ haha.

what i've done so far this semester? good? better? BEST? overall i can say, i did WELL enough as an engineering student whom lose her hope for awhile..haha..

calculus? i got only half of it. LAUGH LAUGH I DONT CARE. haha. most of my classmates got half. so? saya normal la kan. it's not i want to be like them, yeah at least I AM WITH EM la nak. pass with flying colors in calculus 1 is POSSIBLE if and only if i CHOOSE other lecturer. ok bukan masa utk salahkan mereka sbb they just did their work. yeah true. they follow the rules. but others? haha biar la. at least aku dapat apa yg sepatutnya aku dpt wpun ikut flow yg sbnr, aku bley dpt lagi tgi. just because of my only ONE WRONG ANSWER yeah my fault T.T sbb salah tekan calculator. i got ZERO for the whole part. how cool is that? HAHA. nicely done with calculus. NEXT!

statics? blame me sbb balit aher. haha. ebo blame raya ok. raya xsalah. aku yg salah. well, BLAME ME. it's ok. coz aku bsyuko dgn apa yg aku dapat. sgt2 setimpal dgn apa yg diusahakan :) and jujur ikhlas dr hati, i can't stand with the subject. harap pass kali tok. pass for dynamics next sem and that's it. no more imagining things yada yada calculating? ok TERLUPA YANG HERE WE HAVE 5 maths? T.T and i will never involve myself in mechanical anymore. DONE with it. i'm not a good mechanical girl. done done!

e.c? for short. electric circuits for long. i like it coz my solution were always correct although i never know what i'm doing. haha. but yeah, i'm done with it. oppsss NO. still have electronics next sem T.T and with the same lecturer? shoot me! biar la. everything pun i go through by myself nak so it's doesn't make sense pun if aku tuka lecturer. hmmm. gah. i'm not an excellent student in electronic, CIE, and yada yada tah xigt nama course ya T.T

ungs? i'm so sorry to my lecturer coz i always skipped ur class T.T it's not i dun like it (yeh for true i never understand what was he talked about T.T so i better went to my room and settled my other works which was very very rude. huhu~ yobi. dah ku xphm pa diklaka nya? aduh sian nya T.T sorry sir~

drawing~the worst subject ever. haha. no comment. takut tiba2 mnyumpah seranah. DONE! final within a week. 15% more to grab. at least i got enuf carry mark to save me from repeating. yeah.

hmm. mun la aku stay. yeah. MUN LA NAK. i will not go home for at least once per semester. i want to involve myself in the taaruf week. at least, i can socialize. IF AND ONLY IF aku tahan la xpulang umah nak. gahhh. tp, MUST TAHAN coz bukan ya kan janji aku dolok? masok main campus, pulang umah jarang. lain la mun tiket bena2 murah. hmmm. gkpun..i have no one to spend my days with except my family. they can come here and visit me anytime they want. friends? all busy. so, sama2 la kita busy. gik bagus camya sa nya. i can't always think of enjoying myself with em jak2 nak. hmm. tokrg? penah ka pk? asanya x kot. haha. since i'm the one whom always plan for something etc etc. huhu.

tah terasa merajuk dgn kwn2 kot. hahahaha. xda la. hmm. ok MAYBE. biar la.

everyone is busy preparing for final. i understand. me too. yeah. tp...u guys xda kredit ka mok call back or maybe at least....reply my comments? or at least..ask me..r u ok? *saya sgt selfish mungkin* biar la. haha.

pas post tok, i will get the feedback. and i'm the one whom will be blamed nak. xpa la. DAH BIASA :)

kadang2 xpat mok nyenang ati semua org sbb kita dikpun berolah. kdk aku. sbb ya kinek rasa malas alu mok deal dgn org. bukan apa, last2, aku jwk yg kenak salah. bkn aku xmok pgg tggjwb, bkn aku xmok socialise, tp last2 aku jwk knk nak? bila bcerita dgn org, CONFIRM aku yg salah. sbb mmg aku salah. hahaha. apa ku pdh tok?

tahla. ppl do change, including me. but not so fast. hmmm. see, i need a month to settle down. salah aku jwk? maybe yes, maybe no. tp most of YOU will say YES IT'S YOUR FAULTH. cuba la blaja independent nak? yeah. aku blaja la tok. learning never ends you know.

got to go!

till then~

p/s: bkn aku xpnh bsyuko masuk uia, tp, i lose all the hopes when ppl lose hope on me...

p/s/s: trying hard to fix the broken...remember that~