thanks babe :)

(mok tujukan dkt ikah, seha n poy..tp xda gamba kta 4..amik gamba tok jak..to umi..aku syg ko jwk oi boh eso..tok special kes :P)

thanks for everything u guys did with me today..besh oi..polah choc cake..marinate ayam..WOW! wpun xtauk pa2..tapuk jak semua sia..WAKAKAKA..nyaman jwk nak? :P (opsss kantoi..HAHA)

cuti saya sgt meriah dgn adanya mereka semua..geng2 palak heng..sayang tokrg alu2 aie..mena tok :)

now i realise..i have THEM to cheer me up..everyday..

cita pasal post smlm..alah biasa la emo x tentu pasal..spa xknl aku..HAHA...but..seriously..i'm really2 down yesterday..feeling like..hmm dunno la..surrounding seems so dull..life seems BLACK all the time..pathetic gila..sedih gila..mok nangis..klk org nganok aku congek..(tp ng dh terbukti jwk nak..) hish..rumet aku pdh mun sedih, NANGIS jakla..xpyh tahan2.mun rah cnun..brani la aku mok nangis..rumet aku tdo pun aku leh nangis depan laptop sorg2..HAHA kantoi ngn cha..hmm...tp..aku malu bah mok nangis..(eh sjk bila ka?) i mean..dpn org2 kat umah la..HAHA..bila last aku nangis dpn cdk? hmmm..mcm lamak alu jk dah...masa aku mtk kuar matrik kali nak? hmm..masa nenek aku ninggal aria..aku xnangis gilak..nangis dikpun jak..bkn aku xsedih..gne la nak? aku nangis bkn dpt nenek balit pun..:( dhya..aku tok bagei xda mslh mun dpn cdk..nang epy alu jak upa..ya ku mdh ku tok..hipokrit..juju bulak sbb juju xmok ktkorg sedih bah..riso..dhla aku tok problematic..dr dolok gk..hish..ssh mok cta suma balit..bagei rewind cta nok sama jk..idup yg pathetic..HAHA..

masalah apa? kawan? rasanya xda..geng suma bait..besties ada..gerek? aku xda gerek..ex? ya kali slh satu faktor nya. ex yg xphm bahasa melayu..patah lagik english..mejal..tp..xla glk..salu kejap jk..apa gk? hmm..ssh mok pdh~~~

tp..aku salu pegang kata2..xtauk sapa..think positive..yala..i'm trying HARD to be POSITIVE all the time..

ko susah kinek bah juju..kelak2 x la..KARMA..what goes around..comes around..hmm?

org pdh aku TABAH..sapa padah? 2 org pernah padah..aku la manusia paling TABAH cdk pernah jmpa..really? nana(geng mirc dr dajah6..smpe kinektok...) and tasha(rumet ksygn aku masa kt cenfos n harap smpe bila2...)..hmm..ktkorg pdh kmk TABAH..tp xtauk la sampe tahap ney KETABAHAN ya dpt tahan...tga smlm..leleh jwk nak..wpun blom smpe tahap TEROK mna2..baruk SIKIT...dah nangis..tabah ya ka? sikit2 nangis..HMMM...i'm wondering...salu doa..beriklah apa yg aku mok ya..maybe..blom masa nya gk nak? aku takut xsempat :(

tadik kaka2 dgn mak n abg..kua la cta tok...

ajan: mun kita makey batu bata gia molah pagar, xpayah cat gik owh
mamak: mun kawu keja, dpt la molah gia.
ajan: (speechless)
juju: eh tgu aku keja la!
mamak: 4taun gk? mun mamak agik ada.
juju: (speechless)

see? hmmm..

adoi spttnya post tok epy2 jak aie..

tuka2!!

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ahh..just mok pdh aku happy for the time being coz i hev THEM..that's all :) apa mok jd, jd la. aku bkn TUHAN mok ubah takdir nak? coz i believe in dream n fate..though sometime i'm not..coz i'm fragile..

fragile..tp aku kuat..kadang2 la..lemah mun self-esteem ya nang xda alu..tekih2 pun xda..and aku xdpt org tyk..r u ok? komfem nangis.. but i love it when u ask me that..wpun terharu tp suka..alahhh sng cita nangis TERHARU la bahh.. :)

i need U to love me, to care about me, to joke with me, to ask me whether i'm ok or not..that's all i need~

till then~

p/s: esok ada REHLAH at tg batu. i just can't wait for the day..:)
p/s/s: hold on to the HOPE, shud i or shudnt i?