i'm in PAIN, do not disturb =.-

yowhhhhhhhh nang gila sakit la. feeling like killing myself now. throwing myself into the sea. gone. bye bye world.

ngeng aku owh? sakit pun bising. xsakit bising. semua bising. i hate myself coz being too emotional. aiyoh aiyoh.

do not ask why. i kill u if u ask me WHY. i am serious. SHUT UP. that wud be good enuf for me. oh i mean, i'm the one whom must KILL myself. coz being too..unpredictable? (i'm out of word coz i'm in PAIN)

i hate pms. argh.

hmm. epot, dun do this. we love u so much. remember that. aku tauk mesti ko trasa nak? homesick? mun aku pun aku mrajuk. ebo mrajuk lamak2 k? aku xpnde pujok org pot. lak xpasal2 aku nok mrajuk jwk. pelik ku tok. dh org lain mrajuk, aku indah nok mok mrajuk sama. bab ya suma org xtahan dgn aku. suma lari crk lain (kuar tajuk). aku xpnde pujok2 org tok. ng malang la spa dpt aku tok. hmmm. eh sik sik. ya bok jaik bunyi. bkn la malang, tp..haish..mun nya dpt terimak aku seadanya, xla nya sengsara. bnda kcik jk pun. hmm. mun ko ada ctok, pt la ku mbk g a+ ka tanjong ka. k k? mun ko majuk lamak2, sapa mok dga cta aku la?  borink ku klk oi. berperam jkla cita2 aku tok suma lak. uwa uwa. boh gtok k. aku dolok pun salu jk mrajuk ngn tokrg tp aku simpan jak. lamak2 xigt dah. no big deal. kita dh masing2 ada hala tuju masing2. xpat kdk dolok agik nak. raya lak jumpa gik. i'll make sure raya taun tok lebih happening dr taun lps. otey? :) i love u pot. and i love all of you...sik terluah dgn kata2..xpat bygkan xda ktkorg..~~gk2 cdk geng palak heng tok..aiyo..knkla kta rapat glk nektok? i'm too worry..klk masing2 dh pegi hala tuju masing2..ebo kta pecah gk~~ wuwu..dun want~ want it to remain forever~

mun lam blog pande la aku pdh gtok. dpn2 xla. well, xsemestinya kta luah dgn kata2 nak? dgn perbuatan pun dah ckp. tp still, org xpnh mok paham apa yg aku polah sbnrnya tulus ikhlas dr hati aku. org smua pdh aku main2. gara2 aku xpnde mok luahkan dgn kata2. sedih. apala guna mdh I LOVE U tp xtulus dr hati? tol x? (not refer to my besties la..phm2 jakla~~) p maybe mna..blom pande mok express all those feeling verbally means blom ready utk semua ya. am i right? huhu apa2 la oo~

tek mdh in pain tp byk gk ku ngerepak. HAHA.

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apakah aku s’lalu dihatinya
Aku disini menunggunya
Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Kalau aku masih tetap disini
Ku lewati semua yang terjadi

yet i still don't know what i want and what i waiting for......

& frankly speaking..i'm worry about my future..yet undecided? hmm. pressure from family. aku xsalahkan cdk. i'm the one n only hope remain. i can't let them down.....

and i need you to help me to lead my life..shoulder to cry on..hope to hold on..and heart..that i can care n love forever~~

till then babe~

p/s: i love my mum more than everything....no one can replace her in my heart~~