emosi

oyeh bebeh. dgn ini saya isytiharkan esok rayaaa~ :D (emosi yg sntiasa tganggu..kesannya?kata2 yg xmasok akal laaaaa)

tidak2. ok serius2 :D harini adlh hari ke2 kt rumahhh. omg omg omg!!! kdg2 xsangka dah cmpe umah yow :D  mok cta apa jd spjg saya mghilang diri bbrp hari kah? perlukah? xbosan kah? lak jeles lak? kah2 :P

cta brief la ok. start hari jumaat...

juju yg bait hati ttpi sdikit ngegeh tok tidak tidur utk satu mlm. ok mungkin tipu sdikit. tdo kejap ada la. tp sng cta mmg kureng tidur. ok NORMAL la ya. maybe xcited? haha. utk pertama kali dlm sejarah, saya sgt2 bersemangat utk ke kelas drawing pagi jumaat!!!! sgt hairan. slalu nya kelas ya la aku paling malas mok g, kira hati setengah2 jk mok g. why? coz prof ya suka aim aku! marah aku skati2 nya jak (sgt hyperbola disini) sik sik. bkn la marah tp..well..aku la slh..nya ngerepak dpn, aku ngerepak jwk ditepi..bila dtyk soalan tauk molah muka takut..haih..tp sirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, i really2 dun understand wut u saidddddd. so, wut point utk aku dgr? mmg nya sgt besh, suka melawak2 tp kdg2 lwk nya xsmpe ke aku pun. aku salu tetak sbb geng sblh aku tetak(ng apa la) and nya sgt pemejallllll. he said he dun want 4 person in 1 grup. ok FINE SIR (maaf sgt emosi) aku, yes saya, juju, zuria zuryn!!! nok knk jd tukang jawab, tukang ckp n sgala2 nya. geram ok! why me? ok maybe sbb aku dok tepi skali. FINE. "where's ur form?" aku jwb, " err we sent it to you, you approved the title but u didnt approve our grup members, sir", nya jwb apa, mok tauk x??? " it;s mean i didnt approve ur grup! so find another 1 person NOW" ok shoot! dgn mok kuiz nya masa ya. apa u pk kami bley duplicate ka wahai encik cikgu drawing ece 1211? ok fine. polah kak kuiz. nang tension gila la masa ya. dhla aku tkejar2 masa jwk. haih. nang tahan sbr la masa ya. tp finally setel jwk semua ya. phew~

after kelas cad, which was direct after quiz, abis cun2 kol 1130, nang jln laju gila balit bilit, tuka bj smua n keluar terus. plan ada 2, either nait taxi or tren jak. since dpt taxi, aku nait taxi g putra, and decide nait tren jk all the way to bkt jalil. it took me around...1 n half hour jwk la. xtntu dlm tren gelisah takut lambat. sbr jak la. haha. last2 smpe ngam2. nang timing yg baik. haha. jmpa ngegeh2 smua. terubat rindu :P

so, 1st destination? sunway yow. oh btw, spjg 2hari stgh ya kmkorg ada driver. so thanks a lot to gg, bestfren si ngegeh sorg tok :P kmkorg tga wyg, bronggeng xtntu hala, then dh dkt mok sungkei bok bgaut nak balit. last2 sungkei lam keta jwk. hahaha. mlm ya, ngabas kwn si ngegeh tok dkt uitm. sesat la jwk. kah2. after ya..bkejar2an ke the curve coz dh janji dgn ain kt cia. balit uia mlm ya dgn seha. mbk nya overnight skali. so, done with our 1st night :)

saturday? plan tek mok gerak 930pg. last2 kol10 bok bgn. apa cer bai? hahahaha. kol 11 kdkya bok gerak kuar dr uia. nasib seha bait la kmkduak temu taxi dpn mahallah office. xplu la nya jln jaoh. igt tek mok nunjok jalan aku g kls. hahahaha. mekorg nek tren as usual, then smpe kl sentral bcarik loker nkh beg. too bad, suma full :( mekduak ngu kejap. dpt cgek loker nok singgit ya. muat la beg laptop ku cgek. then tgu kejap gk. xjwk ada. raon2 ku kejap coz teigt area nelson ya ada loker jwk, but a bit smaller. nasib muat beg seha sia. hahahha. my ngegeh n geng nya stuck dlm jem. so kmkduak ha direct to mid, mok bli brg pesanan. too bad agik, kde ya tutup ngek. sabar jak la. kepak bdedat lam tren, ngu tren pa suma ujong2 xda dpt pa2. hahaha. xpa2 dugaan. after ya si ngegeh mdh jmpa sogo trus. orite then. kmkduak mik ktm dr mid direct to bank negara. smpe terus yow. tp cita hal ktm tok ng cali. men roller coster free yow. hahahaha. nang bdedat abis. xplu mok pgg apa2. org len nahan kta. seha la ksian. hahahahahha. nasib xjaoh owh? :P n nasib mpuan suma. mun laki, nak free knk pelok. sepak terajang suma kua. haha. suka ktm dh molah policy coach wanita. keep up a good work (good alu la yaaa)

so, smpe sogo, cdkduak ya lom smpe gk. hahahahha. apa oleh disogo? sandle raya cgek. haha. cha, mek bli jwk sandle ya :P ngegeh x? hahahahahha. plan mekduak seha tek mk bebeli jeans. skali tga line bebaris byr nang pjg gla babeng, alu lemah jiwa. alu seha mdh eboh jak. hahaha. nang muntah tga org ramei di sia. hu2. last2 mekorg decide direct g bli brg lain jk. ho2. next? bazar tdg bawal. hahaha. sori la wahai ngegeh2 smua, jaoh tokrg bjln. ney mok molah, ya jak kde nok saya tauk bagus n murah. bebaloi2 :P 

dr sia mekorg direct to ts gk. plan mok ronda2 tga tmpt la. ada la org tok mok glk men rah cosmo. haha. next time orite? :) mekorg end up masok ice age. hahaha. malasssss ku mok cta hal tmpt tok. saya x rekomen glk la. gus tkrg smpn duit k mkn jak :P after that, plan mok sungkei kfc tp full house. and bley dktakan smua kde mkn standard kt cia full house. last2 bli slurpy jak, took a tren to kl sentral, sungkei rah sia jak. haha. lagik skali kmkorg sungkei scara tidak btul. but, i love it :)  bila la mok dpt moment2 gia gk? next year? insyaAllah :)

nexttttt? after sungkei, kmkorg ronda2. and had a midnight muvi :D sgt sronok. expandables besh gila. sya rekomen awk suma tga cta ya ok. hahaha. and moment2 ya ng xpat dilupak. once more, bila la mok dpt moment gia gk? hu3...ok juju shadap. haha. :) after muvi, mekorg direct g lcct. stay sia gk. we had sahur together :D wargh. bila mok dpt moment gia gk? huhu. ok i shud stop complaining. nak? haha.

so..yala kmkorg molah spjg mk tgu ak5144 terbangggg :)

(rasa cm bkn brief tp nang full story :P)

so, overall, nang hepy jwk tem ya. thanks sbb adakan saat2 mcm ya. xsngka bley jd kdkya. memorable abis yow. xpa, bkn slalu nak. will be missing that moment for sure. ok ok dah2. shaddap plishhhhhhhh! :P

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lately saya mmg sgt2 emosi. xtauk la koh apahal. pms mungkin. mun cek post2 b4 tok saya nang sntiasa emosi. and disbbkan ya, rasa mok molah special post pake org2 yg saya TERemosi ya. mintak maaf ok?

bak kata kwn bait saya, ko nang pelik juju. aku xtauk phl aku kdktok. SERIUS xtauk apahal. hahahaha. emosi agak melampau sejak masok main campus tok. i guess maybe pressure :( in fact, mmg stress. tp ssh mok bgk alasan kdktok sbb suma org pun stress. he's the one become the victim, makin stress sbb aku. bkn sengaja. serius, xkempang ati ku mok molah org kdkya. but then, i can't help it :( so that's why i asked u to help me to repair myself. hu2. so sorry ok? 

hmm. mok terus trg sgt2 ssh. but then. yes. i became like this scara tiba2. in 2 months, i felt sick for 3 times. demam 3 kali. stress yow. nang gila stress. leh jd hypertension. bahaya nak? haha. sejak ya la aku ng sntiasa pk nak balit jk. i lose all my strenght. xtauk cney tuju. yg aku tauk, aku mok balit and crk smgt ya dkt rumah. insyaAllah aku dpt. balit gk tok klk, mok sambung half of sem1 dgn lebih bsungguh2. wpun sgt2 ssh. i hv to struggle very hard. gila2 struggle. mok idup, xkn pnh sng bah. mun mok sng, ebo jak idup. kan? aim? rajin kan dirik g kelas, no more skip classesssss especially tutor. aduh. xpat tahan ku tgu kelas tutor ari jemat aieeeee. huk2. and do assignment smuaaaaaaaaa. ebo malas jujuuuuuuuuuu. aduh. siyes, i've gone tru very hard times within 2 months. rasa xsgup mok balit sbnrnya tp tpksa jwk nak. 4taun? nang lmk. sbr la oo..

bebalit cita emosi tek. hahahahhaa. hmmm. mun mok ekot kan aku la, nang b4 tok aku xpnh xemosi. haha. bak kata kwn bait aku gk nak, mun xemo, ya bkn juju la. haha. and sumone asked me to change. i accept it and try to do it, little by little ok? i promise :) sumone asked me again bout controlling myself..well..ssh skit kot..lain la dgn pertolongan..control apa? temper? agakkk ssh but i can try. no worries :) just want u to know, it's not i never try to change, i try very hard but i dun know why it's so hard till we can't imagine the hardness (nakpa ku ngerepak tok...) huhu...

i know u understand me, in fact, u understand me better than me myself :)

i know u want me to be strong, i want it badlyyyyyyyyyy..that's why i asked u to help me :)

i know u love me that strong, and me too :) and that's why i neva have doubt bout it :)

i remember the moment i want u badly but scared to put so much hope on it and at the end u're the one whom started it all :) and i don't want to be the one whom ruin it...i promise :) 

bila igt balit nak, nang cali. tp, yala hakikat :) i really sorry. tp kdg2 pk balit, mun xjd semua ya, i will never know wut is wrong with me :) i want u to spill it out so that i know what is wrong. i want u to be mad at me so that i will not be the one whom conquering the relationship. dun b too soft, sometimes u hev to be mad, hard to me. it's ok :) 

why i choose u? becoz i know u're different :) u can handle me with care, love me in different way. u make it different in everything :)

me? different? rasa nya juju biak nok biasa jak. i neva feel i'm special. wpun org salu ckp aku lain. xtauk la apa nok lain. haha. just..u have me, u get me, u owned me, make sure u safe me from everything..

juju..she neva know how to handle herself..neva know how to solve her own problems...neva know how to express her feeling verbally...neva know how to say no..neva know how to say i'm sorry BEFORE..haha..nampak la ada perubahan skit nak? :P aku dikpun xbrapa phm dirik aku...apatah lagik org lain...but him? surpisingly...hmmm..nang hebat!!!!!! hahaha...tga muka ngegeh nya lok? hahahahhahaha...bygkan...aku bok nk rasa nguap, lom nguap gk tok...udah knk tyk ngantuk ka? haihhhh..ala2 edward cullen gitu...hahaha ngutik eh~

byk2 org aku jmpa..nya tok sorg la dpt thn..ugut2 gney pun..thn jwk..marah2 jwk..takut...siyes...hehe :P that's why i love him :) sapa brani mrh aku b4 tok? ko pnh? sikkkkk. ko? sikkkkk. hahahahah. sorry la mok tga aku ngalah. neva. but now? pandey jwk aku takut oiii. haha. xsngka jwk...bgegar kaki tgn badan suma...hahhahaha...pandei jwk ku ngalah wpun leh dkira la brapa kali mun mk dicompare dgn pihak cgek gk..mun mrh dpn2 ya nang aku salute abisssssssssss. xpernah dipolah org dgn akuuuuu! hahahahhaa. adoh2. kin menggunung2 asa syg. aduh terjiwang. sorry :P i learnt my lesson now...hmm..yahhhhhhhh agik jwk ego ya..hahahahhaha...mok mdh yg aku mmg rasa bersalah sbnrnya...so sorry ok? :( xpernah mok pk prasaan org..mmg aku byk mslh tp knk xpnh pk pihak lain ooo..haih ssh ku tok...sori sori soriiiii!!! xsengajaaaa...siyes...kdg2 nak..bila dh TERpadah ya bok TERsedar...aduh..jaik nya aku :( tp...stillllllllllllllllllll ego yaaaa..xtauk cmney mok buang dh..ok asa nya dh dpt buang la :P so sori :( kdg2 bila start knk annoy ya...haih...terasa gilaaaaaa...xpattttt kdkya...i kenotttt...u must layan me...ngutik juju eh~~~~apa ngutik2? hahahahha..gangster nar aku...i mean,,kira cm...i cannot being abandon...(aih lack of vocab suda nie)..hahahah..apa kah...kira..ngegeh manjak la tokkkkk..haih perlu jwk pdh...hu2...gangster2 p leleh jwk..apadaaaaaaaaa~hahahhaa...dh2...knk jaga sahammmmm.......ok ok...dlm keadaan berjaga2~~~~ :P

siyes kekuatan kejelesan aku tem tok ng melampau..so sory bebeh :( xtauk phlllllll...huhu...sori sori sori...i didnt meant it!!! tp, bagus la nak drpd xda perasaan alu. hahahhahahaha :P

just want u to know, i neva do it on purpose ok? kdg2 terasa mok ngegeh ya terlampo glk la plak. ades. and i want u to know, although u knew it i guess, no one love me more than u did :) and i love u more than u think i can :P

ok dahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. jiwang ngegeh la plak. aiyer. ego? kick out. insyaAllah :)

AIM : 4-flat(next sem insyaAllah...), H.I.H please do come, i pray for u, neva slipped away from my head, sntiasa ada dlm doaku(aku ng suka molah saspen :P)...and last but not least, NGEGEH, HIM, LOVE, IZZ FAIZZ, he's mine :) 

puas hati? aku pdh jwk last2. hahahahaha :P

so, done here i guess :)

oh will be leaving btu tommorow. taun tok ku raya limbang yow. batah suda ku nda ke limbang ani (nang bulak abis la cuti reya salu ku balit :P) oh slh statement, batah suda ku nda raya di limbang ani :P yeah. tang keruk la ku kaka limbang. lmk xkaka ngn kazen ku sorg ya la molah keruk tok. hahahahha. taun tok 1st time ngabas kubo, hmm, and xramei family balit jwk. alaaaa xkesa la :) maybe smpe raya ke3 jak..:) mgu dpn bok bronggey bsama rakan taulannnnnnnnnnnn~ :P and aku nang lupak daratan kinektok...static lom pigang aluuuuuuu! aduh....

alibre sudah bjaya diinstall...A SOLID la DRAWING ku sem tok. amin. hahahahahhaha angan2 juju eh. huhu~ bok jwk kak ngerepak hal sir drawing...ada ati jwk mok dpt a pepejal ya. hahahahha. doakan aku oi~ biak xda basic drawing bah tok~ huhu...

kiko ku tempang :( pusak itam jaik ya agik brada dlm kwsan berjaga2. ku temu nya kktok siap ko ku sulaaaa!! huh...(dlm erti kata lain kiko sdg brada dlm ketakutan, smpe xmok plg umah..aku bok temu nya skali :( sedih eh~) and ada la sekok pusak itam tok ngabas umah aku...siap tdo lam kandanggggggg..nang ngegeh...nasib ko kacak~ hu2....

bah2 mupok lok yow...mun x abis juling mata kaktok~

till then~

p/s: serius2 tp xmelampau2 yg pasti, itu janji kami :)

p/s/s: tang tba sa rindu ngn rumet ku duak org ya. hahahaha...

p/s/s/s: let he be mine forever..ku nang tamak bah~ :P