woot :)

terasa lega bila dah xda apa yang simpan. mmg betul org ckp, let it out. out. out. yeah :)

wpun mmg kenak ceramah bederet2 and xterasa pun suma ya pressure. lebih rela kenak ceramah dr kenak polah something yang..hmm..tidak dapat untuk diungkap...haha..

will settle everything bila i get my document from mama. hmm. so sory. salu dh sshkan semua :( i never make ppl hepy kan? tp bla pk2 balit, i'm still 20. blom gk 40. haha. apa ku ckp tok? hm hm.

boleh x aku ckp yg..aku mmg dh give up ( repeat it like million times this week) abissss knk ceramah agik bila org nok suka ceramah ya baca tok. hahahah. sorry babe~ tp siyes. i really2 can't make things better than this. tok jakla yg aku larat kinek. kinda pasrah. but not overall. i will still go on with all these till the end of it. i will :) 

ada kwn ckp, i'm totally change. yerp. aku kedirik rasa gia bah. xla aku tok xberperasaan smpe xrasa dirik kdirik dah lain. haha. please dun blame others. coz smua nya slh aku jwk. i can't handle myself properly...i fell down and kinda hard to get up, each time it struck me..bencik tp gne la mok polah..mun org phm la knk aku polah kdk tok..kan? but for sure mmg ssh org mok paham..sbb org xpnh tauk apa aku lalu :) well, it's kinda hard to tell others the truth when u urself think the truth is..suck~ haha. xperlu la bkk sejarah sbb past is past ( i remember this clearly) ada org ckp psl past. and about..black and white? haha. well, where r u now? if u read this, i think u shud cntact me coz aku rasa ko ble tlg aku sikit kot? haha. u have good words and wisdom than me. haha.

kdg2 aku pk, knkla aku dr dolok xpilih apa yg aku maok. tamak gilak? salu pk keupayaan dirik masa ya. konok tek mampu, masa ya la. last2? kecundang begolek2 tanpa henti. haha. i really dunno how to choose wisely. well, choosing is hardddd :) and i NEVER choose the right thing..and i will wait for the time to come. bak kata org, belom masa nya lagik bah :D

for the time being i will follow the flow. yerp. ayat tok lagik. wpun pada hakikatnya aku nang dh give up abis. tp apa la aku dpt nak mun aku give up n xpolah apa2? huhu.ney tauk dlm masa menunggu miracle ya terdetik hati utk x give up lagik? neyla kita tauk nak. wpun mmg aku mok alu miracle ya tjd.

utk lebih jelas, aku kinektok tgh berjuang utk masa depan. haha kinda weird? well, it's the reality. i try to fix my life to the better. mmg aku give up (tah bapa kali dh word tok aiyo) tp aku masih mampu merangkak. mungkin keputusan 2tahun lepas ya nang salah. sapa tauk kan? oppssss past is past :D hmm. i kinda can't force myself anymore. it is reaching the limit now. be noted, is reaching means it is now continuosly to the maximum extend which i can't describe it anymore (kdg2 tpk knk la xamik falsafah dr dolok? haha) aku xpat la madah susah susah susah jak2 nak sbb xda bnda senang pun. belajar nang susah. tp siyes aku mok pdh mmg susah smpe tahap yang xpat dijangka. bagi aku la. kira kdk i reached my limit. so, i make a decision to fix it. how? like THIS..:) just pray for my success..

sapa la tahan bila tension, sakit..tension, sakit? last2 sakit jiwa? no no no...

hmmm..

so, ya jakla. haha. help me ok? help me with ur words..advices...i dun mind being lectured though :P aku suka :D spya aku sedar nak? huhu :)

thanks again guys, love u till i don't know how much :)

till then~

p/s: met cha today and we chatted..lamak oo xtemu? :)

p/s/s: bkn aku xcuba untuk bangkit, aku cuba, cuba, cuba tanpa henti, tp?

p/s/s/s: ish last2 aku jadi writer jak. sng cita. hahahahaha :P